I'll Defend You If You'll Defend Me?
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Summary: Becky Jackson is trying to survive high school the best that she can. While Santana Lopez is struggling to accept herself and be proud of the person she has become. Can these two people become friends and help each other succeed?
Pairings: Santana Lopez and Becky Jackson. Other pairings: Rachel Berry and Santana Lopez. Brittany Pierce and Santana Lopez. Quinn Fabray and Brittany Pierce. Also other characters have small parts.
It's important to note, that I do not have Down syndrome, but I am "different". I know what it feels like to feel unworthy at time and like no matter what I try to do it's useless.
I hope you enjoy!
~ Brittany ~
I looked down at my promise ring with fondness.
"Look it's in the shape of a heart…I love it," I said happily. I did a little happy dance in my seat. They all laughed a little.
Then I looked up at the woman who gave it to me and I smiled shyly at her. Quinn had her hands on my knee and she was looking up at me with an angelic expression on her beautiful face.
All of a sudden I remembered I had a surprise for her. I abruptly stood up and made her almost fall to the floor, but she caught herself.
"Geez!" she said as she almost fell.
"I'm sorry, baby," I said and extended my hands to her which she took in her own. I pulled her up and to the couch. She stood in front of the couch so I asked politely, "Sit!"
She sat down immediately. Then I sat next to her.
"So I have a surprise for you. It's not as extravagant as this, but it came from my heart," I said as I dug in my pocket and pulled the letter out.
She went to grab it, but I boldly asked, "Could I read it to you?"
"Sure, honey, let's read it upstairs?" she asked as she looked over at her parents who had amazement in their eyes. They were dumbfounded.
"Um, yeah, that's good," I said. We pulled each other up at the same time.
"Hey, Quinn!" her Dad yelled as we were heading to the staircase.
"Yes, Dad," she said a she turned around with a small smile on her face.
"Nicely done," he said and wrapped his arm around his wife. Mrs. F. just smiled at us. Then I felt Quinn pull me upstairs.
When we got to her room, she ushered me in. She closed the door and locked it.
She sat down on her bed and I sat down in her chair that had wheels on it so I moved closer to her. I timidly opened the letter up, cleared my throat, looked at her, and smiled. She was gazing at me so I thought I should start now before I chickened out. I think she thought I was nervous because she grabbed my free hand and held it tightly. With that as my motivation I began to read my letter to her.
"My Dearest Quinn, you are the love of my life. It's as simple as that. I can boldly say that because of how happy, special, wanted, and loved you make me feel on a daily basis. When we are apart I count the seconds until I get the chance to see you again. When you say my name my heart melts. When I see you walking to me, I get excited because I know you want to. When we hold hands I can feel your heart's warmth radiate through your skin. When I get to kiss your lips, I feel the electricity and longing with every kiss you give me. When you look into my eyes, you send shivers down my spine and I want to get lost in those beautiful hazel eyes. I see everything I need and want in them. You are the one for me, Quinn. You are, with your permission, mine forever. I am very happy that we had the beginning that we had. We took our time despite the rushed 'first' kiss. You give my life meaning and purpose. You always treat me like I'm smart and you never put me down for my shortcomings. I can't wait to experience our first time. I promise to make sweet, passionate love to you. So, Quinn if you'll have me, I'm yours for the rest of my life…" I said. Before I delivered the last line of my letter to her, I first felt my face and discovered that sometime during reading the letter I had begun to cry. I dropped the letter, but held onto Quinn's hand as I wiped the tears away. Then I looked up into her hazel eyes and simply said, "I love you!"
Her eyes never left me and I know this because tears were falling down her cheeks. She was about to wipe them away, but I grabbed her hand before it got there. Instead I wiped them away for her. Then I cupped her face in my hands and kissed her forehead lightly. Then I kissed her petite nose twice. Then my lips hovered close to hers for a few seconds. As I was closing the gap, I heard her whisper, "I love you, Brittany!"
That was all I needed to hear. I connected our lips together in an electrifying kiss. My tongue licked her lower lip and when she moaned my tongue slipped inside her mouth and found her tongue. They gently massaged each other. She put her hand on the back of my head and pulled us closer if that was possible. I moaned at this action and this seemed to excite her.
