A/N Okkayyy so this chapter took me along time to write. I just felt like I needed to get it all right. I think it's one of my best I loved writing it for some reason. It's emotional again digging a little deeper before we get back to the fun stuff. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I did writing it.
This chapter is M rated. I promise the whole story won't be that way but this was needed so bare with me. Please skip this chapter if it's not your thing.
Let me know what you think, also like always if there is something you want to see or give me a song or idea I am always open to writing it in. xoxoxo
Songs: Gorgeous and Unsteady by X Ambassadors.
Clarke felt herself jump waking up from her own nightmare. It had been awhile since she had one but reliving the moment a little with her confession could have easily brought it on. She could feel the warmth of Lexa still next to her. The brunette hadn't left her side while she slept. Reaching for her phone she seen that it wasn't as late as she expected it to be. She figured she should shoot Octavia a text for the sake of the girls sanity no matter what she was up too. Putting her phone back quietly she started to sneak out of the bed.
"No" Clarke felt herself get pulled back into Lexa's arms.
"It's not time to move, get up or anything. I am restricting you to the bed and bed only for tonight" Lexa spoke with her eyes closed. She had been awake most of the time feeling Clarke dream off and on she tried to sooth her by rubbing her back and keeping them close together.
"Lexa I have to peeee." Clarke pleaded feeling Lexa let go for a second.
"Fine but get your ass back in this bed when you are done." Lexa opened her eyes watching Clarke run to the bathroom shutting the door.
Clarke stood in the bathroom feeling sick looking at herself in the mirror. She looked horrible after crying and then dreaming. Turning on the water she threw some over her face when she heard a light knock on the door. Turning off the water she reached to open the door seeing Lexa standing on the other side.
"Can I come in?" Lexa asked wondering if Clarke was going to shut her out again.
"Ummm okay." Clarke let the door swing open as she watched Lexa walk behind her in the mirror towards the shower. Turning her head she watched the girl walk into the shower and turn the water on adjusting the temperature before walking back out.
"Come here." Lexa held out her hand waiting once again for Clarke to either open up or shut down.
"What are you doing?" Clarke looked around confused at what Lexa was doing.
"Do you trust me?" Lexa asked the forbidden question.
"You.." Clarke felt herself hesitate and she could see the slight hurt in Lexa's eyes with the lack of words.
"Just trust me this one time please." Lexa watched Clarke's eyes seeing the girl fight with herself.
"Okay." Clarke leaned up off the sink walking towards Lexa taking her hand.
Lexa took her hands pushing back Clarke's hair before running her thumbs under the girls eyes wiping away her tears. She pulled at the hem of Clarke's shirt making her lift her hands as she slipped her shirt off. Lexa tried her hardest to not stare with any kind of desire because that wasn't what this moment was about. Reaching down she pulled off Clarke's belt before unhooking her pants letting them drop as well. She could tell Clarke was dazed not sure what to do about what was happening. Lexa tilted her head up kissing her lightly before reaching around to unclasp her bra letting it fall to the floor as well. Lexa turned her around so that her back was facing her before she slid off Clarke's boyshorts. She turned to open the shower door walking Clarke in so she could soak in the hot water letting her wash it all away. She knew Clarke's dreams were heavy on her because of how she slept with pain and hurt and she just wanted the girl to feel a little better.
"Will you join me?" Clarke couldn't help but feel her heart ache at what Lexa had just done. She watched Lexa focus on the task of getting her undressed rather than staring or focusing on the sexual tension between the two of them. She could see it in her eyes that it was all done out of love even if the words haven't been said. She knew it was about washing away the day and starting fresh so she wanted Lexa to join her.
Lexa stopped with her back turned to Clarke she was shocked at what she heard. She knew Clarke was going through a lot and it was only half of the story but she wanted to make sure she was there for her in any way possible.
"Please don't make me ask twice." Clarke could feel her body shiver from the steam because she hadn't stepped under the water yet. She watched Lexa be unsure about the decision before taking off her clothes. Clarke turned to wait for Lexa she let herself breathe feeling Lexa wrap her arms around her walking them into the water. Clarke could feel Lexa breathing behind her it was steady and even she let herself relax into her arms feeling the hot water beat down on both of them.
