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CHAPTER 21

My hands are cold, my body's numb

Im still in shock, what have you done?

My head is pounding, my visions blurred

Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word

And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin

For the entry point, where love went in

And ricoshad and bounced around

And left a hole, when you walked out

I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room

Can anybody help me with these Exit Wounds?

I don't know how much more love this heart can lose

And I'm dying, dying from the Exit Wounds

Wooounds! Where their leaving, the scars you're keeping

Exit wounds - The Script (A.N. I just felt like posting so many lines coz I think this song perfectly fits the chapter.)

Nessie's POV

There were two hours until the bonfire. I decided to make everyone sandwiches. Then I cut up vegetables and kept them in the refrigerator. This would suffice at least for the next week for Jake and Billy. I was pretty sure they would go back to their unhealthy ready to eat stuff. Jake had gone with Quil and Brady to set up the place and get some wood. I got dressed. I put on my wolf bracelet and my...my engagement ring. I was gonna give the ring back to him. But not the bracelet. The bracelet has become a part of me. I've worn it forever. And it was Jake's first gift to me. I could never part with it. Somehow it held more meaning than the ring. I would always carry that tiny wolf with me.

I tried not to think a lot about the dreadful moment to come. But a scene continuously kept playing in my mind. We both in tears. His heart broken face breaking my heart. His pain becoming mine. Him begging me to stop. Me fighting against all my heart to stop. It kept playing again and again in my mind. I don't want it to go like that. But I guess it will go that way. No matter how much I want it otherwise. I called up Aunt Rose and asked her to get me by an hour past midnight. Outside the Quileute boundary. And then I banged the phone and switched it off when she said, "Alright Ness, but listen to me-"

It's too late. I'm not gonna listen to anyone. I have to do the right thing.

He came and smiled at me. I was wearing his favorite white colored dress and had left my hair open. In this rainy, windy town of Forks I never had to worry about cold. I always had my own personal heater. But from next time, I'll have to carry a coat. Even in the little of little things he has always been there making my life comfortable. Not everybody is lucky enough to find someone so perfect for themselves. Someone made just for them. And here I was throwing my perfect life away. I shook my head in an attempt to stop thinking about that moment. Jake raised his eyebrows at me. Again I just shook my head. He kissed me on the lips once and on my forehead. He then changed and we carried the sandwiches. Everyone was on their way. We met Drew on his way. He was the youngest of all wolves. And one of the most nicest ones. Even after all that he has been through, he is still a kid at heart. He is quite like Seth. And he even follows Seth at times. Just like Seth followed Jake.

Sam, Emily, Jared, Kim, Collin and Ethan had already reached. Quil came along with his grand father. There were rare occasions when I got to meet Old Quil. And he never failed to mesmerize me. Even though Billy is the best story teller, when Old Quil speaks he takes you to the time and place he is describing. Billy came in his wheel chair being helped by Sue. Everyone else started filling in one by one. Embry was the last to walk in with Andrea. They didn't walk in hand in hand and neither did Andrea look too happy. But in the end she sat down besides Embry and held his warm hands in the cold winds. Again only Leah was missing. I was safely nestled in Jake's arms on the cold ground. The warmth was so...comfortable. Not too much. Not too less. Just perfect.

Sam sat besides Old Quil and Billy. Sue sat on the other side of Sam. Emily sat on a comfortable chair. And so did Kim.

"Welcome. Welcome all. Today we have gathered to welcome a new member, to share some big news and to make new decisions. Tonight we also celebrate the fact that our enemies were killed in the battle today. Let the celebrations begin." Old Quil said.

With that all the boys jumped on the food. Jake got us enough servings for ten people. But I'm sure he can finish it all even if I don't take a bite.

Everyone was laughing, talking, sharing food. Everyone was just so happy.

Jake fed me little by little. Everyone with super hearing could hear the consistent questions Andrea asked Embry. He just avoided them. For some reason it felt like he didn't wanna be the one to tell her.

