I DON'T OWN DIVERGENT.

Another chapter, everybody! Just a little momentum- building going on here ;)

TRIS POV…

I sway in Tobias' arms for I don't know how long, the rain drenching my hair and my shirt. But it doesn't matter, the late spring rain is warm on my skin. I cry, but you can't tell in the rain, maybe except for the fact that my cheeks are red. Anyway, the tears are happy. But Tobias still seems to be a little worried about me.

"Are you alright Tris? I mean, you're all… emotional." His eyebrows are scrunched together in worry.

I shake my head. "I'm fine, I just… I just didn't expect it."

He sighs, relieved. "I- I was just thinking.. wondering, if it was too soon, you know." After the miscarriage, he means.

I shake my head. "No. I.. It's okay. It still hurts but I'm okay."

He nods at me silently, with a relieved look on his face.

"No, what was bothering me was the way you and Christina were acting about all of this," I say, changing the subject.

"Yeah, sorry about that. I know Christina and I were acting kind of weird." He smiles down at me sympathetically.

I look over and see Christina videoing us from underneath the lima bean."Ah, I get it. So this is why you didn't mind Christina coming. So she could videotape us."

"Well, I was actually a little skeptical about her coming at first," he says, shrugging. "But then, while you were sleeping, I called her and told her, and she started freaking out like she does. You know how she gets." He chuckles. "But she insisted on videotaping everything so she could show it at our wedding. So, of course, I had to agree. Or else."

I smile a little at him. Our wedding. This still scares me on the inside, deep down. Marriage is a big thing, although it is basically like we're already married. We live together, we sleep in the same bed. But I don't know, a piece of paper can make such a difference. I don't worry about that now, though. I can't, or I'd ruin this amazing moment. So I just kiss him, reaching up on my tiptoes. After we pull away from each other I turn towards Christina and flash my ring at her, at the camera she's holding. She smiles and pumps her fist in the air like all the Dauntless used to, and I laugh at her.

Tobias looks at me with a wide smile on his face. "Let's go home."

"Oka-" I squeak as Tobias picks me up, bridal- style. I look at him, surprised, before he gives me a long, deep kiss, full of passion. I can feel him smile through it. I smile too. I'm happy, honestly. I just can't help the conflicting emotions deep in my soul as our lips meet.

Why does he want to marry me? I mean, I understand.. but?

What if he wants a family? I just… If that's what he wants, I can't. I can't.

…

Christina talks about how excited she is and how happy she feels that she could be part of our engagement moment all the way home. The rain still hasn't stopped, but it has let up some. And I'm soaked anyway, so we just walk and watch the train's graffiti pass us by.

I'm trying to not be too quiet, but Tobias still seems to sense that something's up with me. He doesn't say anything, just rests an arm around my shoulders and listens to us talk, mainly.

"You'll have to be my bridesmaid, you know," I say, poking Christina on the shoulder.

"Would be my honor, madam," she says, bowing slightly.

Christina walks right back to her house after dropping us off, saying that me and Tobias can now have some "alone time" together. I just smile and roll my eyes at her and she laughs, but I can't help the train of thoughts that floods my mind starting with that phrase.

I know Tobias. I love him, and I'm so happy that we're going to get married, but why is he marrying me? I mean, is it just because he loves me and wants to be with me? It could be something as simple as that, maybe. Or is he doing this in hopes of sleeping with me again? Of having children? I don't know. I wish I could take these walls down, because they're worrying me to death, and I feel bad for not trusting Tobias. I should trust him. I should trust him with all my heart. I do trust him. I mean, I always have at the other times in my life, at much more dangerous times in my life.

So….. why is this new, more unstable fear creeping up on me, trying to take me over?

Just a little insight on Tris. Tell me what you think X)

~Beff Monster