Lexa just stood holding Clarke. She wasn't sure what she should do or what would help so she turned Clarke tilting her head back as she brushed her hair letting the water run through it. She watched Clarke close her eyes as she grabbed the soap and lathered it up before slowly brushing it over Clarke's body. She could slowly feel Clarke become more relaxed with each touch massaging the soap into her body. Pulling the hose off the shower side of the shower she turned it on running it over Clarke's body rinsing off the soap. Next she grabbed the shampoo slowly rubbing it into Clarke's hair letting her fingers massage and scratch her scalp she heard the girl moan a little it caused Lexa to smile. Once again turning her around she ran the hose over Clarke's hair rinsing the shampoo out. When she was done she just wrapped her arms around the girl feeling her shiver she stood them under the hot water again.
"Lexa." Clarke whispered hearing her voice crack. She knew she was going to start crying and she was trying her hardest not too.
"Shhhh just let it all out Clarke." Lexa pulled Clarke in tight feeling her rest her head on her shoulder as she started to bawl. Lexa could feel Clarke's legs give out a little so she sat them down letting Clarke crawl up into a little ball and just cry till she couldn't cry anymore.
"I think…. I am okay now." Clarke whipped her eyes feeling the water turn a little cold from them being in there for so long.
"Are you sure?" Lexa asked pushing the blondes hair back.
"Yes." Clarke tried to stand as she felt Lexa pick her up carrying her out of the bathroom, putting her on the bed.
"Let me grab you some clothes." Lexa turned walking into her closet forgetting she was naked herself. Grabbing some clothes of her own she threw on some shorts and a tank top but bringing out sweats and a t shirt for Clarke.
"Over dressing me huh?" Clarke joked trying to lighten the mood finally.
"No just keeping you warm." Lexa pulled the t-shirt over the girls head letting her put on the sweats herself.
"You know you didn't have to do any of this for me." Clarke grabbed the brunette's hand squeezing it.
"I wanted too." Lexa squeezed her hand back.
Clarke smiled leaning in to kiss Lexa letting her feel the emotions. The girl had just done everything she needed that she couldn't do herself. She had needed someone to just hold her and let her cry and even though her friends had tried she never really broke down about the situation till now.
"I want to tell you the rest of the story." Clarke crossed her legs on Lexa's bed hoping she could get all of this out.
"You don't have to do it right now we can talk about it another day." Lexa wanted Clarke to know there was no rush she wasn't go anywhere.
"It's okay I can do this." Clarke smiled pulling Lexa closer to her as they laid back on the bed.
"After the mugging we found out that a part of the reason I wasn't hurt was because the guys were really looking to hurt my father. I guess something happened with a patient and they wanted pay back. They had beat me up a little and threw me down just to get my father to finally fight back and when he did it's when they pulled the knife on him. I tried my hardest to fight them off and protect him but it wasn't enough." Clarke stopping taking a deep breathing feeling Lexa massage her hands trying to keep her calm.
"I wear this ring around my neck." Clarke pulled it out from under the t-shirt she knows Lexa has seen it a few times but she never asked what it was about.
"When he was dying he told me that he bought it the day I started college and kept it in his wallet so that no matter what choice I picked for my future he wanted to get it engraved and give it to me for my graduation present. That is when he told me to follow my heart with whatever passion I choose to live. I got it engraved with his name and birthday and I haven't taken it off since then." Clarke lifted the ring letting Lexa see it. It was white gold with yellow gold braided around diamonds. It was small and simple but that is how Clarke liked things.
'It's beautiful." Lexa tried to stop her own self from crying. The story was hard and she could hear Clarke struggle with the meaning behind the ring.
"After everything happened my mom broke down and blamed me for everything. She blamed me for not being able to save him after everything they taught me. I wasn't sure how to process it all myself so I started to close people out little by little trying to just forget what happened. At the time I was dating this guy his name was Finn. We were happy and in love from what I know at least and when times got tough and I was breaking down more and more day by day he must have decided that it was okay to cheat on me during it all." Clarke stopped feeling Lexa tense up the words. Clarke grabbed her hand and squeezed it letting her know it was okay.
