A/N: Hey you guys! I'm back with a new chapter. I hope that everyone had a nice Christmas and I wish you all the best for this year. May all your dreams and wishes come true! I want to thank Katie13Cullen13 for helping me with my grammar and ideas. Also big thanks to Laurian for being my best friend and for helping me with everything.
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BPOV
I wanted to slap him again, but now he grabbed my hand. It was pissing me off when I saw him with that woman.
He asked me what I was doing here and I was surprised by his slur. He was drinking alcohol and it was just 4 in the afternoon. What the hell was he doing? He told me that no one would tell me where I was. Did he go to my house? Did he have a death wise or something? Charlie knew that something was going on between Edward and me, but I really didn't want to tell him about it. Charlie would go to Seattle and hurt Edward.
I was getting frustrated by Edward. I was disappointed in him. I didn't think he would be that guy that would drink when things didn't go his way. He had a daughter to think of; yet he was in Forks getting drunk.
He wasn't saying anything. He was looking for me the whole day and now that he found me he didn't have anything to say. I called him on that, but he said that it wasn't smart of him for us to have a serious conversation when he was drunk. Why did he even start drinking then?
I was sick of it, of the whole situation and I had enough of it. I told him that this was his only chance and that the better start talking now. He surprised by my attitude, but I couldn't care at the moment. I even started yelling at him, asking him if he was deaf. He needed to start talking now or else I was going to go home. I wasn't in the mood to deal with Edward when he was like this. I haven't seen him like that ever. I don't know him that long, but I didn't really like this side of him.
He wanted some privacy for our conversation and I agreed to it. I didn't want him to drive so I told him to get in my car. He had a smile on his face and I couldn't understand why. I didn't say that I was going to forgive him and that I was coming back.
He mentioned something about him having a motel room on the other side of the road, but I didn't want to go to some cheap motel. God knows what happens in those rooms. I really don't want to know and I was afraid that I was going to catch a disease if I was sitting in one of those rooms.
I knew the perfect place to go to. The weather was good and that was rare in Forks. One summer I discovered a meadow here in Forks. It was beautiful and I wanted to share it with Edward. Maybe it would sober him up and then we could have a serious conversation.
It was already October so the meadow wouldn't be that beautiful as it was in the spring, but it always gave some peace and I always calmed down when I was there. It could be Edward's advantage.
It was way too quiet in the car and when I looked over at him I knew why. Edward had fallen asleep in my car. This was not good at all, we were supposed to have a serious talk and now he fell asleep. I poked his arm and called his name a couple of times, but I got no answer. The alcohol had him in a coma. I don't know what to do now.
I decided to go back to his motel and maybe I could get him into his room. He didn't make a noise and I checked a couple of times to see he wasn't dead. Now that would be something.
I was back at the motel. I had no idea which room he has and I needed to find out somehow. I walked over to the front desk to ask the guy if he knew where Edward's room was.
"Excuse me, maybe you can help me," I started. The guy here was creeping me out. He had long blond hair and he looked at me in a way that I wasn't comfortable with.
"Anything for you, beautiful," he said and I was right. This guy was really creepy.
"I just need to know what room Edward Cullen is in," I told him and I hoped he would give me the answer.
"No can do. We don't give that kind of information to others. I could call his room to see if he's inside," he said and made a move to the phone.
"That isn't going to work, because he's in my car now and I need to move him to his room," I said and I was starting to get angry again. The guy was looking at my boobs and wasn't even paying attention to my face.
"Well, I can tell you what room he's in if you do something for me," he said and gave me a wink. What the hell was he suggesting?
"What do you want me to do?" I asked him and I was afraid for the answer.
"If you show me your boobs I will give you his room number," he said and I just knew it.
"Forget it mister, that isn't going to happen. You're disgusting and wait until someone hears about this," I said and walked out of the room.
Ugh, I can't believe guys. Why are they all so disgusting? They're all focused on one thing and that is sex. It's all they can think about.
