Okay, guys, we're leaving Forks, for NYC! So, things change here, to cement Edward, Bella and Jane's life, just a head up.
The apartment was modest, some of Edward's personal furniture from Forks had been shipped here, his leather sofa from his room was sitting in the living room, he had a new flat screen television gracing his beige colored wall. Edward wheeled my luggage in, Jane had hers, I had our carry on bags in my hands.
"Just set it down on the couch."
I did as Edward said, still looking around the room. Pictures where all over, one's of Alice, Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper, some of them were all together, some where solo pictures. You could tell that he had a daughter, Jane's pictures where everywhere, some of her, some she'd drawn and we'd sent to him. I had to smile at his life laid out in those pictures, but I had to wonder where the pictures of us where. I only popped up in a few pictures on the wall, with my friends, ranging from when I'd meet them to the most recent time we'd been home.
"Eddie," Jane yelled, I jumped out of my thoughts and looked around franticly, not finding my daughter anywhere, I raced through the house trying to find her, finally stopping at what looked like a girls room, the walls where a soft pink, matching the bed set, on a full size bed. Jane was looking at the bed in wonder.
Guess Edward showed her, her room,I thought to myself.
"I love it," Jane finally spoke, I watched him take her around the room, he hadn't left anything out, she had a desk for when she started school, her dresser would soon be filled with her clothes. Edward had bought her some new toys as well, when she saw them, she ran to the toy chest and pulled everything out.
"You'll be cleaning this room, later," I warned, but she didn't care. Edward was glancing at me, he was ready for me to tell Jane about the move, but I faltered, is she was upset, she wouldn't talk to me the entire trip, or she'd love it, she could go both ways, or maybe I was just scared of the future.
Scared that my life was getting out of my hands, scared that I was moving in with the love of my life, but it wasn't that that scared me, it was the unknown, how Jane would change when we moved here, how would it affect our relationship. I knew it was time, Jane needed to know.
"Janie," I told her, going to set on her bed, Edward set behind me. "Come here, honey."
Jane walked over to the bed and set down, smiling up at me.
"Do you like it here?" Edward asked.
She nodded.
"Would you like to live here?" I asked, she nodded again. "Jane, I was accepted to a college out here, honey, we are moving out here."
Jane blinked once, twice, three times before launching herself at me, I grabbed her, trying to steady myself before I took a tumble off the bed.
"Really?" Jane asked, Edward nodded.
"This is all yours, or at least until your mother finishes college and we chose where we go after college, but by then, you'll be in fifth grade and about ten years old."
Edward said what, my daughter would be how old by the time that I graduated college, that was giving me an extra year, but still, ten years. My breathing picked up, I could see Jane getting worried as she crawled off me, I stood up in my haze and walked out of the room, finding a wall away from the room.
I slid down the wall and brought my knee's up to my chest. Laying my head down, I sensed Edward sit down beside me. Tears where falling down my face and I knew that I was having a panic attack.
"She's playing," Edward whispered, wrapping his arms around me. "She was really excited, but said she didn't mind living in Forks if it's what made you happy."
"She'll be nine, maybe ten by the time I graduate from college, I'll be twenty two when she is ten. I'm not scared of the move, it's what I want more than anything, it's her, growing up, that scares me. She's been my little girl, but she's growing up, I've watched her grow and expand as a little girl, she told me the other day that Mike kissed her, my baby girl had her first kiss at four," I laughed, tears still streaming down my face. "Her father is-"
"Is in this room, I got the word today, the adoption went through, she's mine, Phil's name will no longer be on her birth certificate. Bella," Edward said, kissing my forehead, "she is going to grow up, but not with a rapist as her father, me, Bella, I'm her father and I swear to you, sweetheart, that I will help you in every way possible. Bella, I love you and I love our daughter. She will grow up to be an amazing young lady, she will be just like you in every way."
"I hope that she's a musician, it's the one thing I can't do," I told him, the tears no longer falling, I was smiling at my baby's daddy, oh, how sweet that sounded on my tongue.
"I'll make sure that she does, we'll start piano over the summer," he looked in my eyes, giving me a kiss on the lips. "So, I have a babysitter set up for Jane tomorrow night."
"I love you," was all I could say as I kissed him, thankful that I had brought the same nighty as our web cam chat some weeks prior. Edward would be with me every step of my life from here on out, even if we ended up apart, we where now and forever together, a common link connecting us, our daughter.