"Once Octavia and Raven found out they came to me with the information. I only remember crying more because I thought of all people to stand by me it would have been him. He told me he wasn't able to handle my loss and that it was my fault for not grieving and moving on with him. He told me he loved me but not enough to stay with me if I was going to cry the rest of my life and then he left but not before Octavia punched one of his front teeth out." Clarke laughed thinking about seeing Finn cry like a little girl with his tooth in his hand.
"Remind me to thank Octavia the next time I see her." Lexa laughed hugging the blonde sitting next to her.
"So after I got through my first two years of trying to be the best medical student I could I finally realized that I wanted to draw and I wanted to paint and show the world what my father showed me. So now that I have switched my major my mother has been in a uproar with me and my life and the so called money that belongs to me." Clarke rolled her eyes thinking of her mother's ultimatums.
"So is that why you do everything yourself and not rely on your mother or the money." Lexa thought to herself on how much she wished she had the courage Clarke had.
"Pretty much. I mean before you I've only had Octavia and Raven and they have been my rock and my hard place even with coming out about liking women and changing my majors and just supporting me in every way they can. I don't know what I would do without either of them." Clarke leaned her head back feeling a little lighter letting Lexa in and know about her past.
"I see why Octavia threatened me now and why Raven warned me and how you guys are a package when it comes to dating someone." Lexa laughed seeing Clarke's eyes go wide.
"They did what?" Clarke sat up not believing the words she just heard from Lexa.
"Ohhh you didn't know?" Lexa laughed at Clarke's face.
"Yeah I got the I will smash your face in talks from them. Even while you two were mad at us. Raven still put a hit out on my life." Lexa watched Clarke's expression go from shock to hilarious.
"Well good you deserved it." Clarke smacked Lexa's leg thinking about everything so far they had been through and yet they were still sitting on the bed together smiling.
Beep beep beep….
Clarke looked up at Lexa who glanced over at her phone and then back to the blonde.
"Are you not going to answer that?" Clarke asked.
"It's not important." Lexa shrugged it off.
"You don't know that." Clarke reached for her phone not thinking about it how personal it could actually be.
"So who is it?" Lexa didn't care she didn't have anything to hide so she just stayed put feeling Clarke crawl over her and then back on top of her with her phone.
"Mmmm well one is from your father and I can't even imagine what that says and the other is just a number." Clarke lifted an eyebrow at the girl being curious.
"Does the number start with 503?" Lexa asked knowing exactly who it probably was.
"Yup that it does." Clarke didn't know that pass code to Lexa's phone nor was she going to ask for it because that was entering crazy stalker status.
"That would be your number one fan." Lexa smirked thinking about what she said.
"I thought that was you." Clarke laughed feeling Lexa grab her sides to tickle her.
"It's Echo, and you can just delete it I don't care what she has to say." Lexa still didn't glance up at the phone because what was important was currently laying on top of her.
"Let me in your phone." Clarke turned it around wanting to know what the text said.
"It's …" Lexa was cut off by Clarke.
"Shhhh no I can't be that type of girlfriend just type it in yourself." Clarke closed her eyes waiting for Lexa to punch in her code. Not feeling anything she peeked open an eye seeing Lexa smiling at her.
'What?" Clarke popped her head up trying to figure out what happened.
"Girlfriend huh." Lexa watched Clarke's jaw drop realizing what she just said out loud.
"Ummm yeah I..." Clarke dropped her head in her hands trying to think of what to say.
"Clarke." Lexa tapped her hands watching her peak out from them.
"Lexa it was…" Clarke stopped feeling Lexa laugh underneath her.
"You are so adorable." Lexa said between laughing.
"What is so funny?" Clarke was confused.
"Clarke I would be honored to be your girlfriend." Lexa smiled seeing the blonde blush.
"That wasn't suppose to be how it works though." Clarke laughed laying her head down on Lexa's chest when she heard the beep again.
Beep beep beep…
"Here." Lexa grabbed the phone punching in a couple of numbers unlocking her phone before handing it to Clarke.
