Always there

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Chapter 21- Pretending that everything is okay.

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I am sooo sorry I have taken so long to update all of my stories and promise to try and do so more frequently =] Im just starting college so everything is a bit hectic right now!

Kelly

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Nicky's was busy as usual, mostly students from school but some other people who were just passing through, I could tell my companions were nervous, they all seemed skittish and were trying much to hard to make conversation and crack jokes. Watching them with my new knowledge I could hardly believe that I had not recognised it myself, they were so different, much more quiet and the boys kept exchanging long, knowing glances that made my spine tingle, I could also tell that Reid was unhappy, I didn't want to ignore him, of course I didn't, I didn't want to be mad, infact I wasn't mad, I was terrified, sad and I felt betrayed but I wasn't mad at him.

I needed him to be safe and I needed to feel like he needed me, I knew it was insecure and stupid but he could have told me! I could have been there, I could only imagine how he's been feeling over the past weeks and days, scared as his impending ascension drew nearer and nearer, yet he kept a brave face constantly, he never let me see him unhappy.

This whole time I'd been blissfully floating as he fell deeper and deeper into his fear and I never noticed a thing. No. I wasn't mad at him! I was mad at myself.

"Kelly? You okay?" Sarah asked as I stared across the table at Reid, who had deliberatly sat the farthest away ffrom me and was now frowning into his beer glass.

I shook my head sadly and glanced at her worried face, then returned my gaze to Reid who had not moved.

"You wanna take a walk outside for a bit?" she asked gently putting her arm around my shoulders, I nodded and slid around the table, making my way past Pogue, Caleb and Tyler who were playing pool, this time Reid had not joined them, I heard Reids muffled voice and turned to see him stood up talking to sarah animatedly, who nodded and said, her voice a little louder, "I'll be with her Reid"

He sighed and returned to his seat sullenly staring once again at his beer, I felt my heart constrict at his sadness but carried on towards the door.

"Did you two have a fight? You've barely spoken to one and other all evening." Sarah said before we'd even opened the door.

The outside air was refreshingly cool and the alley was darker than the sythetic lights inside, I shook my head and replied, "I know it's his birthday tomorrow."

"Kelly i..."

"Why didn't anyone tell me? I had to find out from my roommate that my boyfriend turns eighteen tomorrow, not only that but he ascends to higher powers too, Oh! And he may just be addicted to the ones he already has and die and/or try and kill us all!"

"Don't yell Kelly, I was just following orders, so was Kate."

"Why? Why Sarah? I could've, I, What was the plan Huh? What about when he ascends? What was I supposed to do then?"

"We, we weren't going to tell you, Kate and I were supposed to take you out, have a, a girly night, keep your mind away from anything related, and then when it was all over they were going to tell you, I , " she stammered.

"When it was all over?" I asked, my back pressing hard against the cold brick wall.

"When he had ascended, when they knew for certain that he wasn't... that he was okay"

"Wasn't what? Addicted?"

She hesitated, then "Yes."

I slid down the wall, by bum hitting the gravely floor hard and put my head in my knees, "What if he was addicted?" I whispered, "What if they couldn't save him?"

"I dont know"

"Would they have, would I have seen him again? What if everything we've done isn't enough to stop the addiction? What if they'd lost him, what if everything that was Reid dissapeared and I wasn't there? What if I didn't get to say goodbye?" I sobbed.

"Kelly" Sarah said soothingly, rubbing my arm gently, "Reid hasn't used, for a ong time since he met you, Caleb thinks he'll be okay"

"But Caleb doesn't know everything Sarah!" I cried, "He could be wrong! I have to be there Sarah! I have to."

"I know honey, I'll tell you what, I'll tell Caleb you know! And that you'll be there, infact I'll tell him we'll all be there! You me and Kate! It's not their private little club anymore." she stood and held her hand out to me.

"I think I'll stay out here for a bit, could you send Reid out?"

"Sure thing"

"And Sarah. Thanks" She nodded and pushed back through the door, loud music breifly peircing the alleyways silence before the heavy door closed behind her.

After a few minutes I felt a warm hand on my shoulder "Kelly?" I nodded, though I knew he knew it was me.

"Im sorry" he said sliding down beside me, "I should've told you I just didn't want to frighten you"

"I know" I mumbled as he wrapped his arms around me, I could feel the salty tears welling in my eyes and felt to tired to try and stop them. Why shouldnt I cry?

"I just wish you had've I could have carried this burden with you" I said, "I need you Reid, all of you, your likes, your dilikes, your fears, everything"

"I know," he nuzzled his chin into my hair and pulled me closer and we sat there for some time, wrapped together in the cold alleyway, just together.

xxx

Disclaimer----- If I did own them I would be writing a sequel movie not a freaking fanfiction! Why havent they made a sequel?! =S I think Im gonna find the makers and torture them until they do and then when filming is complete Ill kidnap the male cast! Genius! Whose with me????