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-I Only Have My Body-
Chapter 20: Confessions And Yukatas
"...Mm..." Sora mumbled while he tried to chose something on the map Sephiroth gave him "What about...oh, this one! It's called Madagascar"
"Hm...I don't think so, it's too hot. And I know you choose it because of the movie" The older messed the younger's spikes while laughing
"Teehee, well then, how about...Madrid" He asked, his eyes full of anxiety
"Madrid's not bad...but you said you wanted to go to the hotsprings"
"Well, and there isn't any?"
"Probably not" The man stood up "I know, let's go to Japan"
"Sure! I've heard there's a lot of hotsprings"
"Alright, I'll go to tell the others"
"Okay" The brunette said, turning around and starting walking away but a hand stopped him "Huh?"
"Sora...do you still have the necklace with you?" Sephirtoh asked, looking worried
"Yes, it's here" He pointed to his chest proudly "Riku haven't seen it"
"Good" The other smiled and resumed his walk to his office while Sora took the opposite way.
The boy smiled to himself when he thought if he could go and see Riku while working, for some reason the silver haired boy got very busy the last week and now he didn't have too much time to spend with him, they just shared the breakfast, and even there, Riku didn't exchange words with him. Since the incident at the party he started with a lot of work, and our oblivious Sora wouldn't notice that the older was trying to evade him.
Sora didn't notice that he was now in front of Riku's office, slowly opening the door and finding his saviour there with Kairi talking a bit. His eyes narrowed and tried to catch what they were chatting about, but instead of hearing, he lost his balance and fell foward right into the floor, leaving the two people in there a bit surprised.
"Ow..." The brunette whispered while rubbing his nose gently sitting in the floor
"Hehe, little Sora, it's rude to spy other people's conversations, you know?" Kairi said, and for the first time felt that...she was...Nice? no, there must be some hint of mocking...Then she went to help him, giving him her hand and pulling him up "I think your nose's bleeding"
"Ah...um, i-it's okay, really" He said, covering his face "...I just wanted to say hi to Riku"
The older jumped a bit surprised and without looking at him he greeted the boy "G-good morning"
"Hi..."
Kairi, who was in the middle of the two frowned but smiled, men are so complicated..."So, what brings you here?" She said, trying to break that annoying atmosphere
"Oh, yeah, I came to tell you we finally decided where to go! Sephy said we're going to Japan" Sora explained to Riku, but the other was looking at the computer, so he just closed his mouth and looked at his shoes "Well then, I have to tell the others too"
The door closed, Kairi looked at Riku with a smirk, Riku blushed.
"You get the hots just by looking at him, hn?"
"Shaddup..."
"You're sooo childish" The girl sighed "It was just a kiss"
"..." Riku looked at his computer, not really reading the information on it
"Hm, I know the conversation we had will not change your mind, but soon or later, you won't be able to stop yourself from touching him"
"...I don't want to hurt him, Kairi"
"You think he'll be upset if you tell him you're crazy for him? For your information, he's upset because you're evading him"
"You don't understand! He's a kid, he's not ready for what I want to do with him! Besides it's really hard to have these feelings for a boy who I know since he was four...I feel I'm betraying him and his innocence"
"Riku, open your eyes! He's not a kid anymore, he has hormones too, he's different, he's not Innocent! You have a serious problem there, you still seeing him as the baby he was when you found him, but he's not! Sora's special, he's smarter than any other kids, and his feelings are deeper too, he reached his sexual maturation before you!" Suddenly she slammed her hands in the desk, Riku flinched
"...Let's...let's finish this, I'm not really in the mood for this" He waved his hand slowly, telling her with this that they were over with the talk
"Anyways, you can't deny you liked it when you kissed Sora" And with that, she was off.
"Sure I did..."