Without breaking the kiss, we both started to stand up. Once we were on our feet, I bent down and scooped Quinn into my arms and she threw her arm around me neck.
She broke the kiss and sensually said, "Take me to bed."
I was about to say something when her lips crashed against mine in a hungry and longing kiss. I tried very hard not to lose my strength with her in my arms. I took a big step, and then another and then another. In three giant steps I was at the foot of her bed. She broke the kiss again and said, "You're so strong. I am surprised you made it all the way to my bed without dropping me."
"Honestly, I'm about to lose my grip. Would you mind if I gently dropped you onto your bed," I asked hopeful.
"No, baby, not all," she said as she removed her arm from around my neck.
"You ready?" I asked just before I was about to let go.
"Yup," she replied and then I let go.
She fell from my arms with a squeal and a small bounce onto her bed. I immediately jumped on it and straddled her hips. I dipped my head down and gave her a passionate kiss. She pulled my shirt and lowered me on top of her. I gently stretched out on top of her. Then my hands went exploring her body. They traveled from her face after I massaged her cheeks with my bent knuckles. To her porcelain, swan like neck. I kissed and bit her there. Quinn squirmed and moaned, "Ah!" I did it again. And again she moaned.
"Britt, baby," she said apprehensively.
I looked up at her and asked, "Do you not want to do this now?" I tried very hard not to sound disappointed.
"I-I-I don't know," she said as she started to get emotionally. To prove to her that I wasn't upset, I rolled off of her and pulled her into my body.
"Quinn, look at me," I asked.
She looked at me and half smiled.
"Even though I have been waiting for this for a long time, it's up to you. I'm not going anywhere," I said.
"I love you, Brittany," she said and smiled brightly.
"I love you, too, Quinn," I responded and smiled.
"I want…you, Brittany…to make love to me," she declared with a mixture of nervousness, anticipation, and desire in her voice.
"Are you absolutely sure…you do know your parents are downstairs, right," I asked.
"Y-y-es," She said apprehensively.
"Honey, I don't know," I said. She sat up immediately when I said that.
"What don't you know," she asked with a weird tone of voice.
I couldn't tell if she was mad or not. "Quinn, are you mad at me," I asked meekly.
"Brittany, look at me," she asked so I did.
"I'm not mad at you. Not at all. On the contrary, I am proud of you," she said and kissed me on my forehead.
Suddenly there was a knock on the door. She got up to answer it. It was her Mom.
"Me and Dad are going out to a movie. You girls wanna come," she asked.
"Um, it's a school night, Mom, but thanks for the offer," she said.
"Thanks, Mrs. F. maybe another time," I shouted to her.
"Ok, don't stay up too late," her Mom said.
"Bye, have fun," Quinn said and then closed the door behind her.
As soon as it closed, I said, "Problem solved!"
She ran towards me and jumped into my arms which were extended out. She immediately wrapped her legs around my waist and I supported her by placing my arms under her butt. Our lips connected and we shared the most passionate kiss in the world. I became weak in the knees so I ran to her bed and fell onto it.
We both yelled out, but then laughed hysterically.
Afterwards she got on top of me.
"Are you ready," she asked with a sparkle in her eye.
"Yes, you have no idea," I said and raised my lips up to hers. I kissed her passionately and then things went from there.
We both frantically undressed ourselves until we got to our underwear. We tossed our clothes aside.
Then she said, "I want to finish undressing you and I want you to finish undressing me!"
I had a wonderful idea. "How about we do that at the same time," I suggested.
"Perfect!"
We both stood up since we sat down to remove our pants. I looked into her eyes and she looked into mine. I suddenly felt her fingers around the waistband of my panties. I giggled and yelled, "That tickles!"
"I'm sorry," she said and quickly removed her hands.
"Quinn, it's okay," I said as I grabbed her hands to put them back on my waistband.
Then I put mine on hers.
"Okay, on three…1...2…3!" we counted together.
With that we both removed our panties. As the fabric began to fall I couldn't help, but stare at Quinn's unadulterated beauty. Quinn was a Goddess sent from the Heavens to be with me for the rest of my life.
"You're gorgeous," I said with lust in my voice.