I lit the final candle on the table, adjusted my nighty under my new New York hoodie and jeans and grabbed the take out from the oven where it had been keeping warm. Edward came in from taking Jane to his friend, Zoe's apartment across the hall. His arms wrapped around my waist as I finished dishing out the food.
"Smells good," he said, nuzzling my neck with his noses, placing kisses where he could, causing my heart to speed up.
"Are you going to be mad if something happens?"
"No, we'll just take a step back and go from there, don't you worry your cute little ass off. It will happen when it happens, I promised never to hurt you, and that holds true today."
I smiled as we set down to eat, talking about everything possible. Then it was time to take this to the bed room, it was a planned thing, since my fears would take over if it was spontaneous. So Edward had taken to planning the perfect night for our first time, I just hoped that I didn't choke in the final moments.
"Bells, we don't have to do this, if you are having second thoughts."
"Edward, I want this, I really do," I kissed him as we laid back on Edward's king size bed. I let my hands ghost down to his pants where I could already feel his hardening member, this I was use to, we'd already done the foreplay before, always stopping before the main show.
His hands worked the hoodie over my head, to reveal the nighty, which he growled at before it went off over my head, my jeans still in place, but his hands where working my breast, causing me to moan.
My legs where doing a thing of their own, they where rubbing together for the much needed friction that I was yearning for. Edward glanced in my eyes as his hands left my breast, causing me to miss the touch. Surprisingly, Edward got off the bed, removing his clothes but grabbing something from his dresser, a condom I figured. I was so far wrong.
"Bella, before we take this step, I've got something to ask you, I want you to be my wife, to bear any more children that we might be blessed with, but first and foremost, I want the three of us to be a family, will you marry me?"
I felt like Jane when she'd first heard about the move, I had to blink a few times, I had not seen this coming at all, but I knew my answer in a heart beat. "Yes."
One simple word and his lips came crashing down on mine, the ring lay forgotten on the nightstand where he'd set it.
He slid my pants down and his hands ran up and down my slit, in the back of my mind, I thought that no guy had ever been this gentle.
"Don't think," Edward told me, he could sense that I was starting to slip in my memories. I kissed him to let him know that I was fine and he continued with his exploration, causing me to go higher and higher until I was in the clouds, coming down from a great high.
I was panting and totally relaxed, snuggling against Edward, when I realized that we'd actually be getting farther than this and I couldn't wait.
"I have another question," Edward said, looking at me, "are you on the pill?"
I shook my head no.
"Do I need to grab a condom?"
I knew what he was doing, he was asking if I was ready for another child, I knew Jane was ready, I knew that if I didn't get pregnant in the next year or so, Jane would be getting to old for a new sibling, granted I was still at great child bearing years. I wanted kids with my fiancee, I was ready for them, I'd done pretty damn good with Jane and felt confident that I could do well with another, plus this time, my support system was bigger, I had my fiancee and his family, plus my father.
Edward was waiting for an answer, but he knew that this hesitation wasn't a bad thing, I was just simply weighing the pro's and con's in my head.
"No," I whispered, the pro's outnumbered the con's quite a bit.
Edward got into position, I locked my memories away, they wouldn't ruin tonight, I took a deep breath, Edward hovering over me as I let my memories lock up, deep where nobody could ever fuck with them. I simply nodded.
"Like a band-aid," he muttered, we'd figured quick would be easier, we had no way to know how this would feel for me, I hadn't had sex in four years, I sucked in a deep breath and he plunged in as I cried out in pain, the air exhaled out of me as he did.
Edward stilled while I got use to his size and started shifting on my own, getting to know his body. I was sure this was excruciating for Edward, being inside me, fighting his primal instincts to rock back and forth, teasing me, tormenting me with his almost pull outs then thrusting back in at the last possible second, but he was being the best fiancee in the world at that second. He simply let me do what I needed to do, something Phil had never done.
Don't think about it, I thought, locking those memories deep inside me once more.
"Do it," I whispered to Edward, who started the thrusting, slowly at first, then speeding up, our skin slapping together, his hungry lips on my neck, marking me as his.
"Oh, fuck," I cried out, I knew what words would turn him on. My breathing increased as I felt the familiar tightening in my stomach, I was about to explode and sure enough, I did, just moments after we'd started, but Edward followed my lead and his seed exploded in me and I felt that maybe we'd just created a little one.
We laid connected for awhile, he'd rolled us over so that I was laying on top of him, our breathing coming down from our highs, slowing becoming normal.
"That was amazing," Edward muttered into my hair, I looked up at him and realized that was his first time as well. "I love you."
I fell asleep shortly after that.