I woke up the day after the party hours before Eli did. I amused he would be hungover when he awoke and didn't want him to have to clean feeling sick. So I grabbed a garbage bag and started to tidy up the small apartment.

It took over an hour to get everything completely clean. Spilt cans of Coca-Cola had made a sticky, hard to clean up mess on the linoleum floors.

"You didn't have to do that." Eli said, coming out of the room. He had taken off his shirt and was standing there, his hair rumpled, in a pair of jeans that fell down his hips a little, revealing a strip of blue boxers. "But thank you."

I gave a small smile. "After everything, Eli, I owe you. It's the least I could do."

"I want to talk to you about something." Eli replies, settling himself on the couch. He looked different than usual. Maybe it was the way his smile seemed distant, or the fact that he didn't really make eye contact with me.

I put down the garbage bag I had just been tying up and joined him.

"Is something wrong?" I asked him.

"Actually, yes." He said. "It's just... I don't think you should stay here anymore."

The second he says the words all the warmth and happiness inside me slipped away.

"Oh." I reply, not exactly sure what to say. "Oh, I understand. It's fine. I'll go stay with Chrissy."

"Good." Eli says. His eyes still haven't met mine. Obviously he was having second thoughts about actually liking me, having me live with him. He was a teenage boy, after all. That was... normal, expected. "That's good."

I packed all my things, including my new clothes. Eli and I didn't talk much during that. I felt a hollow pit in my stumach. I wasn't mad at Eli. Just hurt.

Eli drove me to Chrissy's. He turned to me before I exited the car.

"Are you sure you're going to be okay?" He asked me.

I nod, feeling tears making there way into my eyes. I'd promised myself I wouldn't cry, and I was sticking to that.

"Thank you, Eli. For everything. I really appreciate it." I told him, this time me being the one not meeting the other's eyes.

"You're welcome, Clare." He said.

I slowly walk up to Chrissy's house, trying not to seem as if I was running away from Eli. I was, though. I was running away from all the pain I felt when thinking about what had just happened.

I don't knock on Chrissy's door. I know she'll be there and that she won't mind me just walking in.

The second I get over the threshold the tears I'd been holding back finally bubbled over and leaked down my face. I lean against the door for a few moments, my body racking with sobs.

Why was I so god damned upset over a boy? I'd never been like that before. Not when KC had left me, or when he'd started dating the bimbo, Jenna. I'd been hurt, but not heartbroken, devastated.

It was because there was something in Eli that made me feel whole again. As if my life hadn't been shattered when my father left us and my mother turned to alcohol as a way to deal with things.

And in the last few days I'd felt myself falling even harder for him.

"Clare?" Chrissy called, her voice filled with concern. She came out of the living room looking confused.

"S-sorry." I said, my voice thick from crying. "Is it okay if I stay here for a bit?"

Chrissy didn't reply. She just walked forward and wrapped her arms around me.

"First heartbreak, huh?" She asks.

I nod, not trusting my voice not to break.

She shook her head. "Cookies." She said. "Cookies and ice cream are exactly what you need."

I felt doubtful that junk food could help mend the wound in my heart, but the thought of cookies right now did make me feel a little better.

The next day at school I walked into Degrassi feeling a little frightened. Eli didn't want me to live with him, but did that mean he was breaking up with me too? Probably.

Alli ran up to me, a big smile plastered on her face. "So, when are you and Eli having the next party?" She asked me.

"Never." I tell her. "I don't think... I don't think there is an Eli and I anymore."

Her smile drops and she places a hand on my shoulder. "I'm sorry, Clare. He really made you happy."

"Yeah," I replied, looking down the hall, hoping to see him, yet at the same time praying I didn't. "He did."

It isn't until lunch that Eli and I see each other. I was heading to my locker when I spotted him down the hall with his group of friends. Chloe had herself draped over him, clinging to him.

I watch them until Eli meets me eyes. He flinched as if something electrocuted him but didn't pull Chloe off. Alli's eyes followed mine and narrowed into a glare. She slammed my locker shut.

"Asshole." Alli said, watching Eli still. She grabbed my arm and pulled me down another hallway. "As if he's just letting that leper just hang off him like that. You are so much better than that, Clare."

"It hasn't even been a day." I replied, but I suddenly didn't feel like crying at seeing Eli and Chloe. I felt just angry. "I guess that answers whether we're still together."

"You know, last night that guy who was hitting on you?" She says, getting a mischievous gleam in her eyes. "I was kind of pissed off when he gave me his number telling me to call if you and Eli ever break up, but not I think it's exactly what you need."

"He did that?" I asked quickly. "But it's too soon."

"Well, there's nothing like a good rebound, Clare. Trust me, I know that pretty well." She says.

I remember when her and Johnny finally broke up. He had been a creep, but Alli had genuinely liked him. Alli was strong, though. She hadn't let it break her.

And I wasn't going to either.

Please don't hate me, or stop reading! Just bare with me, things will get better for our lovely couple. PROMISE! Hope you enjoyed it, even though it was sad... -C

PS! We got to 100 Reviews! You guys, are seriously, the BEST! 3

Also, super super super excited for tomorrow night! I might get inspired and update a chapter, who knows. I've counting the days until Degrassi comes back. Though I'm not exactly excited to see Clare with anyone but Eli...

Less than twenty four hours from now!

PPS, went to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2. For anyone who hasn't seen it? GET YOUR BUTT TO THE MOVIE THEATER! It was as amazing as I anticipated, though I'm a little heartbroken that the Harry Potter series is finally, completely over. First the books, now the movies... :(