~ Quinn ~
As I looked at Brittany standing in front of me, nearly naked, I felt shivers travel up and down my spine. She was absolutely perfect in my eyes. From the top of her head to her toes nails, there wasn't a thing that I didn't love about her.
What's the best part? Her amazing heart.
"You're stunning…Britt, please take off my bra so you can see all of me," I said.
She walked up to me as close as two people can get without becoming one and brought her hands behind my back. She unclasped my bra and removed it in a slow motion. She relished every second she could. Once she held the piece of fabric in her hand she smiled like she was just given a pot of gold.
"This is…this is your bra," she stuttered and smiled sheepishly.
"Haha! Yes, it is, honey," I said, "Do you like it?"
"Quinn, I know that it's just a piece of material, but it has a deeper meaning to me," she said and held it up in the moonlight. When she held it up, her ring sparkled from the light that shined on it. "It protects your heart somewhat!"
I smiled before I asked, "Do you know why I like you holding it up like you are?"
"No why?" she asked.
"Because your ring is shining," I said and smiled.
"Yup, I've noticed that," she said and looked at it.
I brought my hands behind Britt's back and almost as quickly as she did, I unclasped her bra. I let it fall off of her, but caught it before it fell to the floor.
I looked at her.
Oh my God! This is really going to happen. She's gorgeous! I thought.
Brittany then picked me up off of my feet and expertly carried me to my bed. She placed me down onto my feet with my back facing the bed. I turned around to watch her as she unmade it. When she had unfolded the comforter and sheets, she extended her hand to me and I grabbed it. She pulled me over. When I got closer to her we stood face-to-face. We gazed into each other's eyes. After a few seconds I sat down and patted the spot next to me. She sat down and we continued to stare at each other.
"I can't believe this is going to happen…" she said.
"That's what I was thinking too. Wow!" I said and smiled.
She reached forward and gently placed her palm on my cheek. She caressed my cheek for a few minutes. When she stopped I grabbed her hand and kissed her palm sweetly.
Then she moved to kiss me. We connected our lips and as soon as we did, she pushed us down onto the mattress. We moved up on it so that both of our bodies were on it. Then she moved on top of me. Brittany smiled down at me and I smiled up at her. She lovingly brushed the strands of hair away from my face. Then I kissed her.
My hands massaged everything they could reach, from her face all the way down to her behind. I squeezed her behind and she giggled. I did it again thinking that she'd giggle again. To my surprise, her kiss intensified and my heart fluttered.
While I was doing that she had moved her hand to my breasts. She gently massaged both of them equally. My pink nipples perked up as soon as she made contact with them. She licked them both and I moaned loudly so she did that again. Then I felt her mouth on my breast. I arched my back higher so that she could have access to all of it. She massaged it and licked it. Then she did the same thing to my other breast. I was in euphoric Heaven!
After a few minutes, her mouth travelled lower, to my bellybutton. She licked it and smiled every time she removed her tongue and looked at me.
"That tickles," I said.
"Sorry," she said, but wasn't because she winked at me.
"Britt, it's time," I urged.
"For what?"
"To make me come," I urged again. She moved herself down on the bed and immediately began to lick my folds. I raised my hips with her every lick. Then she used her fingers as she opened me up. As soon as she did, she chastely kissed my clit.
I moaned.
"Oh, more," I whimpered.
She did it again. I moaned again.
"Put your tongue inside me," I urged gently. She obliged. Her tongue licked from top to bottom. She smiled and said, "You taste so sweet. I want more!"
With that she licked me again, but stopped at my clit. She then licked my clit several times.
"Brittany," I screamed out.
She did it again.
"Oh my God," I yelled as I squirmed around. She somehow steadied my hips. She licked my clit one more time.
"I'm coming," I yelled. She opened her mouth and drank everything I gave her. The warmth and moisture of her mouth added to my orgasm. I think I had a few orgasms in one time, if that's possible.
When she knew I was finished, she raised her head to look at me and said, "Yup…So sweet!"
I reached up and pulled her on top of me. As she soon as we made eye contact she kissed me. I tasted myself and her on her lips and tongue. It was such a perfect combination.
"Whew. That was amazing. I love you all the time, but right now…" I said.
She laughed and hugged me.
I found the strength to flip us over so I was on top. She was surprised, but smiled at me.
