Notes: Hello. I have returned to 'Thesaurus' after a two-week holiday. The first week was actually a holiday, and during the second week, I was much too tired to write. Also, I have received reviews which have left me most confused. The excellent Faersul is of the opinion that Holmes and Watson (Holmes especially) are too open with their feelings. All other reviews have told me that these pointless, plot less little fics are good the way they are. I don't know what to do, because I don't want to disappoint anybody. Help me.

Disclaimer: I'm too tired to write anything even remotely witty or clever, so: I don't own Sherlock Holmes.

Ordinary

I am very well aware that I am not the most ordinary of men. I am, after all, gifted with mental faculties that surpass the vast majority of the population, though certain people (Lestrade, for instance) would have you believe otherwise. For example, by citing me as an 'amateur detective' in a certain newspaper article.

I am coming away from my original point. I am not an ordinary man. An ordinary man does not practice the violin during the small hours. An ordinary man does not have Scotland Yarders knocking down his door on a regular basis. An ordinary man does not have attacks made on his life.

An ordinary man feels.

I do not feel. I am emotionless, a thinking machine. I am a brain. The rest of me is merely an appendix.

This is what I repeat to myself, day after day, but I should not have to continually tell myself these things, because they are TRUE.

I do not need the company of others, because ordinary people require companionship, and I am anything but ordinary.

I do not love! No, I have never loved, and I never will. Love is a weakness. It clouds the mind, destroys logic. It is quite useless.

An ordinary man does not shun friendly touches--the clasping of hands, the gripping of a shoulder, an embrace.

I shun them all.

I do not need this, this foolish thing called Love, and I never will. I shall never desire it, and I shall never love anyone, or need anyone. Never.

Never.

I do not need him.

Never.