1 Title: Experimental
Author: Jillian K.
Summary: see chapter 1
Disclaimer: ditto
Author's note: If you are interested about the Spike and Willow interaction then read "The Witching Hour" (no not the Anne Rice novel) which is my second companion piece to "Experimental".
Entry# 21
He was silent during the five-minute ride to Willow's. I knew that he was uneasy about seeing anyone else besides me. That disturbed me somewhat. I didn't want him to be a recluse. I didn't want him to be a prisoner forever.
I parked the car in front of Will's garden condo.
"Okay. Here we are" I said with forced cheerfulness.
He looked up at the pretty brick structure warily. I got out from the car and walked to the passenger's side. He made no move to do the same and I had to all but drag him to get him out of the car. Finally we were at Willow's doorstep.
I rang the doorbell. He looked away.
My best friend greeted us with her patented nervous Willow-smile. I knew that I was asking a lot from her. She, like most of the world regarded vampires with a mixture of fear and fascination. Even so she invited us in.
Willow's place was cozy and comfortable just like the owner herself. The décor was done in pleasant beige/tan with lots of plush couches and candles on every surface. The two large bookcases held various magick books and other objects pertaining to the craft.
I made the necessary introductions. I was surprised to see that William kept his head down and muttered a barely audible "hi". My sweet lab- vampire must be feeling so vulnerable. My heart ached for him.
The ever-perceptive Willow picked up on that. Her own hello connoted all the warmth that she could muster. I felt a rush of gratitude towards her.
I only had a few minutes to spare. I thanked Willow for her willingness to help out and made sure she had my cell phone number just in case something happened. She reassured me and I turned to William.
His eyes beckoned me to stay. I knew how much this was costing him. Willow looked harmless but she was still human and humans had kept him caged and tormented for fourteen years.
I wanted to respond to his need. When you love someone you want to spare them from all pain and hurt. But I had to do this for his sake as well as my own.
"William I have to leave now. Remember what I promised. I'll be back as soon as I can manage"
He nodded. He was trying to be as strong as I needed him to be.
I kissed his cheek and after saying goodbye to Willow I was on my way.
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I made it just as Riley's sleek, black BMW was pulling up the curb. I parked my own car in the driveway and got out to wait for him.
The man who stepped out of the luxury vehicle was the total opposite of William. Whereas my vampire looked weak and thin, Riley was the very picture of health. The tall and well-built Captain Finn would have no problems getting attention from the opposite sex especially in the tux he was wearing.
As he made his way to where I was standing, I went through a whirlwind of emotions. First of all I marveled at how could I have ever have allowed him to get close to me. I now knew what love felt like and I never had that with Riley. How then could I let him have access to my body? What did that say about me? And worse, how many times had Riley gone from screwing me to torturing William? Couldn't I sense that the hands that ran through my body were the very same that inflicted the very worse on the man I loved?
Oblivious to my inner turmoil, Riley Finn greeted me by pressing his lips to mine. I did my best not to gag.
"You look beautiful tonight" he said as his eyes took me in.
I managed a silly, vapid Buffy smile. Everything was perfect as far as I was concerned.
"Ready to go? Or do you want to make an entrance?" he asked.
"I'm ready. By the time we get pass the photographers we will be half an hour late. That's enough for a dramatic entrance" The sooner we went the sooner we can leave and the sooner I can stop pretending.
He agreed and walked me over to the passenger side. He courteously opened the door and helped me inside. The ideal gentleman.
As I settled back on the Italian leather seats, I could not help but wonder how William was doing. I hoped that he had calmed down and wasn't feeling so insecure. I hoped that Willow would be able to break through his protective shell.
The man who was directly responsible for that shell sat next to me. I tried to keep the hate from reflecting on my eyes. There was too much as stake.
"Okay here we go"
Here we go.
TBC. I apologize for the shortness of this chapter but you can always read the companion piece. I'll try to post another chapter during the weekend.