I sat back in my car and Edward was still fast asleep. I wanted to cry, because I had no idea what to do. The guy at the front desk was no help at all and Edward wasn't going to say his room number in his sleep.
God, why do I always get stuck in this kind of situations? I felt really sorry for myself at the moment and a tear escaped my eye. I wanted to know what Edward was going to say and now I still had no answers.
Edward must have the key with him so he should have it in one of his pockets. I told myself that I could do this. I was going to search in his pockets for his keys and I hoped that the room number was on the key. I looked back at the front desk and that creep was staring at us. I locked the doors just in case and prepared myself for what I was going to do.
I turned myself to Edward and my hand was close to his jeans. I felt nothing in the first pocket and turned myself to the other side of his jeans. I was practically on top of him so that I could reach the pockets there. My hand went inside… I didn't find a key, but I felt something else.
"Oh god Bella, please keep going," Edward sort of moaned and I fell on top of him. He scared the crap out of me and I looked over at him, but he was still asleep. Was he dreaming of me?
He moaned again and his hands were on my ass. I was in a fucked up situation and I had no idea what I was supposed to do. He had his hands tight on me and I couldn't move. I was still half laying on top of him and I felt something on my leg. I was blushing at the thought of it, but I think he had a boner and that's what I probably felt when I was searching his pocket. My breathing started to get heavier, because it was making me a bit uncomfortable. Of course I thought about this, but Edward didn't really know what he was doing. He was dreaming of me and developed a boner while doing.
I felt the pockets at the back of his jeans and he moaned quietly. I couldn't believe that I was doing it. I didn't even want to look behind me to see what the guy at the front desk was doing.
I finally found his key in the last pocket that I was searching. I was still on top of him, but he didn't have a tight grip on me anymore. I wiggled myself free and I was finally back in my seat. It felt pretty good to be laying on top of him and the thought of it made me blush. I was going to mention this to absolutely no one. It was super embarrassing and Edward can't find out about this. He would be so ashamed and was going to regret it or deny it and I couldn't handle that. I knew that he was thinking about me and it felt good.
There was a number on his key and I parked my car in front of the room. I hoped that Edward would work with me a little and that I could move him to his room. I looked back to the front and saw that the guy at the front desk was still staring at us. Didn't he have something better to do?
I opened the door of the room and then I opened the car door. Edward was still passed out. I called his name a couple of times, but he still didn't respond. The alcohol really did a number on him.
It took some time, but Edward was finally on the bed. I had no idea how I got it done, but I was proud of myself. I closed the door quickly and locked it. I didn't want the creepy guy to make an appearance.
I looked at Edward and I figured he wasn't comfortable in his clothes. I started with taking his shoes off and that was easy. I didn't know if I should continue with undressing him or if I should leave him like this.
He looked warm in his clothes so I had a conversation with myself that I could do this. I started with unbuttoning his shirt. My hands were shaking and my breathing was quicker. There was some movement and Edward's eyes opened.
"What are you doing?" he asked me confused.
"You fell asleep in my car so I brought you back to your room. I wanted to get you comfortable. I'm sorry," I said and pulled my hands away.
"It's okay. I'm sorry for falling asleep on you. God, my head really hurts," he said and started to undress himself. I told myself that I should look away, but it was really hard for me.
"It's okay. You should go back to sleep," I told him and wanted to walk out. He grabbed my arm and I turned back to him.
"Will you come back tomorrow, so we can talk? I really want to talk to you," he said and my stomach was full with butterflies. This was the guy that I liked a lot and he was acting like his old self again, like the guy I knew in the beginning.
"Sure, I'll drop by sometime tomorrow," I said and he let go of my arm. I walked to the window and closed the curtains. It was really dark now and started undressing himself more. His pants were off now and he was only in his boxers. I was glad that it was dark, because I was blushing like crazy.
"Thank you Bella. I'm sorry for today," he said.
"It's okay. Just sleep it off, I will see you tomorrow," I said to him and walked out of the door.