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"Okay, let's see how we are going to do this..." Sephiroth mumbled to himself, looking at the bunch of people who was in front of him
"We have to make groups of three people, the seats have enough space for three of us" Zexion explained, arms crossed
"Then, let's make the groups" Naminé said, looking around
When the groups were finally made, They started going inside the plane in order. Riku started counting them "Alright, Axel and Roxas...Zexion, Naminé and Kairi, Leon, Cloud and Sora...Aerith, Yuffie and Olette...And me and Seph. There's not too much people in the plane so we can make groups of two too"
"So what are we waiting! Let's go" Yuffie cheered while walking upstairs, followed by the others
Everyone walked to their respective seats, trying not to bump theirselves with the others who were walking too. Riku went to where his father was sitting alone, and accidentally bumped Sora. They locked eyes, but no one dared to say something, the blue eyed just stood up and continued with what he was doing. When Riku reached his seat Sephiroth smirked at him.
"Where's Sora?"
"Huh...he decided to sit with Leon and Cloud..."
"That's strange, since he's always by your side" The man said while reading a magazine with not too much interest. The green eyed looked around and to his surprise, Sora was in the seat next to him, obviously in the other line of seats, looking at him with sorrowful eyes which he decided to ignore, even if it was hard "Ah..."
"C'mon, tell me already" Sephiroth put away the magazine and firmly looked at Riku
"Huh?" The pale exclaimed with a frown on his face
"Why are you evading Sora"
Riku closed his eyes and breathed slowly, there was no use of keeping secrets away from his father, but before he started he made sure his volume of voice was enough lower, that way Sora wasn't able to hear anything "...Ah, I kissed him at the party..."
Sephiroth just watched Sora playing with Cloud's hair and smiled, somewhat in a mocking way "Heh, finally"
"W-what?" His son almost stood up at his unrequested answer, but sadly he had his seatbelt on "I-It's not right, he's...he is a kid" he murmured trying to not catch Sora's attention
"And you still talking like his fucking father...I don't know why you deny it, if you love him just tell him and then he will be the most happy boy in th—"
"You too? First was Kairi with the whole thing of 'oh you should understand he has hormones too' and now...you start with the stupid bullshit about telling him my feelings" The boy sighed, not really knowing why. Maybe he was tired of the same conversation or just because he didn't want to accept it "I don't really understand"
"Well, there's not too much to understand, besides that you two love each other. And about the hormones, Sora seems to have grown up a lot, look! His features are more masculine"
"Dad...he looks even more feminine..."
"How could a boy look feminine? He just looks more delicate than the others. You were girly too in your childhood. Long hair, pale skin, long eyelashes, thin fingers, little nose, rosy cheeks..."
"I don't see the reason of this topic, it's meaningless" He rolled his eyes and leaned down, eve his father didn't help too much
"I lost the track of this chat for a moment, sorry. But as I was saying, you should take in consideration your feelings and stop thinking too much, that kid is trying his best to get your attention and love, but you don't care at all"
"Of course I do, I always do"
"No, you're wrong, your mind is still too blocked by the memories of the baby Sora, don't you see it? He's a big boy, he knows what he wants and knows what to do. He doesn't need a person to give him support, neither money or a great house...he just needs you"
Again, the silver haired young took a look to Sora, now sleeping between Leon's arms. Sometimes he wondered how would it be to be kissed and to kiss him without hesitation, to just screw the other's opinion and hold him until he died. It was pretty obvious that he really needed and loved Sora, but his fear was bigger than his desires. He had a beautiful body, a great life fowards to the future...what would happen if he touched that pure innocence? Would he shatter his heart? If he was going to ruin everything he and his beloved built, he preferred to be far away from his heart.
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"Woah..."
That was the common reaction of everyone when they entered in the Hotspring, it was like a japanese old house, made of wood and sliding doors made of paper. The entrance was totally decorated with flowers, and when the put a foot into the place, a lot of girls with kimonos approached them, taking their stuff and smiling widely when they greeted them.
"We have a single room, two double rooms, and one for four people, so please organize as you like" The receptionist said kindly, bowing and telling the assistants to help them to their rooms.
"Wee! Girls, let's be together!" Yuffie squealed while jumping "Aerith, Olette, Naminé!"
"Of course!" The three girls said in response and giggling they followed the woman to their room, while Leon and Cloud were whispering things between them
"...sure, but what about Roxas and Axel? Zexion said he was fine with it...but maybe they want to be alone, you know" Cloud sighed, leaning back on a wall
The other blonde opened his eyes when he heard his name "Huh? Are you talking about me?"
