Sian pov
They had been performing CPR for 40 minutes as one of the doctors shook his head. I jumped up and looked at him. "I'm sorry" he said looking at me as I felt a familiar knot in my stomach, I started panicking as he was calling time of death.
"NO! please….PLEASE I'm begging you…. please don't stop, please" I started sobbing draping my body over Sophie hugging her side. "Soph come back" I cried as I cupped her face. "I love you, please come back for me, fight for me, please don't leave me, I need you…." I cried kissing her lips as I looked at the doctors. "Please just try one more time" I sobbed as the doctor sighed and nodded. Tears were streaming down my face as they shocked her again. I looked at the monitor looking for a sign of life as I heard a beep. I snapped up my face. "We have a sinus rhythm" he stated as I felt the knot in my stomach untangle and was replaced by relief. Utter relief. I started laughing through my tears as I saw Sophie's heart rate picking up. "Thank you so much" I said to him as he put his hand on my shoulder.
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"Hello Mrs. Webster" Dr Moonings said as I got up. "Hi… can you tell me what happened" I said as he nodded.
"Sophie's immune system failed and made her heart go into cardio arrest….we got her back thankfully and she's awake now. She wants to see you, so we'll bring her back to her room" he stated as I wiped my tears and waited patiently on Sophie. I glanced at Matty and Lily who had managed to stay asleep through the whole occurrence as I stroked their foreheads hearing a bed being wheeled in. I turned around quickly and was met with my wife's beautiful eyes. She smiled at me as I started whimpering again, tears streaming down. She looked at me sympathetically and stretched out her hand. I quickly took it as I climbed on the bed and started crying as she wrapped her arms around me.
"Shhhh its okay, I'm okay" she stated kissing my forehead as I looked at her. She wiped my tears as I sobbed slightly. "What the hell were you playing at" I stated as she sighed.
"I'm sorry" she said as I shook my head and embraced her in a hug. "Don't ever leave me like that again" I said as she tightened her grip around my waist. "I won't….I promise" she whispered as I pulled out of the hug and leaned in, she pulled away however. "Sian….I can't" she stated as I nodded understandingly. "I'm sorry" I whispered as I realized what I was about to do.
"Are they okay" she asked me as I nodded. "Yeah they slept through it somehow" I chuckled as she smiled at me tucking some hair strands behind my ear. "Soph…. I need….I want to move back in, take care of you. You can't be alone in this…" I started saying as she diverted her gaze. "I don't think I can do that Sian" she said as I frowned. "You don't have a choice, I'm not leaving you alone in this…. Look we'll be as roommate's….I won't be in your way, I promise" I stated as she sighed.
"What about the apartment" she asked me as I sniffed. "I don't care, I'll pay it till you get better" I stated as she snorted.
"What if I never get better" she said as I furrowed my brows. "Don't say that" I said angrily with a high pitch voice as she looked back at me. "What if I want to have people over….or better said a girl over" she said her eyes not leaving mine. "Then I'll leave you to it" I stated swallowing the lump in my throat. The thought of Sophie with someone else made me sick to my stomach, but then again that's what I wanted. I wanted her to move on, and I shouldn't hold her back from being happy now that she has. "You think you could do that" she asked as I nodded slowly. "I…I have a girlfriend too now….Laura I mean, we've been together for about a month now….so I'll have a girl over too" I smiled trying to suppress the tears from falling. "Oh right….okay" she said quietly looking blanky at the wall.
"Okay?" I echoed as she nodded. "It'll be confusing for the kids though" she said as I looked at them. "We just have to explain to them that it's only temporary" I stated as she nodded.
"When do you think I could go home" she asked me as I shrugged. "Dunno, I'll ask the doctors" I said as I got of the bed, suddenly self conscious how close I was to her.
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"Okay here we go…are you okay, hold on I'll get the wheelchair" I stated as Sophie rolled her eyes. She was finally discharged from the hospital and I had been hovering for days now. "Sian I am able to walk you know" she huffed as sighed.