The guy from the front desk was making his way over, but I practically ran to my car and locked it from the inside. I wanted to get away really fast so I drove like crazy. I looked in my rearview mirror and the guy was giving me a wink. It was disgusting. I hoped that he wasn't there tomorrow.
I woke up the next day and I was really nervous. Angela tried to call me yesterday evening, but I didn't want to talk about it. I just let it ring and sent her a text saying that I would call her when I had some answers.
I thought about yesterday again and blushed. I really like the Edward from yesterday in his room. He was sweet and attentive and didn't make stupid comments about my love life or my looks. I wish that he could always be like that.
It was 10 o'clock already and Charlie left to go to work early in the morning. He didn't mention anything about seeing Edward or that Edward stopped by. I didn't say anything about seeing Edward or something about that creepy guy from the motel.
I got myself in the shower and put on some of my nice clothes. I couldn't eat anything, because I was way too nervous. I walked to my car and drove to the motel. I hoped that Edward was still there, he wanted me to come by.
When I arrived at the motel I looked at the front desk area. The creepy guy was there again. Didn't he have a day off or something? He saw my car and smirked my way. I shuddered, because the guy was really creepy.
I parked in front of Edward's room and knocked on the door. No one answered and I was starting to feel rejected. I knocked again, loudly and I hoped that he was still there and not on his way back to Seattle.
Finally, after what seemed like hours he opened the door. He looked surprised that I was here and it pissed me off. Didn't he remember anything from last night? I wanted to cry too, because he didn't remember anything. It's not like something happened, but it hurt a little.
I told him if he was going to let me in with a lot of attitude and he seemed surprised. I couldn't care at the moment, he was pissing me off.
He let me in and asked me what I was doing here. Can you believe it? He asked me yesterday to come by and now he asks me what I'm doing here. This is such a joke. I asked him if he remembered anything from last night, but his look said that he didn't. My face must have shown something, because he apologized. He had nothing to apologize for. He wasn't acting like an ass and I actually liked him yesterday.
He started a story about how he was sorry for acting like that. He was sorry for the way he spoke at me that one night. He said that I didn't deserve it and I totally agreed with that. He told me that I was an amazing woman and that made me blush. He didn't think of me as a girl, but as a woman. That made me feel a little better.
I asked him why he said those words and I hoped he would be honest with me now. I was disappointed when he said that he had no idea why he said those words. He was lying and I wanted him to be honest for a moment.
I asked him how Tess is doing, because I really miss her. She's such an amazing girl and she doesn't deserve all this. He tells me that Tess misses me and that he misses me. I can't say it that I miss him too. That would be too much for this moment. If he wasn't going to be honest, than I wasn't going to be.
His mom is taking care of Tess now when he has to work. Tess told her dad that she didn't want another nanny, because I was the best. It made me feel proud and I was glad that he wasn't going to look for another nanny.
He asked me if I found another job already, here in Forks. I told him no. I was really looking, but it seemed that no one was hiring at the moment. Edward said that my job was still there if I wanted it, but I don't think that's going to work. Us all together in a house… our issues weren't out of the way yet and it wouldn't be good for Tess if she sees us arguing all the time.
He sounded disappointed after that and I couldn't blame him. I was a bit disappointed too. I really wanted to come back to them, to do my job. Tess was a wonderful girl and we clicked. Edward was okay too, if he's going to act normal one day and I would love it if it all works out.
I told him about my idea and he seemed to love it. He offered to my for my rent and to pay me for my work. That would be way too much and I told him that I could take care of my rent. I saved up some money and Edward paid me a lot those last months.
We should talk about that when it was all final. Edward asked me if I was really coming back then and I told him that it seemed like that. His smile grew absolutely big and I don't think it was possible to smile like that. His smile was infectious and I smiled back at him.
"I'm glad that you decided to come back. It means a lot to me and of course Tess will be thrilled when she hears the news," Edward said.
"I understand it that you want to live on your own at the moment. It showed that it wasn't such a good idea for us to live together. I hope it all works out, Bella, I really do," he said and I just nodded. I hoped the same thing.
