Chapter Twenty-one: Wanting Bella

AN: I've walked away from the last chapter and listened to some music and cleaned some of the house. It's definitely helped my head. That last chapter was giving me a headache. Just need some friends to go out with later. I don't work on Fridays otherwise you wouldn't have gotten all of that so far. Thanks sweetmahogany for the review, I've enjoyed reading some of your stuff too. I am also curious where this story will take me, the characters sometimes have different ideas than I do.

Characters belong to Stephenie Meyers

EPOV

Where was Bella? I hadn't seen her since she left this morning. It was now evening and I was anxious. Not knowing how to contact her other than her dorm room and roommate was frustrating. Alice had remained here all day with Jasper. I knew she'd left with Rosalie, but I couldn't get hold of her either. Where could they be? Bella always seemed to be in some sort of trouble so it made me worry more than if it had been someone else. I was pacing downstairs, already tiring of wearing patterns in the carpet of my own bedroom. Why was I worried? I'd never cared about another person that much before.

My mind went back to the morning. I woke up frantic because she wasn't there, if I hadn't seen the rumple of sheets I would have thought I had dreamt the entire thing. Going downstairs to the entire living room full of people interrogating her was interesting, that's why I had put her into my lap. To protect her from their questioning. She was so beautiful even after just having woken up that I wanted to take her right there. Her breasts were perfect, I wanted to touch them again. I was shocked when Bella told me she wanted her mouth on them. I never thought she'd have that kind of boldness in her. That was definitely a good thing, she'd be able to tell me what she did and didn't like at least, unlike so many other girls I'd been with. If Rosalie hadn't interrupted us that chair would be defiled right now.

Hearing the door open I ran to it, hoping it was my Bella. I could hear talking "Rosalie, thanks for taking my truck to the shop to work on it. Please don't do anything too crazy with it. I know you want to show off, but I'm telling you I don't want flames or something like that on it. I'd be too embarrassed to drive it anywhere." I could hear Bella saying, it seemed as though she was always embarrassed about something.

Rosalie told her "Don't worry about it, Bella. It will look great and you'll love it better than a new car." I was sure Rosalie was telling the truth, she absolutely loved cars. Emmett had let me in on the deal between Rose, Bella and her ancient truck.

Coming over to Bella I pulled her into a tight hug and said "I missed you." Then I kissed her deeply. Bella pulled back gasping for breath.

"If you are going to react like that each time I'm gone, maybe I'll go away more often." Bella said laughing.

"No, please don't. I don't think I can stand it." I pleaded with her.

"Bella, I'm going to find Emmett. We'll talk about what we're doing later." Rosalie said as her heels clicked down the hall.

"Did you have fun with Rose? You were gone all day. I was worried about you." I admitted.

"Yes, I had fun with Rosalie. We had our mandatory meeting, some talking, some lunch and more talking." Then she laughed and said "Almost the same day I had with you, only with less sexual tension."

I couldn't help laughing at that. "So you two had some bonding time. What did you talk about?" I asked her, actually curious. Rose didn't open up to people very much.

"Let's sit down first and I'll tell you all about it." Bella said to me. I was about to lead her to the living room and she shook her head and started to walk upstairs. She wanted to talk in my room? Why?

As if to answer my unspoken question she said "There are fewer ears to hear with a closed door." Okay, so she wasn't coming here for sex then. Dammit, when was I going to be with her already.

She came into my room and sat on the couch as I followed her after locking my door. She leaned her head against my chest and I swear I saw her sniff me. Her deep brown eyes looked up at me and she smiled. I couldn't help myself I had to kiss her lips. She pulled away frowning and said sternly "I came up here to tell you about Rosalie. Save that for later."

Sighing, I said "What about Rosalie?" Not that I really cared, the entire world could be crashing down around me and all I'd be thinking about at this moment is the girl in front of me.

"Well… Rosalie told she how she came to belong to your family." She told me. I was in complete awe, Rose never has told anyone about that other than the family as far as I knew, not even her roommate.

"She told you her story? I can't believe it. She must really think of you as family, more than you realize." I told her, then I wondered Did Rosalie already have Bella taken into the family? Well, why not? The rest of them did too, it seemed as though I was the one that was slowly realizing she belonged there.