"Hmmm I am skipping your father's text just so you know." Clarke scrolled through the messages seeing her name, Gustus, her father and a few other names she didn't know till she hit the random number showing 503.
"Ewww pshhhh…" Clarke said opening the message. It was a picture of Echo laying on a bed holding something with another message saying I miss you.
"What does it say?" Lexa watched Clarke's face scrunch up.
"Look." Clarke turned the phone around letting Lexa see the picture. She watched Lexa's face as she grabbed the phone blowing up the picture to see what the girl was holding.
"Wow she's got some serious balls with that one." Lexa turned the phone back around.
"Why do you say that?" Clarke examined the picture when another message came through.
"Shouldn't you answer her?" Clarke turned the phone back around showing Lexa the phone again.
"Nope delete it." Lexa rolled her eyes seeing Echo say it's always been you.
"I got a better idea." Clarke smirked knowing this was a total bitch move she crawled up on Lexa turn around to hold the phone up above both of them.
"Smile." Clarke said watching Lexa laugh as she snapped the photo of them together.
"Hmmm don't you look so smitten with someone." Clarke zoomed in on the photo noticing both of them were staring at each other on the screen.
"What are you adding to that?" Lexa could feel Clarke laugh a little to herself.
"Ohhh you know payback is a bitch for what she left on my door today." Clarke typed in the same message Echo had left her earlier.
"She did what?" Lexa grabbed the phone to see what it said she seen the words Echo who with a little smiley face laughing.
'What did she do to you?" Lexa asked while hitting send on the message seeing Clarke look pleased.
"Ohhh she taped that damn article to my door today with a note that said Clarke who." Clarke rolled back over so she could wrap her arms around Lexa's neck.
"Hmmm.." Lexa thought about what Clarke had said and then the picture they just sent together. It was kind of funny but she planned on having Gustus look into the issue anyways.
"It wasn't that big of a deal and I flipped off my parking lot just in case she was watching me." Clarke laughed thinking about if others had seen her.
"Well as you can tell I have no interest in her." Lexa ran her hands up Clarke's back feeling the girl relax more than she had in awhile.
"Well can you tell I have interest in you?" Clarke smiled knowing Lexa now knew her words were true.
"Well you did just go girlfriend mode on me." Lexa couldn't help but feel the butterflies in her stomach saying it again.
"Pshhh I did not go girlfriend mode on you." Clarke smacked Lexa in the chest.
"Hahaha I was just kidding." Lexa smiled down at her.
"Sooooo do you want to get some food before I go home?" Clarke asked with questioning eyes. She wasn't sure exactly how a day like this was suppose to end or where they go from here since she had just broke down a little and with Lexa's help she stood back up.
"Who said you are leaving?" Lexa tightened her grip on the girls waist.
"Well I mean after the day we both just had I figured…." Clarke stopped talking seeing Lexa's stern face.
"What?" Clarke asked trying to read the brunette.
"You are not leaving this bed." Lexa rolled them over so Clarke was now underneath her.
"Well alright commander." Clarke laughed using Lexa's nickname.
"I'll get us some food but I want you to not put a foot off this bed, got it?" Lexa slide her hand down Clarke's side grabbing her hip a little and smiling.
"Yes commander." Clarke saluted her watching the brunette roll her eyes getting up.
Clarke finally sat up glancing around Lexa's room. It was the first time she was actually paying attention to it without crying. It was gorgeous she had great taste in almost everything if she actually put the room together herself, and knowing Lexa she did. She could see the simple things that equaled the girl like the design of the book shelves they were obviously made personally along with the night stand and the table across the room. She put value and hard work into her own pieces.
Beep beep beep
Clarke looked down at the phone again hearing it go off. Lexa wasn't in the room so she didn't want to overstep but she picked up the phone seeing it was Echo's number again. She smirked knowing the picture had to have pissed off the girl but she wasn't going to read any of Lexa's messages if she wasn't around no matter how much she wanted to know what the girl had to say back.
Beep beep beep
Clarke seen now there were two messages from the girl and her fingers were itching to read them. She couldn't be happier that Lexa actually sent the message willingly rather than it just being her who wanted to stick it to the girl for all the bullshit she put her through already.
