Chapter 21 – Wounded Hearts

After three days, Gon got a call from his Aunt Mito that Killua was miserable since Meilin left. Her aunt does not have an idea of what happened between the two lovers because since Meilin left, Killua muted and could not eat anymore. Her aunt was so worried about Killua's situation right now and she wanted him to go back there to solve the problem. Gon informed Karuto about it and both of them immediately went to his hometown. Though they were already having a special relationship, they still wanted it to be a secret for now, especially with this kind of situation. Killua needs them badly.

"Where is he?" asked Gon right away to his Aunt Mito.

"He's on your room," answered Aunt Mito. "Who is she, anyway?" she added. His aunt is talking about Karuto on his side.

"S-She's Karuto, sister of Killua."

"Really?" said Aunt Mito then looks at Karuto again. "You look familiar," she added. Gon and Karuto stared on each other feeling nervous. "Let's just forget about it maybe I just seen on you your brother Killua," smiled aunt Mito. Both of them were relax then they decided to go on Killua's direction.

At his room, they saw him quietly sitting on the floor, his back leaning on the wall. He looks so lifeless and very miserable. Untidy hair, unclean clothes and face of no expression. They tried to talk to him but they failed. However, Karuto never lose hope. She requested Gon and Aunt Mito to leave because she wanted to talk to her big brother privately. They had respected her request then hurriedly went out from the room. She kneeled on the floor near in front of her brother. She never had seen Killua as miserable as this. He seems dead.

"Talk to me, brother. Tell me what the whole story is. We are so worried about your situation. Please bring back Killua Zoldick…"

"He's dead now…" Finally, he talks.

"No!" she exclaimed then she punch his face but he just ignore it. "You're alive! What's happening to you?"

"Stop acting like you're really concern about me, Karuto because it doesn't fit you. Zoldicks are emotionless! We're born in hell!"

Karuto got shocked. She seen great hatred on his eyes and a great pain. "We may be born in hell but we've been moved out there before it was too late! We made it Killua because we chose to live normal. Whatever happens between you and Meilin, it doesn't mean you'll go back to hell again…I adore you so much that I don't want you to go back to that miserable life again!"

"I've been dead since Meilin left and denied me…I'm a looser…"

"What happened?"

"She found out that Zoldicks are assassins and our father killed her father. Her love for me turns into hatred…Oh how I wish I'm not a Zoldick! I hate my identity and I curse our family for raising us like a hell!"

Karuto got confused. "Father doesn't kill innocent people, you must know it."

"But he did!" he shouted.

"I'm sure father had a reason why he killed him."

"He killed Meilin's father just because of an unpaid loan. He's greedy!" Killua stand up and walks four steps then stop. "Keep out of this, Karuto. I want you to have peaceful and happy life with the normal people. You made the right decision when you planned to re-invent yourself and transform yourself as Charry Takayama. I want you to live that way and forget Zoldick for long as if you haven't been part of it."

"And what's your plan? Please brother, do not go back to that miserable life again. I wouldn't let you do that."

"My decision is final…I would put Zoldick to an end…"

"You can't do that! Zoldick is your own blood!"

"Those who live their lives in a shabby way shall die in a shabby way."

Karuto shook her head many times. Tears run down through her face. "You cannot defeat them…" she said in a low voice.

"Why? They raised me to be the best assassin in the family and they fear me. I'm very sure that I would kill all of them!"

Karuto shook her head to disagree. "You can't kill them brother…because the Killua in front of me is not the Killua they'd trained to be the great assassin anymore…I bet you can't kill now…"

"You don't know me well, Karuto…"

"You're right," she agreed. "But you're not emotionless now and your love for Meilin proves it all!"

"Stop it Karuto or else you'll be my first victim!" he warned.

Karuto did not fear him. "I'm willing to be the first and I'll make sure that it would also be the last," she said courageously. "Come on! Kill me!" she obliged but instead of confronting her, Killua walks away. She followed him and she saw Gon convincing him not to go but on her shocks Killua give a full force attack on Gon's back of the head that made Gon collapsed. His unconscious body fell on the floor. "Gon!" she run towards them but before she get near Killua escaped quickly.

"What happened?" asked Aunt Mito came from kitchen.

"Killua attacked Gon and escaped," she answered worriedly.

"He must be crazy now," commented by Aunt Mito then they help each other to get Gon from the floor to bring him on his bedroom.

Meanwhile, Meilin is also suffering with the decision she made. She loves Killua so much and it's hard for her to move on and forget everything about him just easy as that. Since they arrived here in Hong Kong, Meilin was very upset and very sad. She wanted to be alone in her room and no one could obliged her to go outside even Sakura always insist. She was always crying every time she remember the memories that she and Killua shared. At this moment, she is looking at the necklace on her palm that Killua given to her. The necklace belongs to Killua since he was six; the pendant of the necklace was Mike's tooth that according to him he defeated Mike at that age by just giving him a great and powerful kicked that's why the tooth fell from Mike's gums then Killua picked it and decided to make it pendant as a souvenir. He told her that he gave that to her as a proof of the purity and sincerity of his love… But all of that was a lie! She cry and throws the necklace somewhere then cries over and over again.

"She's crying again," informs Sakura sadly to Syaoran.

"Don't mind her," Syaoran answered back calmly.

"Her heart is aching and you don't care about it even just a little, why?" Sakura said disappointedly.

"Meilin is brave enough to face these trials,"

"But she needs us, Syaoran."

"You're right," said Syaoran coldly. "But not at this moment. When she already realized that she was just wasting time crying for that unworthy assassin man that would be the only time she can think well and finally listen to us. Let's give her more time to get over it and after that we are here to support her no matter what," explained Syaoran.

"If that's really the right thing to do then let's wait…"