He asked me if I wanted to wait for him so that he could go take a shower. He wanted to check out and go somewhere with me so that we could work some things out. I told him that I would wait and he practically ran to the bathroom.
Ten minutes later he was out of the bathroom and ready to go. He looked a lot better, but you could still see the effects of his rough night yesterday.
"I'm going to have to check out. Are you coming with me?" he asked me and I shook my head. I wasn't going near that creepy guy.
"No, you'll go. I just wait in the car," I told him and he walked over to the front. I followed him in my car and waited in front of the building.
Edward wanted to get his car across the street and then we were going to a little café for some coffee. Edward said it was a life or death situation if he didn't get coffee soon.
I looked at Edward and he seemed a little angry while speaking to the creepy guy. Oh no, I hoped he didn't mention something about yesterday. I didn't want Edward to find out what happened in the car.
Edward stormed out of the building and walked my way. I hoped that he wasn't too upset with me and I hoped that he wasn't going to talk like he did that one night. I wanted the sweet Edward back.
He threw my door open and sat himself in the passenger seat. He was breathing heavily and not saying a word. I was getting concerned and I wanted to know what happened there.
"Are you okay?" I asked him and I was afraid of the answer. Was he mad that I was searching his pockets and somehow ended on top of him?
"What happened yesterday Bella?" he asked me and he pinched the bridge of his nose. He did that a lot when he was upset.
"What are you talking about?" that was my strategy, just play dumb and let him do the talking.
"What did the guy say to you yesterday? He mentioned something about that I was lucky and stuff like that. Kept talking about your looks and I didn't like it," he said and he looked intensely at me.
"Just tell me the truth okay? I won't get mad at you," he told me and I believed him.
"Look, I have no idea what happened yesterday and I regret that, but he said something about us practically having sex in your car and that he wished you didn't show him anything," he continued and I blushed like crazy. That stupid ass had mentioned everything to Edward. How was I going to get out of this?
"Uhh … you were drunk and I needed to know your room number so I asked him if he could give it to me," I started and Edward looked really guilty. I guess he felt awful about how he acted last night.
"He told me he couldn't give me your number, because of privacy rules. He then told me he could give it to me if I showed him something," I said. I couldn't say it to Edward what that creepy guy wanted from me.
"What did he want you to do? God, Bella just tell me. I'm thinking the most awful things," Edward said and he turned to me. His hand was on my chin and he turned my head to him. The tears were in my eyes and my head was as red as a tomato.
"He wanted me to show my breasts to him," I whispered and Edward stormed out of the car after I told him that.
I saw him go back in the building and I wanted to stop him. He was going to do something that he was going to regret. They probably had cameras installed there and if the guy called the cops, then the police would see Edward on screen.
The guy was looking a bit scared when Edward stormed at him. Edward grabbed him by the throat, but I couldn't hear what he was saying. He had him pinned against a wall and his fist made contact with his nose and he hit him once more in the jaw. The guy was going to hit him back, but Edward stopped him and said another thing. He seemed to back down and Edward came back to my car.
I was a little scared now of Edward and I had no idea what happened in there. His breathing was really heavy and he didn't say a thing. I was afraid to say something, but I wanted to say so many things.
"Just drive Bella. Start the car and get out of here. We'll get my car later. I just can't stand to be here anymore and if I stay here any longer I'm going to regret some things," he said and I started the car. My hands were shaking and Edward noticed it.
"I'm sorry," that's all I said and I drove. The little café wasn't that far away and I hoped that Edward still wanted to go there.
It was a couple of minutes later when I parked in front of the café. Edward hadn't said a word and I was feeling awful. I had no idea what Edward was regretting and it was all my fault. The tears were in my eyes and I wanted to leave the car, but Edward stopped me when he put his hand on my shoulder.
