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**21**

Bella still felt sore when she opened her eyes the next morning. She groaned, stretching her arms and legs before she sat up straight in the bed.

"Good Morning," Alice greeted her, placing a tray with their breakfast on Bella's lap. "Did you sleep well?"

"Like a baby. You're cute for making us breakfast. Why didn't you wake me up? I could have helped you."

"I wanted to surprise you."

Alice leaned forward and kissed Bella's mouth. She caressed the girl's messy curls that had escaped the long braid in her neck.

"Are you still sore?"

"Yes, a bit. But that's probably normal after a girl's first time. I don't regret anything."

She petted the place next to her and sighed when Alice pulled her face close to kiss her again. "I love you."

"I love you. What do you want to do today?" Alice asked her, drizzling some honey on a piece of toast.

"Staying in bed all day long seems like a pretty good plan to me." Bella murmured. She lifted the cup with hot chocolate to her mouth and sighed deeply.

"I feel bad for causing you pain. I should have been more careful."

"Alice, stop this. You were wonderful, so tender and caring. If you talk like that I'm starting to believe you regret it."

"I don't. It was better than I've ever imagined it to be like. I want to do it again." Alice stated. She reached out her hand and circled her fingertips down Bella's shoulder, drawing an invisible heart on the bare skin.

"Soon," Bella murmured. "Very soon,"

They finished their breakfast and Alice moaned softly when Bella kissed away a tiny droplet of dried hot chocolate from the corner of her mouth.

"I'm so lucky, I've found you. You are special." Bella whispered.

"My mom always says I'm special but what she really means is that I'm a freak."

"You are not a freak. You are different. That doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you."

"I wished I wasn't different. My entire life, I've been worried about people finding out my secret."

"And it is safe with me." Bella assured her. "I won't let anyone hurt you."

Alice nodded her head. She still couldn't believe how very accepting Bella was of her. Her hands moved down to her crotch and she remembered how often she had hoped for some miracle that would change her genitals into that of a regular woman. Maybe finding Bella was the true miracle she needed.

"I want to be with you forever. I can't wait until we have our own place."

"Me too, but I'm a bit worried about our parents. If we want to stay together, we can't hide our relationship from Carlisle and Renee for the rest of our lives."

Bella cuddled against Alice from behind. "It's not forbidden for us to be together. We are not actually related."

"I know. But what if our parents get mad at us?" Alice asked worriedly.

"We'll figure something out. Please, stop worrying so much. It's not right."

"Worrying," Alice mumbled. "At least we don't have to worry about you getting pregnant."

"Pregnant?"

"I don't think I can get you pregnant."

"You think? What in heaven's name is that supposed to mean? I thought you can't..ahm…father…a child?"

"Well, I think I can't. One of the doctors that examined me told me that my sperm rate is extremely low."

"But you could still…I could still? Oh crap!"

"Bella, calm down, the risk is minimal. You don't need to worry."

Bella jumped from the bed and fumbled her notebook out of her backpack. She flipped through the pages, looking for the tiny, red cross that she used to mark the first day of her period with. Panic spread throughout her. How could she have been so stupid? A baby was the last thing she needed right now. Yes, she wanted kids, but later—much later.

XXX

"This is unnecessary." Alice told Bella when she parked the car in front of the hospital about an hour later. "You're not going to get pregnant."

"I just want to make sure. Neither of us is ready to have a child."

"Yes, Bella, but I think you're overreacting a bit. What are you planning on telling the doctor?"

"Nothing about you, if that's your concern."

"Are you angry at me?"

Bella shook her head. "I'm just really worried right now. Maybe, I'll feel better after a doctor checks up on me."

This is embarrassing, Alice thought as they entered the hall. It was a Sunday and for some weird reason E.R's were always crowded on weekends.

A nurse handed them some papers to fill out while they were supposed to wait. Bella's hand circled over her perfectly flat abdomen. What if? What if? No, she couldn't let that happen. It would be a complete disaster, if she would get pregnant now.

"Alice?"

Dr. Platt looked pale. She was sitting in a wheelchair. It would take at least another month until she would be able to work again. So, much agony just to save some little birds? Esme would never again try to climb on a tree.

"Hello, Dr. Platt. How are you feeling?"

"Quite okay, I'm impatient to get this cast off my leg. Doctors are horrible patients. Everyone knows that. What are the two of you doing here?"

"Well, we—," Alice started hesitantly.

"I need to see a gynecologist. It's an emergency…kind of." Bella whispered nervously.

"Did someone hurt you?" Esme asked Bella, rolling her wheelchair a bit closer to the brunette girl.

"No…it's nothing…I just...I…I don't know…crap, we should have used a condom."

"Oh, I see. Well, if you stay down here, you'll be waiting for the rest of the day. I can bring you upstairs and ask one of the gynecologists on the second floor to take a look at you."

"You're an angel. Alice, do you want to stay here or come with me?"

Alice cringed. The entire situation made her feel extremely uncomfortable. She should have just kept her stupid mouth shut about things. Now, her weekend with Bella was ruined. Bella would hate her for the rest of her life if she was pregnant now.

"I'll wait here until you're finished."