Author: Jillian K.
Summary: see chapter 1
Disclaimer: ditto
Author's note: If you are interested about the Spike and Willow interaction then read "The Witching Hour" (no not the Anne Rice novel) which is my second companion piece to "Experimental".
Entry# 21
He was silent during the five-minute ride to Willow's. I knew that he was uneasy about seeing anyone else besides me. That disturbed me somewhat. I didn't want him to be a recluse. I didn't want him to be a prisoner forever.
I parked the car in front of Will's garden condo.
"Okay. Here we are" I said with forced cheerfulness.
He looked up at the pretty brick structure warily. I got out from the car and walked to the passenger's side. He made no move to do the same and I had to all but drag him to get him out of the car. Finally we were at Willow's doorstep.
I rang the doorbell. He looked away.
My best friend greeted us with her patented nervous Willow-smile. I knew that I was asking a lot from her. She, like most of the world regarded vampires with a mixture of fear and fascination. Even so she invited us in.
Willow's place was cozy and comfortable just like the owner herself. The décor was done in pleasant beige/tan with lots of plush couches and candles on every surface. The two large bookcases held various magick books and other objects pertaining to the craft.
I made the necessary introductions. I was surprised to see that William kept his head down and muttered a barely audible "hi". My sweet lab- vampire must be feeling so vulnerable. My heart ached for him.
The ever-perceptive Willow picked up on that. Her own hello connoted all the warmth that she could muster. I felt a rush of gratitude towards her.
I only had a few minutes to spare. I thanked Willow for her willingness to help out and made sure she had my cell phone number just in case something happened. She reassured me and I turned to William.
His eyes beckoned me to stay. I knew how much this was costing him. Willow looked harmless but she was still human and humans had kept him caged and tormented for fourteen years.
I wanted to respond to his need. When you love someone you want to spare them from all pain and hurt. But I had to do this for his sake as well as my own.
"William I have to leave now. Remember what I promised. I'll be back as soon as I can manage"
He nodded. He was trying to be as strong as I needed him to be.
I kissed his cheek and after saying goodbye to Willow I was on my way.
-------
I made it just as Riley's sleek, black BMW was pulling up the curb. I parked my own car in the driveway and got out to wait for him.
The man who stepped out of the luxury vehicle was the total opposite of William. Whereas my vampire looked weak and thin, Riley was the very picture of health. The tall and well-built Captain Finn would have no problems getting attention from the opposite sex especially in the tux he was wearing.
As he made his way to where I was standing, I went through a whirlwind of emotions. First of all I marveled at how could I have ever have allowed him to get close to me. I now knew what love felt like and I never had that with Riley. How then could I let him have access to my body? What did that say about me? And worse, how many times had Riley gone from screwing me to torturing William? Couldn't I sense that the hands that ran through my body were the very same that inflicted the very worse on the man I loved?
Oblivious to my inner turmoil, Riley Finn greeted me by pressing his lips to mine. I did my best not to gag.
"You look beautiful tonight" he said as his eyes took me in.
I managed a silly, vapid Buffy smile. Everything was perfect as far as I was concerned.
"Ready to go? Or do you want to make an entrance?" he asked.
"I'm ready. By the time we get pass the photographers we will be half an hour late. That's enough for a dramatic entrance" The sooner we went the sooner we can leave and the sooner I can stop pretending.
He agreed and walked me over to the passenger side. He courteously opened the door and helped me inside. The ideal gentleman.
As I settled back on the Italian leather seats, I could not help but wonder how William was doing. I hoped that he had calmed down and wasn't feeling so insecure. I hoped that Willow would be able to break through his protective shell.
The man who was directly responsible for that shell sat next to me. I tried to keep the hate from reflecting on my eyes. There was too much as stake.
"Okay here we go"
Here we go.
TBC. I apologize for the shortness of this chapter but you can always read the companion piece. I'll try to post another chapter during the weekend.