Light spilled through the window as the night drew on. My time with Ben was almost over and we were still sleeping together in my bed, with him curled around my back. A stiff sadness hung in the air and he drew silent kisses along the side of my neck, sliding a hand under my shirt to wander up to my breasts. He could easily grasp the entire mound in his palm and stroked his thumb across my nipple. My cheeks were cracked with tears. Would I ever see him again?

"I love you, Rey," he whispered.

"That's not enough."

Ben tugged down my pants to my thighs and slipped his hand past my butt to slide a wet finger inside me. "It should be."

Eventually he rolled over on top of me, pressing my face into the pillows, and brushed my hair from the face so I could gaze out the window. I didn't want to say no. His physicality wasn't proving that he loved me. He pushed up my shirt to the middle of my back and yanked down his pants, too, and I closed my eyes, intent on enjoying the final hours I had with Ben.

He propped up my hips and pushed inside me again with no warning. I hissed and squirmed away but he held me fast and murmured to me, taking inch by inch of my insides.

"Quiet," Ben crooned. "We don't want anyone to hear us."

"But… it kind of hurts…"

He was leaning over my back, slowly rocking into me. "I'm sorry, little one. Do you want me to stop?"

"Well, no…" I shifted underneath his weight to arch into his hips. "Um… Could I get pregnant?"

Ben throbbed inside me and inhaled the scent of my hair. "Yes, you could." He was trying to be quiet, avoiding the squeaky parts of the bed. "Then you would stay with me."

I shook my head slightly. "No… No. I'm not having a baby right now, and if I did… I'd leave."

He paused. I could feel his hot pressure inside me, pulsing and hungry. It was a welcome feeling, but the annoyance rolling off of him was not. That wasn't the answer he wanted. I didn't care. It was the truth—I would not have a baby at sixteen and I certainly wouldn't raise one within the First Order.

His gentle thrusts resumed. "You think you'd be able to leave?"

"Yes," I said, nodding. "I'm just as strong as you."

Ben pushed me down with the Force, pinning me to the bed. He grasped my hips and began a punishing pace, making me flinch and struggle to squirm away. His breath was hot on my ear and I couldn't escape him. It was arousing and terrifying at the same time.

He bit my earlobe. "No, you aren't. No matter where you go, or where you try to hide—I'll find you, Rey. And when I do, I won't let you go."

"Ben—"

"Shh. Take it. Enjoy it."

A few more minutes passed before Ben finished inside me, thrusting and grunting like the night before. I felt his essence spill within, hot and thick, and he again didn't bother trying to make me finish. He panted into the back of my neck and rocked forward as he gradually became hard again. I swallowed and tried not to think of the fluid squishing inside me.

"Good girl," Ben groaned. "Good girl. Do you want me to fill you up?"

I answered honestly and shook my head. "N-No. Can't you find a condom? I don't want—"

"You do." He dipped to my ear, licking the shell, and I wished I could see his face. "You want me to cum in you, little one. You'll have our babies and I'll do whatever you want whenever you want. I'll spoil you in every way possible, Rey. I love you."

There was nothing to say. Ben finally reached between my legs to help me finish, too, and I whimpered and rubbed on them a few moments before he reached his plateau. He hovered over me and panted for a few minutes before finally withdrawing and lying beside me.

Ben—my Ben, the other half of my soul—sighed. "I'll find you, Rey. Baby or not. I'll find you, and you'll stand by my side, and we'll keep trying until we have our baby. I love you… so much. I love you."

My chest constricted. I was satisfied but afraid of his words. Why would he think I wanted a baby? He'd never mentioned it before. He tried to avoid it. He said I was too young for him to even have sex with. Now we'd done it three times with no protection and I could wake up in a few weeks with a small piece of Ben growing inside me.

"…I love you, too," I mumbled.

He growled appreciatively, pressing inside me again. "I've wanted this for so long. I had to keep fighting it but now… now we can be together. No one can stop us. You'll come with me, and—"

I twisted onto my back to glare up into Ben's dark eyes. "I'm not going."

"Yes, you are." He brushed my hair back and thrust between my lips, taking me for the third time. "You're mine. You will never get away from me."

"Cut it out!"

"No. You're mine. You've always been mine, and you always will be."

Ben buried his nose in my neck and kept pumping inside me, swelling yet again. I was getting nervous and pushed on his hips but he kept going and throbbed and whispered that I belonged to him. The Stranger was nowhere to be seen. Ben himself had these feelings.

I pushed on his shoulders, teary-eyed. "You're hurting me."

"It's the way it has to be, little one." He grunted and pulsed in my passage. "I want you so badly. I want you pregnant and with me and—"

It was enough. I used the Light to burn Ben and force him off me and he jerked back, giving me enough space to sit up straight. He panted and stared at me hungrily as I yanked up my pants.

"I'm sixteen!" I snapped. "I don't want to have kids with you! And I don't belong to you, Ben. I never have and I never will. Yeah, we have a deep bond, but it doesn't give you rights to me."

"Let me show you. I love you."

Ugh! I slipped out of bed to readjust my clothes and Ben followed close behind. He wrapped his arms around me, kissing me passionately, but I broke away with another jolt of the Force. He pursued, trying to embrace me again, and I zapped him with the Light.

"Rey!" Ben snapped. "Stop! I'm trying—"

I held my hands out defensively. "Grabbing me doesn't prove that you love me!"

"I'm sorry that I hurt you. You're tiny and fragile so it's going to hurt." He snagged my waist and pressed his arousal into my stomach. "I just want to feel you."

"No, you want me pregnant, which I don't want."

"Rey… please," Ben begged. "I love you. I want what's best for you."

"I don't think you do."

We went back to bed, and Ben rolled on top of me to push into my body again. I didn't care anymore. I was so sad—so depressed that he would never come back to me. I cried softly into his shoulder while he grunted and groaned and slicked my insides with cum. It was over between us.

Ben rose around dawn and stared down at me. "I'll find you, Rey. Next time, you're coming with me."

I was too tired and emotionally spent to care. I curled under the sheets as Ben dressed and left my bedroom. Fine. Try to find me. I'll never give in.

Hours passed before I had to willpower to get out of bed. I took a shower and dressed in my black robes and stalked downstairs to find Leia sitting alone. She was playing with golden dice and looked sad until she caught me approaching her. The frown turned up in a smile.

"He's gone," she said. "I'm sorry I didn't wake you."

I sat beside her and smiled back. "It's for the best. Um… I need to do some traveling. Can you pass a message to Luke and Jira for me?"

Leia nodded. "Of course, Rey. What is it?"

"Well… I need to be on my own for a while. I can't go back to Spintir and risk hurting anyone. Just telling them that I'm okay, and I will be in touch if I need them."

"Rey, do you need help?"

I rose from the chair and shook my head, smiling. "I'm okay. I just need some space."

Leia commandeered a small freighter called Dawn for me. I'd learned to fly from my time on Jakku and some lessons from Luke. She stocked my ship with food and clothing and we had a long hug before I left. I had a feeling that he knew what happened between Ben and I.

It was too dangerous to return to Spintir. I didn't even want to risk talking to anyone. So I lifted off from Coruscant and decided to go to Naboo for a bit of scenery. If Ben would keep me when he found me, I'd spend the rest of my life avoiding him. I'd flee to as many planets as possible and stay under the radar. He'd waste his time seeking me out until the sheer futility of it all caught up with him.

I steered the ship into the vastness of space and joined a hyperdrive. No one owned Rey of Jakku. No one. Even if I loved Ben Solo, I wasn't his property, and he wouldn't use me as a conduit of his legacy.