"Thinking hard?" Clarke jumped hearing Lexa because she was still holding her phone.
"Not really but you favorite person text you back." Clarke held out the phone.
"That's impossible because she is sitting in front of me." Lexa winked at her.
"Also you mean she text us back." Lexa jumped back on the bed.
"Riighhttt." Clarke tossed the phone to Lexa laying back down she watched the girl stick it on the nightstand not caring. It made Clarke smile knowing that Lexa had no worries in the world other than just being in the room with her right now.
"So if were not going to read that message then what is for dinner?" Clarke asked staring at the ceiling.
"I asked the bar to bring us over something." Lexa crawled over next to Clarke twirling a piece of the blondes hair in her fingers.
"Thank you." Clarke finally said it. She knew that Lexa was going to tell her it was nothing or that it's what she is suppose to do but it meant so much to Clarke to just say thank you finally.
"Do you want wine, beer, or water?" Lexa knew exactly what Clarke was trying to do and there was no need for a thank you so she was just going to let the words heal Clarke and keep going.
"Wine." Clarke turned her head to run her fingers down the side of Lexa's face before running one over her lips leaning up to kiss her.
"Is that all a girl has to do to get a kiss?" Lexa cocked an eyebrow.
"Ohhh well that is a start towards sooo much more." Clarke winked seeing the humor in the brunette's eyes."
"Okay so how about ummm what's your favorite color" Lexa grabbed Clarke's hand slowly massaging it.
"That's easy it's green." Clarke thought about how it was weird it was the same color of Lexa's eyes.
"What is your favorite car?" Lexa slowly made her way up to the girls wrist.
"Always a classic but I helped build a Chevy Camaro with my dad." Clarke seen Lexa's surprise.
"You should know by now I like to get my hands dirty." Clarke held her smile back when she felt Lexa pause a little in her massage.
"Mmhmm okay so what is your favorite song." Lexa tapped Clarke to roll over so she could continue the massage. She liked feeling the girl relax under her touch.
"Wow song? I pretty much have one in every genre." Clarke started thinking.
"Okay what is the last song you played on your phone." Lexa made it a little easier on the blonde as she started to push her thumbs up the sides of Clarke's spine.
"God that feels good." Clarke all but hummed.
"I don't think that is the name of a song Clarke." Lexa smiled hearing the girl partially moan underneath her. It made her want to hear it in more than one way but she was trying to keep everything simple for the night.
"Right ummm it's the song Gorgeous by X Ambassadors." Clarke could feel herself want to drool over the way Lexa's fingers massaged over every part of her back.
"Good song, have you heard the song Unsteady by them." Lexa thought of the lyrics.
"Nope is it a good one?" Clarke was a little shocked Lexa knew the band.
"One second I will play it for us." Lexa reached back grabbing her phone hooking it into the docking station next to the bed.
"Do you keep that next to your bed to please the ladies." Clarke turned her head seeing that the docking station was next to her bed.
"Actually…." Lexa scrolled through her music for the song.
"Yeah don't answer that question. I take it back." Clarke turned her head back down into the bed not wanting to think about any girl's Lexa had in here.
"Actually I've never let a girl this far into my place before." Lexa tapped play on the song hearing the music start she leaned back over Clarke to whisper in her ear.
"You're the first." Lexa grabbed Clarke's shoulder squeezing a little tight feeling how tense the girl was for a second.
Clarke didn't say anything she wasn't sure she had a voice at the moment thinking about what Lexa said. She was the first Lexa had let into her personal space. She felt Lexa's hand move to the back of her neck as she laid into the bed listening to the girl sing the words.
"Hooollddd, hold.. hold on to me." Lexa whispered the words letting them both take in the song. It was one her favorite songs at the moment not even thinking of what the words could mean.
"If you love me don't let go." Lexa kept singing feeling Clarke just breath underneath her. She realized singing to the blonde underneath her she already loved her. They hadn't known each other that long but she couldn't help but feel in her heart that it was true. It just wasn't the right time to say it.
