"Because he raped me!"
Chapter XXI: Because
What's wrong with me?
When somebody's knocking, somebody wants me
Or somebody's trying to love me completely
I get scared, don't know how it works
Will somebody save or will I get burned?
Shit, I said it. I cover my mouth in surprise and horror. Damned, damned! That wasn't supposed to come out, but he was aggravating me so badly that I had to say something. But why that? Why couldn't I just have yelled that I wanted a pony or something like that? It seems as if he's as shocked as I am because he looks kinda speechless. No, dumbstruck is the word. He's just staring at me with his mouth open. Intelligent look Sky, very intelligent.
"What?" he finally manages to utter. I would've expected more feedback but hey, he's already talking, that's a good thing! Pf I can't play cool anymore. I sink down on my knees and start sobbing. He has to go away, he has to stop looking at me when I'm crying! I bury my head in my hands, ignoring Sky when he wraps his arms around me comfortingly.
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asks softly
"You wouldn't want me after that." I reply, shaking
"You know that's a dirty lie" he whispers, kissing my forehead.
"When?" he asks. Is this really necessary? It's already painful enough.
"I… I don't remember" I say and the moment I pronounce the words I realize that they don't sound very convincing.
"Bloom, please, I want to help you, I want you to process it and…" he sighs "But you've got to let me in"
"You mean the first time or the second time?" I ask inquire cynically
"What?" he exclaims, letting go of me, trying to get up. I pull his arm back closer to me, I don't want him to go.
"Don't go" I murmur almost inaudible "Stay"
"I'm gonna kill that son of a…" the rest is muffled in my hair, but I have a pretty good idea of wh he was trying to say.
"Don't. He's not even worth it."
"Did… did he hurt you?"
"Did you honestly believe I fell down the stairs?" I look up at him provocatively
"You… Oh God" he realizes "And I was angry with you because of that stupid bet and you just had been raped? I am such a jerk!" he shakes his head in disbelief
"Yeah you are" I agree with a small grin
"Why did he do this?"
"Apparently, I'm chosen. I'm not the only one, Sky" I gaze into his eyes, frightened "There are other girls out there that he has… used too, and he is not finished. I don't even want to imagine how much, I mean…" I pause, ordering my thoughts. "He thinks he does us a pleasure, he thinks that we enjoy it. He is seriously twisted."
"Why on Eraklyon haven't you revealed this earlier, Bloom?" he asks. Is that a glint of anger in his voice?
"It's not something you just go around and tell everyone, Sky" I shoot back, cross and snubbed
"I know that!" he lets out a sigh, frustrated. "I just think you should've warned certain people."
"And say what? That guy raped me, so stay away from him? I don't even have proof!"
"Does it matter? I believe you! Other people would do too! Especially if you'd find the other girls."
"Oh sure, let's track the other victims so we can start some kind of group: 'Brian's rape victims'" I sneer sarcastically because I don't understand why he's so stupid!
"So you don't want to prevent this from happening again?" he asks sternly
"I don't want to talk about it anymore. It's not exactly my favorite subject! I told you, be satisfied!" I heave a sigh "I want us to stop arguing, I'm so sick of it"
"You created the reason for our fight" Did he seriously say that? I gawk at him, astonished
"Yeah, I'm sorry, next time I'll try not to get raped!" I yell hysterically
"That's not what I meant' he shouts, running his hand through his blonde hair exasperated
"It's exactly what you meant" I bow my head, sad-faced
"Off course not!" he says, caressing my cheek lovingly "But I can't take this anymore either, we have to do something about it."
"Like what? Turn back time? I already tried that and guess what, it didn't work!"
"You turned back time?" he asks, bewildered. Our conversation is interrupted by a loud shriek.
"Flora" I look at Sky anxiously. God, no. I dash off without saying a word, remembering what Flora said… she already met him. But she didn't want him.
What if…?
I sprint to the direction of the noise I find Brian on top of a terrified Flora, practically strangling her.
"You pig!" I cry out "What has she ever done to you? Get off her!" I throw him off myself violently, in my rage.
"I do not understand you. You are obviously sick. And you have a death wish." I made a lot of racket, because everyone has arrived now.
This will not be nice. Then again, I'm not nice.
Sky's POV
I'm still so dazed and flustered because of what she just told me… and now I see her strong again, facing the man that raped her… twice. I'm gonna kill him. I rush ahead but Bloom spins around as quick as lightning and stops me. I look into her eyes and gasp in shock. I swear that in those once beautiful sapphire eyes, there is burning real fire. Everyone backs off a bit, actually scared of my girlfriend.