Billy cleared his throat. Suddenly everyone went quite. The alpha tone of his voice carried out everywhere.

And once again he repeated the story of the Cold Ones and the Third Wife.

I had goosebumps on my arm by the time the story finished. I got a few uncomfortable looks from some of the people around me but I was used to it. I never had truly belonged here.

Andrea looked at Embry with an extremely shocked expression. How could any human whose life was normal take in the fact that there existed a world that only in dreams they had conjured? She still had to sit back to hear about the imprint story. I wish she just gets adjusted quickly, because everyone else has already adjusted to her. Plus if she stayed it would make Embry so happy.

"Umm excuse me? I have an announcement to make." Sam said. Everyone stopped conversing between themselves and looked at him.

"I, with the permission of elders have decided to give up on being a wolf. My wife and me are expecting. And I wish to grow old with them. And Jared is soon going to follow the suite. So on basis of the voting, the elders and I have decided to let Jacob take his true position as the Alpha of the tribe. But only if he is willing. Jacob if you agree, it will be the best decision for the tribe, because for one thing we know is that you won't be aging anytime soon. So what do you have to say?"

Jacob just stared ahead into the flames. And I stared at him. Our hands were entwined. I could feel him shaking a little. Why was he even hesitating? He already was the Alpha of a small pack. Plus this was his birth right. He was destined to be the leader. He only hesitated for me. And I was going to make it easy. I squeezed his hand. He looked at me. And I nodded.

"You sure?" he whispered to me.

"Yes. You are destined for this. You can't refuse it."

He looked at everyone and said in the Alpha tone he had always tried to suppress till now,"I accept what rightfully is mine."

A cheer erupted from the crowd. Sam, Jared and their wives looked really happy and relieved. Some of the younger guys were not that happy. Embry and Quil patted Jake. And he smiled. But he didn't really look happy.

And I was about to make him more unhappy.

"Thank you Jacob. I really owe you." Sam said.

Jake just nodded.

Soon people started dispersing. Quil stayed behind with his grand father who along with Billy was telling Andrea the stories about imprint and explaining to her what basically was happening around her. The poor girl had just met her soul mate and she had to digest innumerable legends in one day!

I pulled Jacob's hand. It was time and I couldn't delay it any further. Aunt Rose must already be waiting with Uncle Emmett for me. He followed me without any questions. He knew he was going to get answers. But what he didn't know was that the answers would hurt him.

Each step I took just broke my heart. It was becoming impossible to breath, think and even blink. But it had to be done. I took him to the very same spot where he had proposed me.

"Jake?"

"Hmm...?"

"This is where we say the most important thing we've got right? This is our place."

He nodded.

"What is it Ness?"

"Just swear to me you'll do whatever I ask of you."

"What are you talking about Ness? Of course I'll do whatever you ask of me as long as it does not hurt you."

Hurt me? This was going to terribly hurt me. But I'm gonna shut my mouth and act my best.

"Do you swear it on me? Our imprint? Our love?"

"I swear."

"Leave me. Let me go today and don't follow me. I... I don't want to be with you anymore."

"What are you saying Ness? Are you alright? You're tired and you're not making sense. Lets go home and get some sleep." he said trying to pull me.

"No Jacob. You heard me right. You are going to stay right here where you belong, your home. And I'm going back to my home. You shall not follow me, no matter what." I said removing my hand from his.

"Ness what...why... I just don't get it! Is this some awful joke you are playing Ness? Because it's in a real bad taste."

"It's no joke. My bag is packed. Uncle Emmett must've already collected it from your place by now. They are waiting for me just outside the boundaries. I'm leaving and I'm not seeing you ever again. Here." I said handing him his ring.

He tried to thrust the ring back on to my finger. But I had closed my fist tightly. Didn't he realise how painful this was for me too? Why was he making it difficult?

"Ness, just why?" he asked. Tears flowed down his beautiful russet colored skin, breaking my heart into the tiniest of pieces.