"Oh, um..." Leon mumbled, he caught them "Well, we were thinking if you would sleep with us and Zexion, it doesn't matter if the room is for four of us, we can pay an extra person"
"It's okay with me" He smiled and told his boyfriend the new plan
"What? But honey, I thought we were going to sleep in that double room, that way we—"
"Oh, shut up, you're always seeking for sex, let's just enjoy this weekend with our friends, and back at the mansion, I'll reward you if you're a good boy..." He whispered into his ear with a soft moan, which made Axel shiver like mad
"Okay, I can't say no to that"
Then again, they started walking, laughing while Cloud looked back to see only Sora standing alone in a corner playing with the fabric of his long sleeved black sweater. He could see that he really was having a hard time, but even so, he couldn't figure why he was like that. Maybe it was about Riku. As always.
"O-okay, I will share the room with you, dad" The green eyed said, his voice shaking when he felt the sad glance of certain brunette. He felt horrible doing this to him, but he really didn't want to have any kind of contact with Sora
"Hahah, no, I'll use the single room. You didn't mean to leave Sora all alone, right?" He said that loudly, so Sora was able to hear everything.
"A-ah..." Riku looked back and started sweating when Sora walked closer to them "E-excuse me" He called the assistant who was there waiting for their decision
"Yes?"
"Isn't there a Triple room? We really need it and..."
"What are you talking about, son?" Sephiroth interrupted him before he messed it "Hahaha, I told you already, I want to sleep alone. Besides Sora wants to sleep with you, right?"
The blue eyed smiled and looked at Riku "Yeah" But Riku didn't smile at all "I-if you don't mind"
"..." Okay, give up already Riku, it was your father and Sora against you "Not at all"
Seph smirked while he saw them walking towards their room and to his surprise, Sora gave him a small grin before turning back. As for the duo, it was very pleasant to share a fucking and annoying silence, if you note the sarcasm. When they made it to their room, the lady gave them their package and left. The situation was perfect for Sora to talk to Riku...
Slowly, a tanned hand reached for the pale's one, holding it tightly and making the older look back. A soft tone of pink appeared in the brunette's face and his blue eyes shyly searched for the green ones "Uhn...Riku, I—"
"Hey guys! We're going to the hotsprings right now!" Smooth, Roxas...really smooth
"Okay!" Riku yelled, grabbed a towel, his japanese wooden sandals and left.
"...damn..." Without hesitation, he did the same as Riku, took off his necklace and walked out of the big room. "I can't stand it..."
After a minute he was into the hotspring resting peacefully into the boiling waters with his freinds fooling around and some just relaxing as him. He still felt sad about the obvious behavior of his silver haired preferred person, it wasn't nice to be ignored for the person you love and care the most and from a day to another he changed his personality, and what was the most funny part? He was like that only with him...If he was upset why was he still silent? He was all ears for him, he just wanted to know what happened...
Suddenly a hand brought him back to reality, and when he tried to look who was it, he recieved a splash of water on his face "H-hey!"
"Weehee, Sor-sor! Let's play!" Yuffie cheered him and of course, the kid accepted. They threw each other the hot water at the others who, giggling, returned the attack. Suddenly almost all the people there started splashing everywhere and making a mess with the water. Everyone except Riku and his father.
"Guys! Let's throw Sora into the water!" Olette screamed while smiling
"YES!" Everyone replied and immediately dragged Sora out of the pool, grabbed him by the arms and legs and started swinging him like a pendulum. "ONE, TWO, THREE!"
"Hyaaa!" The brunette cried when he was flying before landing over something slippery and hot..."Hahaha! That was great!" And when he opened his eyes from the extasis, he found out what was the thing that recieved him...Green eyes? Oh god, it wasn't good..."R-Riku!"
His hands, which were resting over Riku's chest, were immediately removed with a swift movement. Anyways, Riku just looked into the nothingness and then, putting Sora delicatedly into the water, he stood up and walked away from the pool.