"Its hospital rules Soph" I stated as she scowled. I put the wheelchair in front of her as groaned. "Fine" she muttered sitting down as I chuckled. "You're worse than me" I said remembering the day they took me home after Lily was born.
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"Sian get in that wheelchair" she said as I shook my head. "I had a baby, not a leg amputation" I stated as Sophie started laughing. "Baby please" she said as I sighed and sat in the wheelchair. "Thank you" she said as she kissed my lips.
"Here you go momma" she said handing me our baby girl. Every time I looked at her I wanted to cry a little. She was so beautiful, and she was finally here. "Soph she's gorgeous isn't she" I sniggered as Sophie crutched down on. "Yeah….just like her mum" she stated as she kissed my lips tenderly. "I love you so much….I can't believe she's finally here, and I finally get to hold her in my arms instead of my stomach" I stated as Sophie started chuckling. "Yes" she said as she kissed my head and pushed the wheelchair towards the car.
"Okay you're all set" Sophie asked me as she started the car. "Yeah go on, let's get this little angel home" I stated as Sophie chuckled. "What?" I asked her.
"Just…I think she'll be a little trouble maker just like you" she stated as I slapped her arm playfully. "Shurrup" I said as she started driving.
"Babe you're driving 6 miles an hour" I stated as Sophie nodded. I started frowning. "What? I am not taking any chances…I nearly lost you…I'm not taking any chances with her" she stated as I started laughing.
"So what you gonna do drive 6 miles an hour every time she's in the car" I chuckled as Sophie darted her eyes towards me. "I'm being serious Sian, do you have any idea how scared I was having you pass out after Lily was born, you could've died" she stated as I sighed.
"I know…I'm sorry" I stated as she took my hand in hers.
"Don't be daft" she stated as I stroked my little girl's cheek. "Her eyes are so blue I could get lost in them" I stated as Sophie smiled. "Yeah I feel like that every time I look into your eyes" she sniggered as I laughed. "Same" I said to her as she looked at me for a second.
"Okay we're here" she stated as she opened the door to our new house. We were met by a screaming Matty.
"Mummmyyyyyyyyy, " he screamed as she came over to me and started tugging at my arm. "Careful honey, she's very small and very fragile" I stated as he put his hands behind his back and started pouting. I kneeled down as he took a curious look at Lily. "She's so small, how am I going to play with her….I mean she can't even hold a ball, she's too small" he sulked as we both started laughing. "Well sweetheart you'll have to be a little patient for her to grow up a bit" Sophie stated as he smiled shyly. "Okay I have to show you summit" she said as she snaked her hand around my waist and guided me upstairs. "I would say close your eyes, but you're holding the baby so I don't think that's a good idea." She smiled as she opened a door.
"I've been working on it while you were gone…. I know she'll be sleeping in our room for another month, but I thought it would be nice if she already had her own room" she said as I was met with a beautiful nursery and a small cradle. She had painted the walls yellow and there were butterfly prints everywhere. "I thought yellow was a good colour, it's very shiny just like her" she stated as chuckled.
"I love you" I stated as I put Lily down in the cradle in front of me and wrapped my arms around Sophie's neck. I kissed her lovingly as she wrapped her arms around my waist tilting me from the ground for a second as I hugged her. "I love you too, don't you ever leave me" she stated as I shook my head. "Never" I stated as she kissed me once more.
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"Sian? Yoo-hoo Siaaan are you still with us" I heard Sophie chuckle. "Yeah sorry" I stated as she shook her head and giggled.
"Are you gonna push this wheelchair or do I need to get up and do it myself" Sophie muttered as I rolled my eyes and pushed towards the car.
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"Okay Sophie here we are…. I have to go get my stuff at my place will you be okay till then" I asked her as she sighed and replied. "Sian I'll be fine, just go" she breathed as I left the house and headed towards the apartment.
I quickly unlocked the door and started ruffling through the bathroom cupboards, getting my stuff together as I heard the doorbell.
"Coming" I yelled as I tossed my toothbrush in my bag and headed for the front door. I opened the door and saw Laura standing on the other side.
