Sooo! I guess my word processor is doing some weird things with my editing and cutting some words out and makes me sound like a little kid so if something doesn't make sense ask! And this chapter is a little short but get over it(: You'll have a long update later in the day!

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Spencer's POV

Ashley was more than adorable acting. She was actually really good at it too. She was so passionate and her love for singing makes me love her character so much more. She was exactly worth everything they signed her for. It was about midnight and we were about to leave together. Ashley had been deprived of food all day between commercial runs and photo-shoots she was falling to skin and bones. We hoped in in my car and she fell asleep as I drove her back to her loft. I stopped and picked up Chinese. I parked the car in the garage. I put Ashley in my arms and carried her holding the Chinese under her in one hand and her keys in the other.

When I walked inside all the lights were off and I carried Ash up the stairs and laid her in her bed. I ate my Chinese and left hers in her fridge. I wrote her not just in case I wasn't back in the morning and took off. I drove back to my Aiden and I's apartment. He was watching tv when I walked in.

"Hey babe." He said scratching his nuts. He knows how to get the ladies let me tell you. I rolled my eyes at him and walked to the kitchen.

"Hey." I said stretching.

"You eat already?" He asked.

"Yeah. I grabbed take out." I said setting down my keys. I began to take off my jacket when I felt Aiden's hands wrap around my waist.

"I missed you." He said kissing my neck. He had unshaved hairs that felt rough against my skin. I shivered away from him.

"Is that so?" I asked smiling setting my jacket down on the table.

He walked back over to me and grabs my waist.

"More than you can imagine. I can't wait to get married here in LA baby. It's going to be perfect.
He smiled kissing my mouth.

"You mean in Ohio, right?" I asked catching his words.

"Um. Yeah." He said hesitating.

"Really because it sounded like you said LA." I said swatting his hands away from my hips. His touch was cold.

"Spencer I'm sorry. I just don't want to get married in Ohio. No one does that. I just didn't want to hurt your feelings." He said trying to touch me again.

I backed away from his hands again but this time his face read hurt instead of try again.

"Is that why you had Ashley come to Ohio?" I screamed shaking with anger. Aiden was more than confused.

"She told you?" He said getting upset.

"No she didn't have to you just did." I said going to grab my keys.

"No Spencer you're not walking out again. I hate when we argue you just run off talk to me." He said trying to grab my hands.

"I don't want to talk about it." I said trying to grab my keys again but he keeps them out of my reach.

"Why not babes? I love you." Aiden pleaded.

"Well maybe I don't love you." I said finally grabbing my keys and walking out the front door. I just couldn't take another agreement with him. It's all we ever do anymore. He makes it impossible to be in the same room with at time. I could feel my tears wash over me as I drove a familiar route. Once I got to the house. I knocked on the door.

"Spencer what's wrong sweetie?" Chelsea asked as she wrapped her arms around me.

Chelsea may not be my blood sister but she is close enough. She pulled me inside and held me tight as she pulled me to the couch. I just sobbed until I stopped. My heart rate went down and I began to calm. Chelsea let go and looked at me hoping I'd look up.

"What's going on?" She asked folding her knees up to her chest. I crossed my legs and wiped my tears away with my wrists.

"Aiden and I are fighting again." I said looking at her.

"Is it about Ashley?" She asked looking concerned.

"No! I haven't even broken off the engagement yet. I don't know what to do or say. We've been together for years and I'm scared to risk everything and leave him." I said whispering trying not to cry again.

"Well. Spencer you know what you want to do. You Shouldn't hide behind Aiden because your scared of Ashley. I mean I saw how you two interacted from the beginning your draw to each other like Clay and I. Yes she is a woman and it is very different from how Aiden is you know man jewels and all. You know what you have to do and I bet you everything will end up with a happy ending." Chelsea said stroking my hair."

"I mean Ashley doesn't have man jewels." I said giggling at Chelsea's choice of words.

"I'd hope not." Chelsea smiled at me and touched my hand.

"I'll be here every step of the way." She said.

"Why are you so supportive?" I asked crying into her shoulder.

"Normally when you love someone you never let anyone hurt them and I can tell this whole situation can go bad if you don't make the right choice. I mean what happens if you do marry Aiden and you're still sneaking around with Ashley then he finds out or she leaves you. You'll be broken Spencer." Chelsea says trying to comfort me.

"I know. I just wish I met her early. So I didn't have to break Aiden's heart." I said clutching back my tears.

"Well let's just build a time machine." Chelsea smiled.

I rolled my eyes and giggled.

"Do you really think its possible for me to love Ashley?" I asked feeling vulnerable.

"Baby girl in this world anything is possible with love." She said kissing my check and walking back up the stairs for me to ponder my feelings all night love.

I knew I had feeling for Ashley which I wasn't even planning on trying to deny but my feelings for Aiden is what I really don't know. Do I really not love him? Or have I ever really loved him. Was it just the idea of having someone or the idea of having Aiden? I know I feel more for Ashley than I have ever felt for anyone… but are my feelings for Ashley affected Aiden and I's relationship? I can't stand his touch anymore because it's not gentle like Ashley.. I can't let him kiss me because it doesn't feeling like Ashley's soft lips.

I knew I wanted Ashley.

But is that all I really want?