"You have nothing to be sorry for Bella. That guy was an asshole and he deserved some hits to his face. I regret a lot of things from yesterday, but I don't regret this. I just wanted to get out of there, because I was afraid that I couldn't stop. You're wonderful and I can't believe that guy would say something like that to you. I don't know how you all did it yesterday and maybe I don't want to know, but I owe you something. It means a lot to me that you took care of me yesterday, you could have just left me there, but you didn't. I'm glad that you still want to come back to us. I don't deserve it," Edward said and his words made me think of all the things that happened between us.
Before I knew it I was crying, really hard. I wanted to stay strong, but everything just came out. The fight between us, how that made me feel and the lying to my dad and now yesterday. It was all a bit too much and now it all came out. Edward wrapped his arms around me and held me close. It was a bit uncomfortable, considering we were still in my car. I cried into his chest and it felt wonderful to be in his arms again. That thought made my cry some more, because I missed him like this. He kept whispering reassuring words in my ear and kissed the top of my head. It seemed like hours when I calmed down a little, but Edward still held me close. It seemed like he didn't want to let me go.
"Are you feeling better now?" Edward asked me and I just nodded. I didn't trust my voice and I wanted to stay like this forever.
Edward must have felt me nodding, because he wasn't holding me that tight now. I leaned back in my seat and Edward grabbed my face with his hands. He wiped away my tears and gave me a little smile. It was hard now to stay mad at him. I knew that I shouldn't forgive him this easily, but he was really sorry and my feelings were getting the best of me. I couldn't stop it, even though that I wanted it. This was going way too fast and I couldn't do a thing about it.
My stomach growled and we both laughed. Our moment was over, but I'm glad that I saw the old Edward back. I missed him.
"I guess it's time to feed you," he said and gave me a wink. He walked over to my door and opened it for me. I stepped out of the car and locked it.
"I probably look like crap," I said and I knew it was the case. My eyes were probably red and swollen because of all the crying and normally I have all these red spots all over my face.
"Nonsense, you look beautiful," he said and wrapped his arm around me. I leaned over to him and was in his side.
We walked into the café and I few people turned their heads to us. I let go of Edward and was missing the warmth immediately. I didn't want the people to start talking and that's why I let go of him. He had a confused look on his face, but he didn't ask me questions about it.
We made our way to a table and grabbed some menus. I already knew what I wanted, but Edward had never been here so I gave him a moment to decide what he wanted for lunch.
I was home again. After we had lunch I gave him a ride to his car. He was looking at the motel and I told him to calm down and go home. Tess was probably missing him like crazy and he should get back to her.
He gave me hug before he stepped into his car and gave me a wink when he left. I was already missing him, but he needed to go home.
We talked a lot at the café and we made some decisions. He and Alice were on the lookout for some apartments in Seattle and when he found something he would let me know so I could come to Seattle and check it out.
We hadn't agreed on the rent thing, but I was going through with my plan. I had some savings and I had the money for it. Edward was going to pay me for my work and that's that. He didn't want to do that, thought it was a disgrace, but I couldn't care.
His mom called during our lunch and she was thrilled when she found out that I was having lunch with Edward. She wanted to talk to me and she told me that she thought it was great that I gave them another chance. I mentioned coming back and I could practically see the smile on her face. She was happy for her son and granddaughter and I had a feeling that she knew more about the situation. Maybe Edward had confided in her. I couldn't think like that, it was just work and nothing more.
I was sitting in my room, waiting for Charlie to get home. I needed to discuss my movement to Seattle with him and I hoped he agreed with it. Charlie wasn't too difficult to deal with so I had good feelings about it.
I called Angela when I got home from my lunch. She was glad that I worked it out with Edward and she was glad that I followed her idea. She said it was a good idea, because we were getting to fast and this was the solution. I just hoped that thing were going to work out.
The day was finally over and I was a little sad by that. It was a good day, me being with Edward and working things out. Charlie wasn't too happy about it that I was going back, but he didn't want to stop me. I guess he realized that I really wanted to go back to Seattle.
I fell asleep with a smile on my face. I was going back to Seattle!
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