a/n: i'll try to make this short. I'm sorry for not updating for months and months but I finally got my head out of my writers block and now I'm all good. But I know if you're following the story you may have forgot about whats going on and it's okay to go back and reread (because I certainly had to). And thank you for sticking with me. I assure you, I will finish this damn story if it kills me. I appreciate all of you. If I could bake and send you all cupcakes to show my appreciation I would. Enuf of my babble, enjoy.

6 days and counting...

It had been two whole days and Ashley still hadn't shown up around anywhere. Spencer was getting worried that she wasn't answering her phone calls or coming back to their apartment. She was about to report her missing or kidnapped. She didn't know what to think at this point. She was going to give it one more day or hopelessly sitting around in their apartment before marching down to the police station and making them put an amber alert out for her.

Ashley did leave a note on the counter saying "I needed to clear my head for a bit, don't worry I'll be fine. I'm going rouge." So, Spencer couldn't worry too much, she knew she'd be back in a few days. But all this waiting around and trying not to fall asleep was killing her.

Spencer knew she shouldn't have fallen asleep, but this dream was just captivating her entire soul. It was the answer to her prayers at the moment. It was what she needed, an escape from this reality that became so warped. She wasn't sure which way was up and which way was down anymore. This dream kept her sane as much as it made her insane, and she wasn't sure which one she preferred anymore.

"Finally a fucking minute to myself," Spencer muttered allowed as soon as she heard Aiden shut the door to their apartment. She threw her head back in frustration and satisfaction. She finally had a minute to lay there and just be. As soon as she shut her eyes to enjoy this peaceful serenity she heard a knock on her door.

"If that's Aiden forgetting something stupid I am just going to kill him. I am going to take that vase with those dying carnations and boink him on the head. Or maybe take the vase throw it at the wall and take a broken piece of glass and shove it in a main artery," Spencer muttered this angrily as she stomped to the door, almost seriously debating about the vase.

She opened unlocked the door and flung it open, "What?!" She shouted before she even saw the person.

"Someone is wound up real tonight, how about I loosen you up?" Ashley smirked as she said it playfully. She didn't even bother getting invited it. She ran her finger along Spencer's chin, smiled, and let walked into the kitchen. "I heard the meathead leave, so I figured it was perfect timing to come over here and...talk." She threw up some air quotes around the "talk" but Spencer was busy not paying attention to notice.

"Wait, what are you doing here? I just wanted a quiet days rest to think about shit." Spencer shut the door and walked over to the couch. She thought about sitting down, but she didn't want to seem too inviting. She really just wanted--needed to be alone right now.

Ashley took an apple off the counter and started eating it, "Spence, you hate being alone so I figured since meathead left we can hang out. Watch TV, shout JERRY JERRY JERRY! at the TV for a bit, or just you know hang out in your bed. Cuddle a bit." Ashley smiled at the last part, she couldn't imagine what it would be like to cuddle with Spencer. Yeah sure, they were best friends forever and slept in the same bed numerous times, but they never really cuddled. And Ashley wanted to feel that with someone she could honestly say she loved.

Spencer sighed, "Yeah sure, let's hang out like old times. Just promise me, if I ask you to go, you will? I never get a day off alone. I wanted to go walking around my apartment naked dancing to Queen." Spencer blushed a little bit at the face Ashley made. She knew exactly what image was going through her naughty head right now.

"Well..."

Spencer cut off Ashley, "Don't you dare even go there." Spencer couldn't help but let out a laugh. She did set herself up for that one, she had to let out a laugh.

Spencer walked into her bedroom, the one she shared with Aiden and sat on the bed. She knew Ashley would eventually follow her in there, so it gave her about a good minute alone. She need this one minute. This one minute just to think about what she was going to do with Ashley. She didn't want to stop kissing her, she knew she loved her as a best friend, but now things felt different. She wanted more, she felt alive. Like there was this person brewing inside of her, her whole life and it has finally escaped. That's it, she was just going to cut off the thinking and just let things be. It was always better when she went on impulse anyways. Plus, Ashley had already found her way to the bed.

"Spencer?" Ashley knocked on Spencer's head, "What is going on in that pretty little head of yours? You haven't said a word since I walked in here."

She smiled, "Ah just lots of things on my mind. Got lost in one of those thinking things I tend to do." Spencer shrugged it off, she definitely didn't want to talk about it. Her heart and mind were telling her two different things. Stay with Aiden. Go with Ashley. What's your mother going to think? Who cares, it's not her life. It was a constant game of pong in her head.

Ashley let out a laugh, "There you go again. I said something and there you are staring eyes glossed over at the wooden floor. Let's watch TV or something. Get you from stressing."

Spencer reluctantly laid down on her side of the bed and got comfortable. She was being cautious because she knew if she started kissing Ashley again, she probably wouldn't be able to stop. She started to feel the undying passion for lust build under her veins. So much so, she was getting goose bumps just thinking about it.

Ashley crawled over Spencer to get to the other side of the bed, and then she happily plopped her ass down on the bed. "Let's see what trash TV do I want to enjoy today?"

Ashley looked around for the controller and saw it on the nightstand next to Spencer. She smiled and decided to lean over Spencer and get as close as possible to her as she reached for the remote control. Spencer closed her eyes and took a waft in of Ashley's scent. It was intoxicating. She couldn't help but want more. She felt her arms moving, she couldn't stop them. She grabbed a hold of Ashley's face and made her look at her. They were soon making direct eye contact, and no one could miss the lust and passion that arose from that single look.

Not long before they knew it, they were embraced in a tender kiss. It wasn't rushed like the other night at the club, it was more of a gentle tender kiss. Something Spencer needed, to prove that this just wasn't another hook up to Ashley. She needed the tenderness of this kiss, the warmth. It was all there. It was enough for Spencer to relax and embrace this kiss even more. She took her hands and ran them through Ashley's curly locks. Spencer wanted it all now. She knew she was fully in this. Ashley backed away and looked at Spencer, no words were exchanged. Only a look of acknowledgement. Ashley slowly hopped on top of Spencer to straddle her waist and get into a much more suggestive position as they continued to exchange meaningful kisses.

They took a breath in between, but this time Ashley was hesitant at restarting the kiss. Her breath was heavy as she spoke, "I can't continue kissing you, until I know this isn't some weird fling between me and you. I can't just do this with you and walk away, Spence. I can't. There's got to be more."

Spencer smiled and looked up at Ashley. Any doubt that she had in her mind about Ashley was all washed away with those few words. Her smile didn't fade as she continued to look upon Ashley. "Now who's all worried and thinking over there? Shut up and kiss me." Spencer grabbed Ashley's face and pressed it up against her lips, but this time with more passion and a closer embrace.

Just as it was starting to get hot and heavy and serious, a familiar face walked in through the door. Since the two of them were so into, well each other, neither of them heard a single sound except the ones they were making. Aiden came stumbling through the bedroom door as he was shouting, "Hey I got the day off and --- holy mother shit, what the fuck is going on in here? Spencer?!" Aiden covered his mouth in shock and disappointment. Aiden threw the flowers he bought onto the floor and started to back away from the bedroom, because he was too shocked to even look away. "I fucking got the day off for you! I can't even--I'm out of here!" Aiden headed for the door and needed to get out of there.

Spencer shoved Ashley off from on top of her, "Aiden wait!"

Spencer was being jolted awake by someone shaking her body. She could feel the sweat all over her body from this nightmare of a dream. But after her disorientation wore off, she realized who was sitting next to her shaking her awake.

"Hey, we really need to talk."