So this is my second note, as I feel everyone deserves to know just how much I really appreciate everything, whether you simply follow, favorite, leave reviews or not, and so-on.
I live in an abusive household, one where I was blamed for being raped by my psychotic ex who still stalks me, where I have had to make money to pay bills and buy groceries since I was ten, and one that I have been stuck in for over twenty years because for a long time I wanted to be loved by my mother and let her manipulate me just so I could feel I was important and not want to die. I have tried to kill myself, several times in life, especially last year as everything began to crumble in on me in every field, because my mother tormented me and let the world tear me apart because I am not what she wanted for a child. My father, who I was closest too, died when I was young and there have been many times that my family has pushed towards me that I may have been responsible for it, turning on me when I felt bad about it and saying I was being 'overdramatic' and that I had 'nothing to be emotional about' that I was a baby and needed to grow up. Next day they'd rely on me, one of the youngest siblings in the family, to pay for their food, their transportation to and from school, the bills, so-on and so-forth.
Finally, through hard work and with a lot of help from my amazing fiancée, I have the chance to officially get out of that house, and to be confident in at least some of the things I make. She is the light of my life and the reason I live. And she encouraged me to work past my anxiety and fear to post this story about a character I had made for a failed Fire Emblem tabletop game.
I post chapters so frequently because writing helps with my depression, my PTSD, my suicidal thoughts, all of it. And honestly, whenever you guys leave something for me to read, even if it's pointing out a mistake I made while typing or posing valid questions, it means the world to me! I adore your reviews, and I love answering because I like building that relationship with you, my readers and fans (maybe). I can't express how uplifting it is when one of you posts something, how it could fully change my entire day from being shit to awesomeness. This is why I take the time to respond, to be bold and call out the people that only post hate, and to thank anyone that follows, favorites, or leaves constructive reviews.
So, thank you! All of you! Legit, you guys rock and I would have quit if I didn't have you all. Also, thank you, seriously, to the person that posted the comment about Elise's ribbons. I haven't slept much lately and was a little out of it when I was typing that part. I did go back and fix it, changing it to the black bows she wears as that was what I originally intended. Lol. And please, if you have something that isn't hate, like legit hate towards a group, then I will read it and reply. Don't be afraid. Criticism doesn't faze me; being mean towards a group of people who did nothing to hurt you bothers me.
Thank you all for reading and just know that I do cherish what you say. Until next time everyone!