"Hold…. hold on to me…. cause I'm a little steady." Clarke listened to Lexa sing pretty much the whole song while massaging her back. The song was beautiful. The lyrics were beautiful. She could see why Lexa would like it so much it sounded like a song she appreciated. Hearing the track switch over to Gorgeous she started to hum herself as she pushed up on the girl feeling her lift up as Clarke rolled over under her. She couldn't help but love the look Lexa gave her like she was the only girl in the world.
"Come here." Clarke pulled down on Lexa's tank top bringing her closer.
"You're soooo gorgeous." Clarke sang the words to Lexa before leaning up to capture the girls lips.
"Because you make me feel gooorrrgeous." Clarke sang against Lexa's lips before kissing her again letting the kiss deepen she felt Lexa's tongue touch hers hearing the girl moan into her mouth she was addicted to that sound and the passion they both poured into it.
Clarke opened her eyes feeling Lexa pull back. She smiled hearing Lexa finally sing the words back to her.
"Say ohhhohhoooo so prettty, feel ten feet off the ground." Lexa searched Clarke's eyes she see how deep the blue was now that she was so close to her face.
"Your so gorrrrgeous." Clarke all but hummed it out pulling Lexa back down into the kiss. She let her hands roam down Lexa's back feeling her muscle flex and then relax under her touch. She liked knowing she had that effect on her. Grabbing her hips she pulled her down so they were flush together.
"Mmm I could do this forever." Lexa said pulling away from the kiss to whisper in blondes ear feeling her shiver. She slowly started to kiss down Clarke's neck enjoying the taste of her skin as she sucked down a little on that sensitive area hearing Clarke let a moan out. She kept kissing till she got as far as she could go leaning back up to capture Clarke's lips feeling Clarke try to pull her tank top up and off.
"Clarke." Lexa grabbed her tank top before Clarke could get it off of her.
"Lexa." Clarke stopped gazing into the brunette's eyes.
"I don't what this to be everything that happened today." Lexa kissed her softly trying to tell her she was fine with just laying here with her.
Clarke smiled sliding her hand down the side of Lexa's face before letting both of her hands reach down for the edge of the brunette's tank top pulling it up and off her.
"I want you." Clarke said grabbing the back of Lexa's neck kissing her again but this time a little harder but keeping the pace slow. She felt Lexa's hand wander up the t-shirt she was wearing feeling her fingers run over her nipples she leaned up tugging her t-shirt off so she could feel Lexa's warm skin against hers.
Lexa felt like her body was on fire when she felt Clarke's skin against hers. She felt Clarke wrap her hands around the side of her neck kissing her with everything she had left. She could feel Clarke's tongue explore the taste and touch of her before biting down on her lip a little and then sucking it to sooth what pain she might have caused. She could feel Clarke try to control the situation again trying to push her over so she could be on top.
"Mmm no Clarke." Lexa shook her head feeling the girl start to push her hips up into her while letting her lips kiss down her neck she laid all her weight on the blonde so she couldn't move.
"Lexa I need…" Clarke felt herself desperate to feel the girls touch and to touch her.
"Shhhh…" Lexa pushed Clarke's arms to the side of her as she started to kiss down the center of the blondes chest. She licked and sucked getting to one of Clarke's breasts before biting down on her nipple feeling Clarke roll her hips up sucking in her breath. Lexa let her tongue roll over the nipple teasing it before moving to the other one repeating the rhythm she bit down a little harder above her nipple leaving a set of teeth marks purposely. Watching Clarke grip the blanket as she slowly laid kisses using her tongue and lips down the blondes stomach feeling her breathing becoming more and more uneven the lower she got.
"Lex…" Clarke was cut off by her own moan gripping the blankets even harder pulling on them as she felt Lexa pull her sweats down lower off her body running her tongue across her lower stomach. She felt each kiss burn against her skin as Lexa took her sweet time torturing her with each finger she used to inch her sweats off on each side letting her lips replace every finger Clarke could finally feel Lexa push herself up pulling the sweats all the way down as she felt her weight come back down and her breathe blow out exactly where she wanted her.
