Chapter 21 the start of the resolution between cat and tori
A/N these conversations happen within minutes of each other but I'll be splitting them up for continuity
In Jack's room at 7 am the next day
"cat you know she feels really bad and is feeling suicidal right now, when we were talking I saw it in her eyes, now tell me what was going through you're mind two days ago" says Jack
"wait what….. I thought she betrayed me, I thought I could calm her down, I had been able to do so until now, I ran in and got two words out before she got me in a choke hold, I am usually able to predict where she moves and how fast, but that time it was like she was invisible, I couldn't see her until she reached around my neck, one second she was in front of me looking at the bed, then the next thing I knew she was behind me with me in a choke hold" says Cat crying
"cat those techniques you were learning don't work on people like you they work on people like me and Sam but you guys need something different, she explained everything to me on the way back before we came to check on you, her head hung low the entire time, when we came to see you she couldn't be in the same room as she couldn't bear the pain of seeing you hurt like this, she stayed In the dining room all night, she couldn't be in that room without you, Carly told me that tori is going to talk to jade and Ashley today and that the reason she couldn't be in that room over night is because she was afraid she'd kill herself from the pain she remembers causing you and she had nightmares all night and jumped 3 feet in the air when Carly woke her up" says Jack
"b-b-but her and Jade aren't friends, I guess from what jade told me about Ashley and her past it scared me how similar it was to mine, but I could never see tor killing herself" says Cat feeling a pain in her heart
"well you changed Tori again cat, you underestimate the effect you have on others, while she handles pain better than you she still can't hold her own when you get hurt, you have seen this 3 times just here on Hawaii and you know this, this one is by far the worst I've seen out of her or you" says Jack
"well it seems that I've made a grave mistake requesting bunking changes then, and yes but each time I was able to stop her, I don't know if I have enough power over Tor to stop her from killing herself" cries Cat
"you know that is the second time in the past five minutes that you have called her Tor, All yesterday you just called her Vega, like what jade used to do, or so I've heard she used to do, you realize this right" says Jack
"no I didn't notice, I guess I was just upset yesterday, I usually always call her Tor, I really need a new pet name for her, I know she doesn't exactly like being called Tor but it's what I've always called her just like she always called me cutie" says Cat realizing the pain Tori must feel right now
"I know you don't trust her right now but we are headed to lunch to meet them when I get a call from Carly saying we are good to go" says Jack
In Jade's room at 7:30 am
"hey jade may I come in" says Tori
"Jade's in the shower girly, come on in" Says Ashley
"wait did she take a shower because she is avoiding me or because you two studied?" asks Tori
"little bit of both girly she will be back in twenty minutes" says Ashley not believing how scared tori is right now
"oh ok then, did she say anything about the situation two days ago" asks Tori
"yes she told me what happened, but when I got a text from Carly explaining your state of mind she was worried about you but she was afraid she would say the wrong thing and push you closer to suicide so she said she would take a shower while we started off explaining my past and how you and Cat mean so much to her" says Ashley
"wait she actually said we meant so much to her, and Carly explained your past to me as it was the only way she knew to get me to agree to meeting you now" says Tori
"well then jade had little to worry about, but seriously I adored how you and cat were so open about your relationship, whenever I went out with girls I always said dinner and sleepovers never outright saying it although my parents knew after they caught me in one of my sleepovers and questioned me why I only kept the girls secret but not the guys, I said it was because I was afraid I'd get bullied at school, they weren't mad at me but helped me see that they cared" says Ashley
"I was adamant I was straight until cat kissed me, I thought it was for the play she and I were rehearsing for but it felt all too real for just a stage kiss and my mind went crazy for her, I could barely focus on school let alone focus on her, Cat told me she payed guys to "go out" with her while she was in high school to seem normal around me so I would think she was just lost in thought while she couldn't help staring at me but one boy she didn't have to pay used to be my boyfriend but things happened and apparently she wasn't upset about me kissing my ex in front of her but was upset that she thought she could never have me, now can we get on with our discussion, because I feel like killing myself right now realizing I just dashed her dreams forever" says tori
"fine fine, open communication is a great thing but some secrets are necessary for a healthy relationship, with jade I no longer have to worry about anything, you and cat are the same, she needs you the way you need her, and if you can't control your anger then you need to learn to do that if you care about her that much" says Ashley
"jack, cat's doctor uncle said we were taught the wrong techniques" says Tori
"Then I suggest you ask for private lessons from him before she gets better and you feel vulnerable again" says Ashley with determination in her voice
"ok I'll ask him, thanks for everything Ashley, I should get out of here before jade gets back" Says Tori but as she turn around jade is blocking her escape
"going somewhere girly, I need to talk to you too Tor, but from the look in your eyes I can see it can wait, lunch talk, Cat is supposed to be there too" Says Jade
"I'm not strong enough yet Jade I can't I just can't" says Tori as she drops her head again
"Jade how could you say that, you can't say that yet" scorns Ashley as she sees Jade run off probably to tell Carly what happened and that tori won't join them for lunch
"well I guess I have to see her don't I, especially if I want to apologize to her, I need her to be my rock again especially now" says Tori as she walks out of the room in search of Jack and cat
A/N well they don't meet at lunch for a whole week as tori kept backing out which is why this chapter is shorter than I wanted it to be