"Hey, what dyou doing here" I said tenderly as I realized she was upset. "Why haven't you returned any of my calls? I've been calling you for days, I thought something might have happened" she huffed as she entered the apartment.
"I'm sorry…. Sophie got admitted to the hospital, I didn't check my cell phone… thinking about it Kathy still has my cell" I said as she furrowed her brows.
"What happened" she asked me as I sighed. "Laura I don't think…" I started saying as she cut me off.
"Sian I'm your girlfriend I have a right to know where you were, and why" she stated as I got a bit worked up. I was about to have a go at her till I noticed the hurt in her eyes and calmed down. "Sophie's ill….she has…. cancer, she collapsed…. So I took her to the hospital and stayed with her" I stated quietly as she frowned.
"Is she gonna be okay" she asked me as I sighed. "I don't know…. I mean just yesterday she…" I whimpered at the memory of Sophie dying in my arms.
"Anyways, here I am and I'm safe….I'm sorry if I got you worried" I said trying to get a hold of myself as I disappeared in the bathroom leaving her in my living room. "Where are you going" I heard her asked as I sighed and closed my eyes in anticipation of what I was about to tell her.
"Back to Sophie's" I stated as she widened her eyes. "Look she's sick….I can't leave her alone okay" I stated as she frowned. "What do you mean? She can get home care or whatever, she had no right asking you to come back for that as some kind of scam to get you back" she shouted at me as I looked down.
"It was my idea" I stated as she kicked off. "What! Sian I thought you two were over" she hissed at me as I sighed. "We are…. But she's still my wife, the mother of my children…..she's still the only family I got Laura….I can't just turn my back on her" I stated as Laura looked away.
"Thought you were filing for a divorce" she muttered as I fiddled with my fingers and opened a shelf. "I have" I stated showing her the papers. "Good then show them to her, get her to sign" she stated as I sighed.
"I can't do that now….I" I started saying as she snapped at me.
"Do you even want to get a divorce? Are you even ever planning on leaving her…you're not are you" she seethed at me. "Laura I left her months ago" I stated as she scoffed at me.
"You might have walked out of that door and hid out here….but your heart is still there… you still love her don't you" she whimpered as I tilted my head to the side.
"Laura…I … no…I" I stuttered as she snorted. "You can't even deny it…. you know what Sian fuck you! and stuff this relationship, I don't want to be a simple tool you can use to make Sophie jealous" she stated as I followed her.
"That's not what you are…. I wouldn't do that, I like you a lot okay?" I said to her as I took her hand in mine.
"But you don't love me….. you don't love me cause I'm not your wife, I'm not Sophie" she stated as she snapped her hand away from me and slammed the door walking out.
I sighed deeply and stuffed the papers in my bag.
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Sophie pov
"Mum you're home" Matty screamed when he got in. "Hey guys… yeah I am, come here" I said as he gave me a hug.
"Hey Soph, I'm glad your home…. Is it okay if I leave you with them, I have to get back and…." Derek started saying as I cut him off.
"Derek I'm fine okay…. I can manage watching my own kids" I stated as he nodded and walked out of the door. About 20 minutes after Derek walked out Sian walked in. I might have denied it, but a part of me was so happy she was back. Then again another part of me dreaded she was the part of me that wanted to move on. The part that got hurt so much.
"Sian?" Matthew murmured as he got off the couch. "Hey babe" she said tenderly as she dropped her bags. Matty looked at the bags and started grinning like the smart lad he was, figuring everything out so quickly.
"What are you doing with those bags" he sniggered as Sian chuckled. "Well I'm back for a couple of months, the time your mum gets better" Sian stated as he looked at me searching for a confirmation. I smiled and nodded in agreement as his grin grew wider. "Are you serious" he squealed as he flung himself at Sian hugging her like there was no tomorrow.
"I'm so happy" he stated as Sian hugged him back. "Yeah me too honey" she replied looking me in the eyes as I felt my stomach flip. It was like she was telling me something. I didn't want to admit to myself what she was saying. I just convinced myself I was seeing things and just ignore whatever I was feeling right now.