"Shit" Axel murmured "He's upset"
"Nah, I don't think so, he's not like that" Zexion explained while Sora just sat into the pool, looking the vapor around him but not really caring about it. Now he was lost...he made Riku upset...
Cloud, knowing how he would feel now, got into the water and slowly reached Sora "Sora, go with him" He said with a tender voice, like a caring mother. Sora just by looking at him knew it was the best, so with a little and awkyard smile he went to his room, where possibly he could be by now.
As he suspected, the door was open so tiptoeing a bit he went to his room and over his bed was a little yukata, like a kimono but for men, and used it. It was a dark blue color with flowers in the fabric of the long sleeves, and the tie was white. He had a bit of problems with the clothing because he have never used it before. Then, he went to search for Riku, and it didn't take him too much because the japanese rooms just have a living room and a kitchen together, so it was easy to find him. He gulped hard and gathering his bravery he got closer to Riku, who has opened the door which leaded to the garden and now was sitting at the porch, looking at the stars and wearing the same yukata he had on. He just looked so...Dreamy.
"R-Riku" The younger boy whispered as if his words would make him more angry. But he didn't know that he wasn't angry at all, he wasn't. When he didn't see any kind pf response, he dared to touch his shoulder, and without knowing, he kneeled down and embraced him tightly, resting his head over his back and feeling his unique scent. He closed his eyes, feeling he would fall asleep in every moment...
"Sora, I...need to talk to you" Riku said firmly, he had been thinking a lot since he was at the hotsprings and then, when he went to their room. He knew that what he was going to do now needed a previous preparation. After recieving the talks from his father and secretary, he really seemed to need a time to stop wondering too much and sat and think alone. Maybe he took the wrong decision, but sometimes...you just have to listen to the others and just go with the flow of your feelings "Sit down"
"Y-yes" He obeyed and sat down next to him, looking at the stars too while he waited for him, he knew that Riku wasn't very good with words...
The older sighed, and that meant for Sora he would start talking now "I...needed to tell you something, and I hope you understand it. It's very difficult to say this...but first I want you to know that I'm not angry with you, I could never be"
Sora smiled a bit nervous but happy "I thought you—" his lips were locked by a finger, and Riku looked at him with determination
"Let me finish first, okay?" He told him and then removed his finger, Sora just nodded yes and he looked at the sky again "I have been thinking of something that never really concerned me, when you were a kid...you used to kiss me a lot, and it was okay because you were growing and I knew it was kid's stuff. But then, you started growing and I noticed that your feelings were still the same, but I never thought you would be this old and...that you would still loving me that way. Everytime you told me you loved me I felt good, because you were sweet to me, and then you grew up and I found it so hard to hear those words without thinking they weren't a kid's words aymore...it is hard for me to accept that you love me" Riku made a pause mainly because he needed air into his head, his brain was shocking "And..." Then he had the need to look at him, and to his surprise he saw his favorite person crying hard, very hard. But before he could say something, Sora started talking rapidly
"I-I knew that I wou-wouldn't love y-ya, but it's just I c-can't stop it! B-but if you want me t-to stop, I—" His words and sobs dissapeared when Riku lifted his face by his chin and made him look at him
"I told you to wait" He mumbled, and then resumed his talk "I said it was hard for me to accept that you love me..." He sighed, and even him didn't believe he was going to say this, but he felt happy, because finally he had the heart to tell him his feelings "...But it's harder for me to accept that I have fallen in love with you too..."
"Ri—"
And then again, he could feel his lips being attacked by his. Last time it had been a bit harsh and he wasn't even prepared to use his tongue, but now, this kiss seemed to be tender, Riku was just pressing his mouth against his, but even so he couldn't help but feel hot. Slowly and maybe a little scared, he wrapped his arms around his neck, trying to pull him closer, but instead of that he just ended sitting over Riku's legs, his stomach and chest pressing and rubbing, making friction.
There was something that Sora could feel between his legs, pushing up a bit, but anyways he just smiled at that, knowing very well that he was in the same condition as Riku and didn't blame him, instead of that, he just moved a bit, just to find a better position. And of course he knew what was it, anatomy and biology were his favorite subjects. And besides, he was so happy that nothing could ruin it now.
