I hope you do not hate. I know it has been a while and I spent all my money, and I went to the Warped Tour yesterday, it was really hot. (about 94)… and muggy. I saw aiden, chiodos, 3oh!3. And met and saw In this moment. I know you must hate me for not updating, but I also have been looking for a new job, and play World of War craft, which btw I am slowly falling into 'addiction with'.

It was nice to see the reviews that I have gotten, want to know something I about have as many reviews for MINY as I do this one, and I want to think all my loyal fans for not killing me at all. Now of course this chapter won't be as long, but it will be long enough to satisfy your tastes for the reaction of the lemon.

As for if Edward saw the girl, well I think were going to find out soon enough, as well as with the drama that I know will start very soon. I want to thank all of you again and I have received another idea from Unexpected. I think I might have another person show up again, since I all know that you love him.(well maybe not, but I do!).but you will be surprised who show's up…well actually his name might make you laugh : ).

I Would like to thank the following Authors and People.

Starfish422. (for making me 'wet' almost every time I read 'Over The Top'). Manyafandom( 'All I Ever Knew' makes me want to cuddle up Jasper and Edward). Stormy Bella, and KickassDraco( for relieving my utter stress.).. And lastly for James, for the best present, and emotional love that I could ever receive.

I don't own anything. Not even the excerpt from Manyafandom :D

"Welcome" he looked at me with a cold stare, that stare that I could only imagine was of something that I couldn't fathom…. He was lost to the heaven that had once been ours."

Chapter 21

Stupid Little Girl

Eddy's Pov.

I always thought I knew myself pretty well. Knew what I was all about. Who I was as a person. Who I wasn't. What I stood for. What I wouldn't stand for. How I would react to any given situation. What I liked. What I disliked. What my limits were. How far I could push myself before I broke.

But I was sadly mistaken when I looked at the monster that I had become, and the man that seemed to be sleeping next to me. I moved my fingers across his pale arm, the memory of his touch and scent was all over me, I couldn't help but sniff at the possible reason that what had happened last night, wasn't meant to happen.

I don't remember much, just the feeling of them piano. Soft and smooth as silk, and hands wrapped around my dick, and loud moans. I glanced over at a sleeping Carlisle and noticed behind him that the clock was ticking slowly, like his unneeded breath.

6:30 A.M.

I could see the light moving past the curtains that were pulled back, I knew that the sun was going to make it's way and I knew that once he woke up, the events that had occurred last night would be real. Utterly and Painfully real.

Don't let me make a notion of this, not all of it, was painful. In fact the kissing, the fucking and the love I felt around us as we moved towards a higher realm was the most experienced loved that I had ever felt.

No, that was not the painful part.

The painful part was before that, when he had returned to a lost soul, I could tell that he was blocking his thoughts again, as if after I fight he trusted me less. At first I shied away from this understanding that he and I were both surprised that the fact that we were not the same people we had been before we both got over the fight.

But then I saw her. it was a short memory but I could still see her in my head. Brown eyes guttered with some kind of unknown pain, but then a smile ran onto the girls lips as her brown hair bustled, she was carrying a kid.

But that wasn't all I felt coming from Carlisle. Some kind of love response when I saw through her eyes him, he was looking at her with utter love, a emotion that I had given him many a time.

But he never looked at me like that, the way a man would look at his love after a long day, the way a man would look at a women like he needed her more than anything.

No, his stares showed nothing of that kind of ruptured love.

That was what I meant about the pain. That is why I wished part of what happened yesterday was not real.

I didn't know what to say to him when he came walking in through that door, and I saw her, but I couldn't control my emotions, I became angry wanting him to love only me, to wipe the memory of the girl clean off his mind.

I felt him stir beside me and my body tensed with assurance as to what to say once his deep loving blue eyes caressed mine.

I felt his fingers run along my arm, sending shivers down my spine, his face so content looking that I didn't see the point of even waking him, knowing that he might leave for the hospital as soon as he had awoke.

The girl flashed through my mind again, and I felt a tip of my heart shatter. I realized that I had to get out of this room, and wake up, perhaps go downstairs and stare out and watch the sunrise.

