Disclaimer: *sigh* If I owned Harry Potter, I wouldn't be here. But I do own Rose Gates.. and the plot.
Author's Note: So, DO YOU LOVE ME.. OR?! I figured that, since my last chapter wasn't that long- I should put another one up the next day. Will it make up for my writer's block? I certainly hope so! PLEASE REVIEW!
The silence that followed was deafening. Neither of the two girls looked as if they were comprehending any of the information they had just been told. Rose was staring off into the distance, her face giving away that she was mentally not there. Lily had gone sickly pale, her lips pursed with tension, her hands balled into fists on her knees and her breathing ragged.
Sirius cleared his throat, bringing them back.
"I-I was the dog." He murmured, not making eye contact with any of his friends. Two pairs of eyes fell onto James, as though asking him to explain his part- as Sirius had done.
"I'm a stag." He croaked, his voice raspy.
"A rat." Peter offered with a squeak.
James expected a longer silence to follow. He expected Lily to faint and Rose to scream. He expected one of them to cry. Hell, he expected himself to cry.
Looking over at Lily, taking in her stunned expression- her glassy eyes, which had gone wider than they had last night, her quivering lip which she dampened with a flick of her tongue. Her heaving chest which moved up and down- quickly with each breath. Her hands which looked as if they were strong enough to break his jaw at that point. How her lids were heavy with sleep, yet she kept them resolutely open. How, every now and then her nostrils would flare as she took in another shaky breath. How her red hair remained elegant, even though it was un-brushed and knotted.
Yes, looking at her then- James would never have expected what happened next.
"So," Her voice broke and her lip quivered, "you did all of that, for your friend?" It was evident that her question was directed at James. His eyes never left hers as he nodded.
"It's Remus, and he's our friend. He always will be." At those words Lily's face changed. Her distant eyes came back, her posture changed- became more rigid. She inhaled sharply and her hands clenched and unclenched on her thighs.
And then, she stood up.
Her hands were shaking and her expression was contorted with such a rage that James had never seen.
"Lil'?" Rose asked, her voice nervous.
Lily's breathing became ragged as she continued to stare at James. He began to get scared. He searched her face for an explanation but, all he saw was anger and…
James' breath caught in his throat.
Hidden beneath the anger in Lily Evans' face, was the look of longing that never failed to shock him whenever he saw it.
James never took his eyes from her.
Lily felt her breath accelerate, her palms grow sweaty. She felt ready-to-fall tears prick the backs of her eyes. Her heart was thumping in her chest so loudly that she wondered why Rose didn't hear it. She just waited for his conformation, fearing what she knew was coming.
He nodded.
Something inside Lily snapped, and everything came flooding through at once. Fear. Regret. Sadness. Anxiety. Anger at herself that seemed to outdo everything else. And want, so much want.
She didn't even notice as she stood up. Didn't realise the hard expression that must've appeared on her face, judging by his reaction. She didn't note how long she stood there, for all she knew were feelings. Emotions that were now free.
They had escaped her carefully built walls, and they were controlling her.
She was there in two short strides.
In one short movement, she pressed her lips to his.
The tears broke free, but she didn't care.
She pulled him up to a standing position. He returned her kiss with happy surprise.
She didn't know where they were anymore, she'd forgotten who she was with, she didn't know why she had kissed him so abruptly. But she didn't care.
For the first time, Lily Evans didn't care that it was James Potter she was kissing, or that they were in public, or that someone could see them.
All she cared about was the kiss. She wasn't even worried about what people would think.
Just the kiss.
The kiss was everything.
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"Wait! Remmy!" She called him back. 'Remmy?' He wondered as he turned around to face her.
"Yes?" Remus asked politely. Rose ran the short distance to him and, much to his surprise- enveloped him in a tight embrace and burrowed her head into his neck.
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GUYS! I AM GOING AWAY FOR A WEEK (or more) SO I PROBABLY WON"T BE ABLE TO UPDATE BUT I"LL BE WRITING SO I"LL MAKE SURE I HAVE A LONG CHAPTER FOR YOU WHEN I GET BACK.