The silver haired boy broke the kiss and looked at him, caressing his blushed cheek with his fingertips. The kiss was for sure a chaste one and even so his body was acting without his permission, but it was natural since he desired him, wanted to touch and kiss the skin, maybe lick...but not yet, for now he had to enjoy the moment and not hurry the things up. Seductively he leaned down and gave him a little peck on the lips, he wanted more than pressing their lips together...
He wanted one like the one they shared at the party...
"Sora..." He whispered against his lips, making the shorter close his eyes and tremble. After all, he was kissing him for real for the first time "Sora, would you..." He whispered, kissing his eyelids and feeling how his hands grabbed his yukata from the back "...let me put my tongue into your mouth this time?"
"U-uhuh..." Was the shakily, but instantaneous reply from Sora. He was being kissed for his beloved and didn't want him to stop, as if it were a dream
As Riku asked, he kissed him again, this time shoving his tongue into his hot mouth and searching for the other's one, finally touching it and caressing it, trying to reassure him that it would be good if he cooperated. He seemed to understand and touched Riku's toungue with the tip of his, as if he were testing if it wasn't dangerous, and before he was sure, he proceeded to pull his lover's head to his mouth, shifting a little over his legs, trying to avoid certain thing touching another certain thing. He was consumed into the kiss, he couldn't feel anything but Riku touching and kissing him, to feel Riku's hand traveling up and down his leg, to feel Riku's breath mix with his own...
To feel being loved, this time without doubts.
He felt the green eyed hovering over him, and when he opened his eyes, he was under him, his yukata was opened, exposing his plain and soft chest to the silver haired man. Not that Riku opened it, it was just that the clothes were a little big for him so they fell down to his shoulders, besides the fact that Riku's one was in the same condition and he could perfectly see his nipples...and not that he complained when he pushed his chest against his, their skin making friction while they kissed again and again...
"R-Riku..." The kid hissed, finding it a bit difficult to talk when his mind wasn't able to work correctly. He didn't notice that his moans were blowing Riku's mind "Is...is this a dream?" He asked, and to his surprise, the older didn't kiss him again, instead of that, he looked at him blankly and then smiled...and to Sora, it was the best smile he ahve seen in Riku's face
"No...it isn't" He said looking down at him, sitting up and helping him to do the same. Sora sat besides him and Riku kindly fixed his messed clothes, now not being afraid of touching his tan skin. After that, he hugged the kid, tightly. "It isn't..."
"B-because...I can't believe it...I don't want it to be a stupid dream" He mumbled, his words muffling with the yukata of the older
Riku sighed between content and tired, the kiss had emptied his lungs and he was feeling dizzy, and it was obvious that Sora was like that too. "Next morning...when you wake up, I'll be the first thing you'll see, and I'll tell you that it wasn't a dream...Okay?"
"...Okay" By just hearing him, Riku could tell he was falling asleep, so he stood up and guided him to their room and made him lie down, then covered him and finally, gave him a firm kiss on the lips, making it short to not be carried away by it again "Night, Sora"
"Mm..." He mumbled, he was already sleeping. But Riku stayed there a bit more, watching him sleep as he sometimes did when he was little...
"I love you so much..." He whispered and smiled warmly when he saw there a baby Sora sleeping peacefully, but he didn't feel guilty, he finally understood. "I think...I loved you all this time with you. And sorry for the delay..."
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He opened his eyes, feeling how the sun warmed his body up. He shifted again and again into his bed but he wasn't able to sleep anymore. Annoying sun. Defeated he opened his eyes abit trying to adjust his sight to the light, but before he could, a shadow hovered over him and made him able to open his eyes, just to see there two green eyes staring lovely at him.
And then it hit him. The last night he...
"R-Ri—! Hmp! Hmm...hn..."
Good boy, he was learning to moan.
When he heard that sweet wet sound of their lips separating, he dared to open his eyes and wait for those words. Just wait for them...
"It wasn't a dream..."
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