I lifted myself up from the bed, very carefully, as to not awake him from the dream that he was having. I moved over to him glancing at his cheek wondering if I dare give him a cheek, like my mother used to give to me before she left to make breakfast.

But I was ultimately proved wrong about the assumptions I had about myself.

I looked around slowly feeling the heat rush through my body as I imagined without hope his lips onto mine and I could hear the sound of his moans run through my mind and I felt my jeans tighten.

I rushed out of the room. I knew that I needed to take a break, but I could barely walk towards the restroom to sit and relax. I hadn't slept last night, how could I. he was holding me and saying the darnedest things.

I sat down on the toilet looking down at my hands and arms. They were covered in tiny bruises, I wondered how hard we were losing control, I had never seen his eyes that dark blue before, or how they instantly turned from a bluish-brown to a black before, so cruel looking, yet loving in ways I wasn't sure I was ready to understand.

I love you.

I wanted to tell him last night, before the events, had reciprocated in front of me. But I couldn't voice my words out clearly for I was in pain, lust and anger. It was half the girls fault after all.

I felt my hands shaking as I looked up into the mirror. I stared at myself as the tiny little bruises ran up the side of my jaw, and my shoulders were black against my pale skin. I saw a flash of a crooked sneer run through my vision as I stared between the monster and myself.

You have to kill her, she can't take away what is rightfully yours.

The monster in me taunted and I shook my head with pity. I couldn't do that to him, he loved everyone that he had to take care of, he was a doctor after all. Besides he would come back home tonight to me, so that we could discuss things.

He would always come back to me…

I saw my eyes flash red and the smirk breathed across my lips before disappearing back into the mirror. I heard the door open a few feet away, as I finished wiping of my hands.

Carlisle was awake.

"Edward?" I heard his gentle voice whisper, as my hand reached for the door knob of the bathroom to open it. I saw his golden eyes looking at mine, and then a look of shock crossed his face as he examined my neck.

"Oh I am so sorry" he whispered slowly, moving closer to me, I felt his hands wrap around my waist, as he looked doctoral at the bruises, I couldn't help but smile since they didn't hurt.

They were his love bites to me, the love bites that I would always remember.

I suddenly noticed that he was looking at my smile with disappointment, like he was sad that what happened last night, wasn't good.

The girl flashed through my mind again.

Do you think he'd thought you were her?, I mean look into those eyes, see that pity and sadness, he must have thought of her and then realized it was only you.

Only you never got that kind of look from him...

Shut up!. I wanted to tell my mind, but knew it would be pretty useless too. I pushed away what my mind was thinking and did something that seem to shock myself.

I took his face in my hand. I kissed him hard on the lips slowly, wanting to take her out of my mind, I pushed my body out towards him, and heard his gasp as I pulled onto his curly bedhead hair.

"Edward-I" his breath leaned over my own lips as he pulled away, leaning his forehead against mine.

"Carlisle I love-" but before I could open my eyes I heard the shrill of the phone and the silence was broken with another pang to my heart.

"Edward, I need to get this" and with that he was rushing into his room leaving me to stand there as the door shut behind him. I felt my lips with my fingertips and shook my head.

It was too soon….

I moved towards my room and decided to dress myself, pulling on some new boxer briefs and a tailored style black jeans and smooth silk shirt I moved towards the mirror again to brush my hair. I was shocked.

Staring at me was that same sneer, those same red eyes, those same monster-like thoughts. I was beginning to wonder if mirrors showed the true side of what we considered a natural blood vampire. I shook my head to stare at myself as I tried to comb my unruly hair.

No time.

"Yes, Yes , I understand" Carlisle's voice came down past my door, and I heard a sound of footsteps on the stairs, I moved out of my room, curious now, as I heard the sound of a woman's voice on the other line.

"Please understand Dr. Carlisle you have done everything you can for my husband, I was wondering if you would like to come and see if this new medicine can be preformed on him" her voice sounded erratic as I reached the last step.

Only to see Carlisle was already dressed in his doctor's outfit. I stood and watched him trying to hear his thought's but he was blocking them from me.