"Yes, she told me that. She also told me why she loved cars so much. Rosalie said they couldn't hurt her the same way humans could emotionally. She also said she likes seeing something broken look bright and shiny and new again. I think that's what she tries to do with herself too." Bella told me. I thought she was observant to have caught onto that with Rose. Most just thought she was a stuck-up bitch, only those that truly knew her, knew that wasn't the case. She had a heart of gold if she let you in enough to see it.

"Bella, I think Rosalie has let you into her heart and that doesn't happen often. I hope you realize what a precious gift that is." I told her. She had tears in her eyes and she nodded that yes, she did understand.

I wrapped my arms around her and brought her closer to me, content to hold her. Bella then looked back at me and said "Edward, please kiss me. I need you too." Not arguing with her, I kissed her lips softly sucking her bottom lip, placing one hand on her cheek with the other arm still around her. Her hands worked themselves into my hair again, it seemed she liked doing that.

Then her kissing became more insistent as she licked her tongue across my lips wanting them to open wider for her. Parting my lips a little more our tongues met and entangled each other again. She pulled away from me then and started kissing my neck softly at first, then sucking a little harder.

Her hands had started unbuttoning my shirt again. Instead of just leaving it open, she took the entire shirt off and stared at me for a while. I desperately wanted to take her shirt off too, but so far she wasn't letting me. She was driving me crazy. Getting down on her knees between my legs her lips came towards my chest then and she began kissing down it slowly, biting me intermittently, sometimes softly, sometimes hard enough I knew their would be teeth marks later. I thought I was going to explode if she didn't stop it, but she had no plans of letting up.

She continued kissing all the way down my chest and my stomach and back up again over and over, while her hands also continued to roam over me. I loved what she was doing to me, but I really needed release soon. Seeming to understand that she unbuckled my pants then and pulled them down along with my boxers. Instead of her hands touching me first, her tongue flicked out over the head and then she slid her hot wet mouth over my erection and I was in heaven. I put my hands on her head and helped her as she moved up and down licking at the same time.

Finally, I knew I wouldn't be able to hold out much longer. I thought I was going to come. "Bella, I'm going to cum soon maybe you should stop doing that." Instead of stopping she looked up into my eyes and kept doing it while watching my face. I exploded into her mouth in ecstasy and she swallowed all of me. Not believing she'd ever do that, it was a shock. She didn't look disgusted by it either. Bella came back up to my mouth and kissed me hard. I couldn't believe she'd just given me a blowjob without me performing my duties first. Maybe she knew if she hadn't this wouldn't have happened and we'd be on the bed now fucking. That was so much better than Tanya, what was I thinking? Bella maybe wasn't as experienced but was definitely better and I could only see her getting even better. Then I had another thought that I stupidly said aloud "Crap, we didn't use a condom." Bella looked at me horrified and I wondered at the expression on her face, and then she looked ashamed.

"What's wrong? Why do you look like that?" I asked her.

She replied "Because Alice just gave me a lecture about this yesterday and her and Rosalie even gave me condoms and I completely forgot about them just now. All I could think was how much I wanted to do that and how much I wanted to taste it. What if when we do have sex I forget again?" I closed my eyes and pinched my nose.

"Bella, if we had actually been together, I wouldn't have forgotten. Trust me." I promised her.

"Now you've given me pleasure and you haven't gotten any in return. That hardly seems fair, does it?" I spoke again to her.

"No, it doesn't seem fair." She smiled at me. "I think it will have to wait until later though I hear people running up the stairs and I'd bet they would like to barge in right now." Grumbling, I righted my boxers and my pants. Not bothering to put my shirt back on I started towards the door. I could feel Bella's eyes on my back. I wondered what she was thinking.

"We've decided what we're doing tonight." Alice's squeal came through the door as she banged on it.

Opening the door, I looked down at her. Her eyes were wide as she looked at my bare chest and rumpled pants. Then she stared at me more closely, looking like she was counting. What was she doing? I looked down and could clearly see several bite-marks from Bella. Well, at least they were in places I could hide easily. Alice peered into the room, trying to look behind me. Bella came up to me and put her hand on my back. She was completely clothed and her clothes weren't mussed at all. Alice just looked back at me in confusion and shrugged and said "Put a shirt on and meet us downstairs in less than five minutes. You won't like it if I have to come up here to bring you down."

Closing the door after her, I turned and pulled Bella to me and kissed her hard, saying "Rain check?" Then I went to my closet to get a clean shirt, one without buttons this time. I didn't need that temptation with my family around.