The Wrong Kind of Glory Part 21
Disclaimer: I do not own anything from Big Time Rush.
Quote of the Day: "Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far can go." T.S. Elliot
Author's Note: This chapter will be a fun one because Logan will show his true self for once and the games will turn for Camille and Logan's power relationship. Also, I might explore how Kendall's relationship with Logan might be after that Logan has left him and the other guys. Enjoy for your own pleasure.
Logan was staring at Camille with the eyes that could penetrate the very fibers that held a person's together. And he was ready to speak with her about what just went down with Kendall. Camille was not expecting this whatsoever and did not know why Logan seemed so much more natural.
Logan began the conversation with explaining what he just did to Kendall at a very fast pace and it was very hard for Camille to follow, but she got most of it. Logan then let a single tear flow down his cheek as he ended his fast talking monologue. "Logan, why did you do that to Kendall? You should just stop this act if it is bothering you that much." Camille said.
"But I can't stop Camille, then everything will go back to the way it was before and that is what I was trying to fight this entire time." Logan replied.
"Well, what do you want to do about it now? I don't think you should pretend anymore, it is going to hurt you down the road in ways that you cannot imagine." Camille stated.
"How would you know?" Logan asked in a way that peeked his interest. "I've done stupid things with other guys Logan. Like that time I was with Steve, it was just a mess." Camille replied. "So did he hurt or something?" Logan questioned.
"No, no physically, but the cheating led to others things and it was just one ordeal that I was happy to get out of for good." Camille said about her relationship with Steve.
"I think I have to keep this going though." Logan replied.
"Well, if that is what you want to do you have to be careful about what you think is right. Don't try to make things worse with Kendall because he is basically your best friend after all." Camille said logically.
"I know, but if I don't keep this up, then they will see through me and get me to slip. It has been hard enough as it is, I just can't stop now Camille." Logan pleaded.
"Fine then, but I don't want to be dragged into this mess. It is like a house of cards and someone with a lighter could light this damn house of cards at any second, you know!" Camille yelled back.
She was not expecting this to be another one of Logan's periods, although much more drawn out than the ones before he still had moments like this where he doubted himself to the point that she almost found it unbearable. "We're famous now, we can't just stop, and we'll never hear the end of it." Logan stated.
He did have a point, if he could be her ticket to the top, then Camille could be in the jackpot, but there were a lot of things that could go wrong, but the reward was just too much for her.
"Fine I'll stay with you for now, but I'm in charge now got it. You can be the one in charge to the media, but behind the scenes, I'll be the ones pulling the strings." Camille said. "Yeah, I get it." Logan said as he rubbed his neck and stood up. "I need you to act like you did before, okay?" Camille asked.
"Yeah, but what if…." Logan was cut off with, "There are no what ifs now, if you screw up you are on your own. I'm not taking the fall because you can't grow a pair for once." Camille replied.
"Got it." Logan said back trying to be the guy the he was before, but it seemed as though the roles has reversed with him and Camille.
Logan soon left and was once again alone with his thoughts. The voice returned, "What the hell was that? You just let a girl with acting issues talk you out of your power. You are a disgrace to the recipient of the voices." Logan did not know what to do about the voice, it was getting annoying and Logan wanted to get it over with.
"Look, can you just stop with the bashing! I am not worthy of you, I get it, but the least you can do is help me try to get it back." Logan replied. "Ah, you are more aggressive than I thought. This is good; we need you to do something big that will cause the media to put you on the pedestal. We need you to get into an altercation with your fellow band mates." The voice said.
"But, I don't think that is the best idea for the moment. I just into something with Kendall, and I think I hurt him pretty badly, I don't want to hurt him anymore." Logan said back.
The voice knew that Logan would not hurt Kendall anymore, but he never said anything about hurting James or Carlos. "What about the other two?" The voice asked. "Please don't, they don't deserve any of this. Maybe I should just go back to the way things were before, they weren't that bad. I'll just be more needy than usual, Kendall won't mind." Logan said nervously.
"NO! You will not go back to the hell you put yourself through, you will rise above the ashes of defeat and make sure that you cannot ever go back there again." The voice exclaimed.
Logan sighed and knew that he was not going to get out of this. "Fine, I'll do whatever you want, but just hurting Kendall, Mrs. Knight, or Katie directly." Logan said as he made a deal.
He was also forgetting all the times that James or Carlos helped him, but to Logan right now, it was every person for themselves.
Kendall was sitting alone in the room that he shared with Logan. He stared at the picture frame that showed him hugging Logan the day that he officially became a part of their family. Kendall was so happy that Logan could finally get out of the hell that his father had put him through, and he remembered the face that Logan put on when he told the great news.
It was like something that only comes once in a lifetime. His happiness was the only thing that Kendall cared about in the world, sure he loved his other friends just nearly as much, but he had put it all on the line for Logan and now he was hurting himself again.
He wished that he could just change all of that with his intellect before the incidents with his father. But that cannot be erased, Logan and Kendall had both been through a lot and Logan had done some pretty stupid things in his years, but this easily flew by all the other ones.
This was bad and Kendall knew it, he just hoped that Logan could get out of this before it was too late because obviously he could not do it. He really thought that Logan would open up with that hug he gave him, but it turned out that nothing happened between the two of them.
He just hoped things didn't get out of hand because then the game would go down a nasty road that he knew would not end peacefully.
Kendall hoped dearly that his brother would not be the person that he was turning into, but alas Kendall did not know the truth that the foundation was beginning to crack from under Logan's mighty shell, or what is left of it.
Kendall was not the time of person that would hurt Logan, he just would not, and he didn't even think that he could it to save the life of his own mother if he had to. He loved that boy so much that it hurt him so much inside to have him doing this to himself and suffering because of it.
He wished that he could stop it, but there was once again nothing he could. He felt so powerless in the grand scheme of things; Kendall always had the ability to change things if he wanted to for the good.
He always helped his friends and it worked, he always assisted with Katie and her plans and that worked out, but this incident with Logan was just so out of his reach that it made him especially terrible.
And then Kendall started to let this feeling creep up inside of him and it began to eat away at him slowly. This feeling is something that Kendall had never before experienced, and he did not like it, but he could do nothing to stop it.
Or maybe he did not want to stop it; he hated himself for not being able to get Logan out of this situation.
He blamed himself…
Author's Note: That cliffhanger will go into the Kendall section of the next part of the story. I am confident that I can make this story go on for a long time if I want, so much material to write and so much time. I love being young. Review or comment if you want to.