That couldn't be the girls mother, could it? I wanted to ask him but, I was curious both sides of me was curious and also growing furiated of the fact that he was blocking his thoughts from the one that he had 'made ' love too.

If that's what you called it, I would have called it lust.

The monster said laughing slowly in my head, as I heard another voice this time instead of the erratic older women.. I heard another girl, a younger girls voice run through the phone.

She had a voice like my little sister Mattie's it was charming, and I saw his back tense, and I bet he could feel me watching his back. I could hear in his mind, him thinking the names of confederate army men.

"Please sir, " her voice like bells ran through air. I saw his hand clench into a fist and his body shivered slowly, and I wondered what he was feeling, and what more he was thinking.

"Please save him, I need you too. Please come and see him, I will be there with him, I am dying to see you again, sir"

The moment those words had come from her mouth, a flash of her ran through my mind, only this time he slipped and Imagined her in a light blue dress holding the phone twirling her brown hair with the other hand.

I felt my fangs protrude down inside my mouth, but I decided to remain calm, and not noticed anything as I made my way to the living room and stared at the window.

"of course" I heard him barely whisper, and with a few more words the mother had come back on the phone and he told her he was on her way. I heard the phone click and it took all my reserve not to smirk.

Suddenly I felt two strong arms wrapped around my shoulders, and his hot breath against my ear, I felt a shiver run down my back, and my body tensed in his arm, I could see nothing from his mind and it was driving me crazy.

Proven wrong by the most unlikely of sources.

"I want to talk to you when I return. I promise that I will return by three this afternoon, then we will discuss what happened last night" and I felt his mouth cover my ear, and he kissed it lightly.

Another shiver ran through my mind, but my fangs were still down, and I knew that if I spoke he would see them and start asking questions.

"three, ill hold you too that" I smiled and said in my mind, as I felt his presence move away and heard the sound of the front door close.

I told myself to wait. I did wait. I waited for almost what felt like the rest of my eternity.

Eventually I glanced up, finally opening my eyes as I lay on the couch, and noticed that the sun was still in the sky but the what coursed through me next was not another wave of patience but anger, I saw the clock in front of me and I couldn't help but feel the crooked sneer run over my lips.

5:20 P.M.

I knew that Carlisle would have called if he was running late, I knew that he would do that for me, at least have the decency to call home, maybe their was traffic and he was stuck in that.

You must be joking.. a loud laugh ran through from the monster inside me, and I felt the sneer widened on my own lips.

He's with that girl, you know that the man was near death, or so you received from the few choice words of the mother, before he left her on the phone… he's lying.

I eventually noticed that my whole body was shaking, another disappointment, but this time I wasn't going to let that girl take him, and before I knew what I was doing, I was outside on the street calling down a ford taxi.

He was never going to lie to me again.

I managed to wave down a ford taxi, the young man driving it looked to be about twelve, but I knew that he was right about 19, a few years older than me, but he looked so young. I saw a flash of the girl in his green eyes, and couldn't help but slide in the taxi with a stiff growl.

"Where too sir?" I heard the Texas accent rush through the air.

"Chicago hospital, jasper " I said to sudden and watched the boy look at me as though I must be some kind of freak, for knowing his name without such a voice of him saying what his name was.

"yes sir"…

It was all a blur from there. I saw nothing but black and red and brown. I saw nothing but a girl laying on the ground screaming. I felt a wave of lust as the screams got louder in my imagination.

Stupid girl, should never mess with a monster's property.

I couldn't help but sneer as the car moved towards the hospital.

A/n

Oh no??!!!. were you expecting that. Ha!. Did you like the fact that I named the taxi cab man jasper(secretly drools). Yes I know that this is probably not the real way that Edward met her. but I do so love making Edward's monster come out, I have a hot and passionate love for dark Edward.

Shall I do Edward's pov next of Carlisle's?, seriously I am curious to think what will happen once he arrives, hmmm should I kill her, I mean I loved her in the books but now I am utterly jealous of her.

Oh did you like the little flashes of the mirror, I got that idea from Unexpectedand the old movie "bleed". which I recommend if you like Irish vampire films… and what do you think will be the 'discussion' if Carlisle comes back home safely.

I must have you ideas.

Adieu.