"Because...because this is the right thing to do." I said trying to control my own tears. My eyes were burning, my mouth was dry and his pain was numbing me.

"How is this right?" he asked pulling me in his arms. His hold was so tight that it hurt. But it was nothing to the pain both our hearts were feeling.

"You'll see when I go. Now please Jake leave me. I don't...I don't want to be with you anymore. Let go of me!" I shouted.

"Look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me. Swear it on each moment we've spent together. On each kiss we've shared. On our imprint!"

I looked up at him in the eye. His eyes were filled with pain. And I was the reason for that pain. I'm an awful person. A really awful person. But what else could I have done?

"Jake I don't want you anymore because of reasons you'll see soon. And I swear that I don't want you in my life on everything we've ever had together. Our imprint."

Tears had now formed in my eyes.

"You can't even lie to yourself." he said, his hands still held me, but not tightly

"Please Jake, I beg you. Let go of me. Please."

"Does your happiness lie in being away from me?"

I nodded in a feeble attempt.

"Fine. Go. But know this, in whatever you do, you'll still find me in your heart, supporting you, helping you, guiding you and loving you. You'll always be in whatever is left of my heart. And I'll always love you. And I know you will always love me too. I don't understand now why you are doing this to me. But if you think it is the right thing to do then I'll do it. Because you are telling me it is. I'll always always love you my Ness." he said lifting my chin and bringing his face closer to mine.

And I was going nearer. But then I realised what I was about to do. I was about to break everything that I had done. I quickly turned my face around. I placed the ring in his hand.

"Goodbye Jacob. And thank you for all that you've ever done for me." and I turned around and started running. Pain and agony filled every part of me.

I didn't hear any goodbye from behind. All I heard was his knees falling into the ground. And then a few seconds later a wolf howling in pain.

What had I just done? I had broken his heart. I broke my own heart. I hurt him, I hurt myself. I tore everything into pieces for both of us.

But at least now he could stay with his family and his pack. Everyone loved him. He was their alpha. I was just someone they had to bear because I was his imprint. I was responsible for the problems the younger wolves were facing. They all had shifted when they were barely even twelve! How could I blame them for not liking me? And time and again it was because of me they would have to participate in a battle that was never theirs. They could've had the chance to be normal humans. And I took that chance away from them. I was keeping Jake from his father, from his pack, from his responsibilities. I was the one putting everyone's life in danger. If Jake had said no today to be with me in any corner of the world, Sam would've had to suffer. So many things were wrong because of my mere existence. So I did what should've been done ages ago.

I ran to the edge of the Quileute border. I could smell Aunt Rose and Uncle Emmett. And then in one swift second I covered the distance between us and fell into Aunt Rose's arms. I let the tears flow without any inhibition. She hugged me and patted my back.

"It's ok Ness. It'll be ok. Shh."

Ness. The name He had given me.

"I'm not Ness... I'm Renesmee. Renesmee." I said in between my tears and hicupps. Aunt Rose's eyes went wide and she looked at Emmett.

"Renesmee dear, are yet sure you've made the right decision?" Uncle Emmett asked.

I nodded.

"Please lets go." I said before I was pulled back to Him.

Aunt Rose carried me in her arms. I didn't know how fast or slow we went. I didn't know where we had reached. I was too busy crying and trying to make myself believe that at least one day Jake would be fine. Him being happy, safe and sound was all that mattered.

But my inner monologue was interrupted when the leaves started rustling under someone's fast steps, when animals in the forest started screaming and disappearing. When out of nowhere, we were surrounded.

As far as I could see an army of vampires stood before us. All wearing the same symbol.

The Volturi were here. For me.

A.N. So sorry for another late update. Not that anybody is still reading the story I feel. But still if by chance anyone is still following, sorry to you'll.

So well if you'll are reading this, how did you'll find it? She left him. And well now she is surrounded.

Any kind of criticism is always welcomed.

So please review if you do read the story.