A/N: I'm sorry that I haven't put anyhting new up. I was hoping that I would get more reviews but I was wrong. But I have gotten into a mood that gives me the inspiration to write.
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Dear Diary,
I've been having almost the same dream every night for a week I'm at my house and I hear the door slam. I look around and no one is there until I go back to my room. The door slams shut and my sight turns hazy. I am now watching my body turn around and face my father. He stumbles up to me and grabs my hair and lifts my head up. I can even see the fear in my eyes, the tears too, but I don't cry. I know that if I cried I would have an even worse punishment. Then I think to myself. Why and I being punished? I haven't done anything. I get slapped in the face and fall to the floor. But I'm fine. I get up and back away, asking why. Why am I being punished?
"You whore. You are the reason I lost my job. The reason your mother left me. The reason was because you were born. THAT is why. Now get. Back. Here."
I run. I run as fast as I can and as far away as possible. Out the door into the field. But then I hit a barrier and my father catches up with me. However, now Ron is with him. My father punches me in the face as Ron holds me. I can feel my bones break. Ron tosses me onto the ground. Hard. Ron kicks me in the stomach as my dad kicks me in my back. Raven shows up, no doubt going to save me from this horrible fate of mine. But instead, she pulls out her wand and aims it at me.
"Crutio." She says in her sweet but serious voice. I'm still watching this but I can feel the power of the spell through my veins. I scream out and shoot up in my bed. This has happened the past week, now that I've been at school. But Raven comes to me as many different people I love. Once it was the twins. That must have been the worst dream because Fred (or George) preformed the normal spell but then the other killed me.
I can't keep this up without going insane. I'm worried about my sanity. Not Raven's, because she deals with people like me every Friday. She works at the insane asylum. She gets people that cut, O.D, and are just crazy psychos. I would love to work there! I keep asking Raven to bring me, but she thinks it's a bad idea. I can see, now, that she is right. If I ever went there, I would get even more fucked up. I can't sleep as it is. I'm so afraid of going back into the dreams that hurt me. I haven't seen Ron around yet. I am trying my hardest to avoid him… But I know that someday, I'm going to see him.
I've gone to Draco about this but he says that I should sleep and try to make sense of my dreams. Try to talk more to my father, Ron, and the others. I am just waiting for the day that Draco kills me in my dream. I don't know how I'm going to face him. We have been privately talking every day. It's been six says since we've been back in school. The day that my nightmares started, I scared the life out of the oldest house elf in the mansion. He had a heart attack from my screams and we had to get a witch doctor to come and help us. Raven was worried about me the whole time I was there. I forgot to tell her that I was taken away and I was staying at the Malfoys. She flipped at me when I got back to the school in one piece.
I have been eating my meals in my room to avoid Ron and the rest of my family. But tonight I'm going to the hall. It's Saturday and I know that a lot of people are most likely out at Hogsmede. But I know that Raven is gonna be here with me. That's enough to get me down there. So I'm going to eat my dinner. Wish me luck!
Ginny