"Fuck Lexa." Clarke lifted her hands above her head ready to beg when she finally felt Lexa's tongue slide across her inner thigh sucking and biting Clarke pushed her hips up into the girl seeking any kind of friction she could get before feeling Lexa's hand push down on her lower stomach keeping her in place.
"Are you sure." Lexa asked one more time making sure Clarke knew this has nothing to do with today's events it was just about them.
"Yes trust me I want to feel you inside of me Lexa." She felt Clarke try her hardest to push up against her mouth. She didn't hesitate letting go and allowing Clarke to rise up to her mouth letting her tongue slide inside of the blonde finally. She felt her shiver underneath her squeezing her thighs every time Lexa let her tongue slide over and circle her clit. She sucked and nipped at her sensitive areas tasting every inch of Clarke before pushing her tongue inside her.
"Mmmmm…" Lexa heard Clarke groan as she rocked her hips into her mouth. She could feel how turned on the girl was with how she was moving beneath her and it just made Lexa want to please her more. Lexa felt the girl start to shake so she removed her tongue sliding a finger into the blonde biting her own lip feeling how wet Clarke was. She slowly started to push her finger in and out of Clarke knowing she wanted it to be fast but Lexa refused to speed up keeping the pace slow and torturing. She loved listening to the blonde groan and speak slowly under her breathe.
"If you don't." Clarke hitched her breath feeling Lexa push another finger inside her sucking down on her clit again she didn't know how she was managing the slow pace because her body was on fire she wanted to feel every inch of the brunette but she kept her hands above her head letting Lexa finally have her. She felt the brunette pushing in and out of her as she pulled herself back up sucking down hard on one of her nipples she couldn't stop herself from grabbing Lexa's hair pushing her down harder letting her bite down feeling her teeth had her thighs shaking.
"Come here." Clarke managed to get out between breaths pulling on the brunettes hair making her meet her face to face as Clarke dug her fingers into the back of her neck bring her lips to meet hers in a slow torturing kiss. She let her lips suck on Lexa's feeling the brunette slid her thumb over her clit circling it as her fingers kept pushing in and out of her bring her so close to losing herself. She met her lips again letting her tongue circle over Lexa's lips before sliding her tongue into the brunette's mouth pulling on her hard Clarke felt her hips start to give in to the orgasm.
"Look at me." Lexa slowed her pace even more waiting for Clarke to open her eyes she seen the blue finally meet hers dark with desire she pushed deep inside her with her thumb working against her clit. Lexa pushed her hips down hard feeling and seeing the blonde break down beneath her. Lexa lost herself in Clarke's eyes feeling the girl shake under her as the orgasm ripped through her body. She could feel the blonde dig her nails into her back with one still wrapped behind Lexa's neck she leaned down kissing her again slowly as she pulled her fingers in and out of her letting her ride out the sensation.
"Ughhh.." Lexa smirked hearing Clarke groan as she let her body fall against the bed not moving.
"Are you okay?" Lexa knew Clarke wanted her and wanted this but she couldn't stop herself from asking one more time.
"You are amazing." Clarke wanted to say more than that but it was impossible she just laughed lifting her head up giving Lexa a quick kiss.
"Well that didn't answer my question but I will take it." Lexa smiled down at the girl before rolling off to lay next to her.
"I couldn't be better, it couldn't be any better then being with you." Clarke pushed Lexa on her back so she could lay on top of her resting her head against her chest hearing the rapid beat. She knew there was no way Lexa was going to let her return anything no matter how badly she wanted too. Tonight was about them but mostly about her and she was fine with that.
"Thank you." Lexa heard the blonde whisper it again knowing it was for the whole day. For Lexa taking her time to let Clarke be vulnerable to let her break down and cry and for taking care of her at one of her weakest moments. Lexa didn't say anything back she just pulled them together rubbing the blondes back till she felt her start to fall asleep as she closed her eyes as well letting them both drift off.
A/N Okay so an emotional ride with some emotional sex and a little payback. Once again I felt like this chapter was needed that they both needed it before everything else starts to happen and fall into place. Let me know what you think and check out the songs if you'd like. Please review it helps me and all the other writers want to write more. xoxoxo