"Good," Bella whispered. "Wish me luck,"

Esme rolled towards the elevators and pressed the button to the second floor.

"Breathe. Everything is going to be okay." she told Bella when the metal doors closed behind them.

"I feel like an idiot. It's not like I don't know how contraception works like."

"I guess so. People make mistakes. How long has it been? When you are still within the first 36 hours, the emergency pill might be an option."

"Yes."

"You are lucky your stepfather isn't here this weekend. I think he has some family thing going on. At least that's what his secretary told me when I wanted to return his files."

"Mom and Carlisle are taking care of an aunt that had a stroke."

"Oh that's sad to hear. I hope she'll be alright. Would you just wait over here in that room? I'll just need to find someone who owes me a little favor."

Bella sat down on a plastic chair. Her hands were sweating. She wished that she had Alice with her right now, just to hold her.

The wall in front of her was covered with countless baby pictures. Just what Bella needed right now…

"Dr. Alistair will be with you in a couple of minutes." Esme said. She noticed how Bella was staring nervously at the baby pictures.

"Cute, aren't they?"

"I don't want a baby. It would ruin my life."

Esme cringed. Wasn't that exactly what Charles had told her after she had told him she was expecting her son?

"Dr. Platt, are you alright?"

"I was just in thoughts. You can call me Esme if you want to. How is my…I mean how's your little brother?"

"Eddie is good. He's with Mom and Carlisle in Phoenix. Maybe you should ask my mother if you could see him again?"

"Carlisle thinks it's not a good idea. He's probably right. The boy would only get irritated if they told him about the adoption."

"Perhaps,"

Esme took a deep breath and reached out her fingertips to touch one of the Polaroid pictures. "I want to see him so badly, but I know it's impossible. I gave up any rights I had when I signed these goddamn adoption papers."

"I'm sorry. That must have been difficult for you."

"You have no idea. I wished I could turn back the time and make undone what happened but it's impossible."

The door was pulled open and a tall man with shoulder-long curly hair entered the room. He had dark circles under his eyes and looked like he hadn't shaved for at least a week.

"The Chief's stepdaughter is here. Esme, I'll take care of this. Do you want to spend my lunch break with me when I'm done here? They're making Lasagna in the cafeteria today."

"You know, I don't eat any meat. Especially not here,"

"Ah, not this tofu crap talking again. You can have salad if you want to."

"Kay."

"Great, then I'll see you downstairs in twenty." He stated, his lips curling into a wide smile.

"What a woman." he murmured to himself after closing the door behind her.

"Now, Miss Cullen, what brings you here today?"

"Well, I…I had..I have…,"

"Don't be shy. Just tell me what bothers you."

"I had sex last night and we didn't use a condom."

"Well, at least you've been smart enough to come here instead of just hoping that everything will turn out okay. I'll write you a prescription for the emergency pill. Remember to use a condom-the next time."

XXX

"I'm sorry." Alice told Bella when they arrived home again. "I was too careless and now you had to suffer the consequences."

"We're in this together. Next time, we'll just use one of those little fuckers and everything will be fine."

She opened the door of the car and pulled the box with the condoms out. They dropped out of her hands, covering the asphalt on their drive-up with two dozens of blue foil wrapped condoms.

Alice was just about to pick them up again, when a basketball landed about an inch away from her face.

"Oh!"

"Crap, did I hurt you?" A brown-haired guy asked her, jogging towards you. "I told Em, we should go and play in the park."

Emmett chuckled and when he stepped closer and saw the condoms on the ground, he burst out into laughter.

"Wow, that's a lot of protection. The girls these days seem to have a lot of fun."

Bella helped Alice to pick up the condoms. Her face blushed into a bright reddish color.

"They're for a school project."

"Yes, sure, what else? When I was at school we never did anything that interesting."

Alice cleared her throat. "How are things going with your fiancée? Does she like it here?"

"She's visiting her folks this weekend. I had to step back from the trip because I'm supposed to be working on a case."

"You're supposed to?"

"Yeah, you get it. Look, my father-in-law is a terrible pain in the ass. I don't need to spend more time around him than necessary."

They walked towards the front door of their house. Alice searched for her keys while Bella continued listening halfheartedly to Emmett's talking.

"Your parents are gone?"

"Just for the weekend, they'll be back tomorrow." Alice stated, pulling out the key. "Enjoy the rest of your free weekend."

"Same to you." he mumbled, waving his hand at them before he turned around.

"Shit, that was embarrassing." Bella said, sitting down on the stairs. "At least it wasn't Mom or Carlisle."

Bella took a deep breath, exhaling slowly through her slightly parted mouth. "We need to be careful. Next time we'll make love, I want us to use one of those." She said, holding the box with the condoms up. "I'm going to store them under my bed."

"Good idea." Alice whispered. She kneeled down in front of Bella, taking both of the girl's hand in hers. "I'm sorry that we had to go to the hospital. This is my fault. If I—,"

"It's not your fault, okay? We're in this together. I love you."

"I love you. I love you so much, Isabella Swan."

"Please, don't call me Isabella. I can't stand my full name. Can you bring me a glass of water? I need to swallow these pills now."