"Helia" she abruptly says in a commanding tone and nods her head at a frightened Flora. I can't believe a minute ago, Bloom looked even more vulnerable and Bloom's face was twice as tear-stained as Flora's. I don't know how she does it. She's amazing.
But she should've told me.
If she honestly believed I wouldn't want her anymore, she is the twisted one. I want to help her, but she doesn't seem to open up. I know it sounds hopelessly lame and mushy, but hey, that's who I am. Bloom doesn't seem to mind. I look at her as she smiles evilly and strips Brian of his clothes by one gesture of that milky white hand. Helia cradles Flora in his arms soothingly, and the girl doesn't seem to mind at all, quite the contrary, she snuggles up to him, still weeping. At least one good thing occurred then: Helia finally found Flora. I can only hope Bloom lets me in too. I'll give her time. I'll wait patiently. But I will never have her completely if she doesn't give in just a tiny little bit. If people say men are too proud, they have never met Bloom.
Bloom's POV:
"It didn't make me feel better" I grasp as I fall down the bed in my room at Sparx.
"No one said you should" I look at him, frowning "feel better, I mean"
"You're trying really hard" I determine. He sits down and lays himself on the bed too. I turn my head to him, looking right into his eyes.
"I love you" he whispers. That is definitely the right time to say it. Blissful feeling there. He closes the space between us by giving me a long kiss. His hand moves towards my face, cupping it. He continues his trip, down to my waist , lower, to my hips. We pull away at the same time. I move my elbow and supported my head with it, smiling.
"Again?" I smirk. His smile fades.
"Why did you turn back time?" he asks out of the blue. I groan and roll of the bed. I prefer the sex to be honest
"You know it's illegal, right?"
"That didn't really matter" I mumble dejectedly
"Was it just to forget everything?" he asks empathically
"I don't know, why don't you tell me next time you get raped"
"Bloom, I'm kinda sick of your sarcastic remarks. Just because I'm a guy, doesn't mean I don't understand you… I'm trying here" he looks at me, anticipating
"It's not working" I say numbly
"I'll make it work, why don't you even try?" he shouts upset. Not so loud!
"You think I'm not trying? I am, I really am, but I can't get over it. But I want too and… I can't. do you have any idea how that feels?" I ask him with a pleading look
"I do" he replies to my astonishment. I knit my brows, not understanding
"I want to make this work, I don't want to fight anymore and yet it doesn't work." He looks up at me, with a slightly accusing glare
"It's my fault" I admit
"Off course not!" he exclaims "That's drivel!"
"Then tell me what we can do? I don't know if I can take it anymore. Maybe we should separate for a few weeks, to think" I say, to my own surprise.
"No, no!" he says, shaking his head vehemently
"I really need some time off Sky, maybe after that, we can give it another try, okay?"
"No!" he yells again
"Yes!" I contradict angrily. He looks at me passionately and incensed
"Marry me, Bloom."
Lyrics: Burned by Hilary Duff
A/N: he is seriously acting weird ; ) Who thinks Bloom should say yes and MARRY SKY?!
PhoebeTheQueenOfDragons: because I don't want to kill you, I updated quite fast, but um I think I created another huge cliffhanger. Sorry about that. Was this chapter a bit better?
Black Daylight: hey, if you're happy, I'm happy too : D Do you think Bloom should say yes?
CraneAndFalconForeventhat's okay, I'm glad you're here again : ) I think Sky reacted kinda weird, but hey, who can blame him ? I think the question now is: what will Bloom do? Layla's off, in the woods, gone, eaten by a big slut-eating brown monster : D thanx xD
Bloom1000000: Yay! Thanx :D x33
CelestialSecrets you're really surprised? Really? YES! I ACHIEVED THE IMPOSSIBLE! Did I achieve it again this chapter? You're not telling me you knew he would react this way, you know; 'marry me' Oh boy did I seriously write that? Solve problems quicker? Apparently not : ) xoxo
Diamond-baby94: hey, no swearing here:D You like cliffies? Well, this is another one. A big one I should say : ) Stop screaming ! I updated:D xD
raebird223: yeah, he knows, finally indeed : ) Yeah, he probably wanted to beat Brian up, but Bloom beat him to it. ha, beaten by a girl: ) xD
angelgrl31392: I like sparks : ). Well my vacation went very well. We went to one museum (luckily only one) about Dalì, but that was really boring! Aside from that…incredibly nice weather and very nice waiters ; ) xD
angelgrl313922007-10-15ch 20, reply
wow... this is going to bring up some sparks!please continue soon...btw how's your vacation?