Ch. 21
Beck's POV
I want to tell Tori what Cat has just told me. But is it my place? Awe damn my stab wound still really hurts. I am so angry that I missed graduation; I have been looking forward to it for years. I wanted to walk onto stage and feel like I had accomplished something. Well I guess I will have the same opportunity when I am done with college. But high school graduation is more celebrated in the states than it is in Canada.
Damn my mind is wandering all over the place; it sure is frustrating. I need to tell Tori that Cat is in love with me; which is really odd considering she is so on and off with Robbie. I honestly think Cat doesn't know what she is talking about. She has been so on and off about everything. Her entire high school career she hopped around from one thing to the next like a frog on a lily pad. Do I tell Tori, or let Cat tell her?
Man this stupid stab wound burns-when I touch it I can still feel where the blade went in. He almost got my heart-that would have been the end of Tori. I am so glad that I am not dead-but damn when I was fading in and out of life the only thing that kept me to this world was Tori's voice telling me that we were going to go to college in Canada. She has all these plans for us, my girl does.
I can tell she is never going to leave my side, not with Andre and Andy Harris hanging over her thoughts and dreams. I am the only one that can keep those two bastards at bay in her mind. I like being her protector- but still I failed to protect her twice now; the first time being the rape and the second being the break in at my trailer.
I am so grateful to Cat for protecting Tori, for knowing how to use a gun. I must say that is pretty bad ass that a woman knows how to use a gun. Man Tori needs to learn how to defend herself; maybe she relies on me too much for protection. I have failed Tori in this area. She needs to learn to fend for herself. She can't rely on me to always be there for her; I will have to go off to work while she takes the kids to school.
Wait am I really thinking about having kids with this woman? I want a future with her, but I am only 18 almost 19. I am too young to think about marriage. But we are going off to college and will have an apartment together. And she lives with me now; and we both live away from our families. Maybe I am not so crazy…maybe I should ask her to stay with me. Maybe I should ask her to marry me. What am I thinking-this is insane. I am so young-who marries after high school? Well I suppose we could have a long engagement. I want to heal up from these damn stab wounds before I even think about proposing to her. But I love her so much, and I did have sex with her. I told her the woman I have sex with is the woman I want to end up with. So she must know I am planning on going nowhere. She is my best friend in the whole world and awe damn who am I fooling? Tori Vega, I have just decided to ask you to be mine. Here I come.