"Tell me what you want, Brittany," I asked.
"Quinn, I just want you," she said honestly.
"Well, that's good cuz you got me. Tell me what you want sexually, then," I asked.
"I just want to feel how much you love me in whatever way you wanna show me," she said with love.
"Ok!" I began to pepper kisses on her face. She chuckled and tried to playfully dodge my kisses. Then I moved to her neck. I licked, bit, and massage it with my mouth. I found her pulse point pretty easily. I gently bit down on it and her whole body shook so I did it again and elicited a scream from her.
"Did that hurt?" I asked sincerely.
~ Brittany ~
"God, no, do it again," I said. So Quinn bit down a little harder than before. And again my body reacted.
"Quinn!" I yelled passionately.
"Oh, Brittany," she said as I rolled us over and over on the mattress. We almost fell off, but I rolled us in the other direction before that could happen.
"I love you," she said when she was back on top. Then she moved down to my breasts. She immediately bit down in between my breasts. I automatically arched my back not in pain, but in pure ecstasy.
"Oh, oh, baby," I yelled.
She did it again.
"This is so much fun," she mumbled as her mouth found my already perked nipples. She bit one and pulled gently.
""Holy fuck," I screamed.
She let go of one nipple and did the same thing to the other one, which sent me farther on my way.
"Oh, Jesus," I mumbled incoherently.
"I know, this is amazing," she said and raised her head to kiss me passionately.
I broke the kiss and told, "Quinn, baby, I'm so close…"
With that she moved all the way down until she reached my pussy. She immediately put her mouth on it and her hot breath made me get closer and closer to my orgasm. I threw my legs onto her shoulders so she had more room to experience me.
To seal the deal, so to speak, she flicked her tongue inside me.
"Quinn, I love you," I said as I came hard. She swallowed and licked all of my wetness and juices up.
I took a few deep breaths after I had come. I thought I was having like a heart attack, with all of the heavy breathing I did.
She climbed up and rested her head on my chest.
"Britt, I can hear your heartbeat. Are you okay?" she asked me concerned.
"I'm in love. Considering what you just did to me, I'm entitled to have an irregular heartbeat for a few minutes," I said, laughed, and then kissed her forehead.
"Did I hurt you?" she asked.
"No, not at all," I replied.
"Oh, good," she said.
"What time is it?" I asked and raised my head to look at her clock that stood on her nightstand. It read, "11:11 pm".
"Are you tired," she asked.
"A little, are you?"
"Kinda," she said.
"We better try to fall asleep. We gotta get up for school tomorrow," I suggested.
Quinn raised her head and kissed me quickly. "Thank you for an amazing first time together," she said and sleepily smiled.
"I did good?" I asked, but already knew the answer.
"Yup yup," she said and kissed me again. I watched as her eyes began to flutter close.
"Quinn, don't close your eyes. I need to tell you something," I said and then sat up.
"What's going on?" she asked as she sat up as well. The sheets that I had covered us with had fallen. I looked at her perfect body and smiled.
"What cha smiling for?" she said playfully.
"Oh, nothing," I teased.
"Hey," she yelled and poked me, but smiled. "What did you wanna tell me?"
I was in a trance as I looked at her chest. She poked me and looked at me expectantly.
"Oh, yeah, sorry, right…Just so you know, I never did that with Finn," I revealed.
"Did what?" she asked and looked confused.
"What we just did!" I said and looked into her eyes.
"Ah…Oh…shit! Really?" she asked when she finally understood my meaning.
"Um, yea. Does that matter?"
"Let me just get this straight. You've never, ya know, before?" she asked.
"No," I said and hung my head down.
She noticed this and brought her hand under my chin to raise my head up so I would see her expression. She smiled, but then asked, "Brittany, are you nervous to tell me this?"
I shook my head up and down to say yes.
"Oh, honey, come here," she said as she opened her arms and I laid against her chest. She was lying on a pillow that was against the headboard.
"Are you mad that I didn't tell you that before we did anything? Would that have changed anything that happened between us tonight," I asked with fear in my voice.
"No, no, not at all," she said, "I hope it was special for you, though. There should have been flowers, candles, or something." Quinn looked upset that there wasn't anything like that.
"Quinnie, it's okay, really," I said as I pulled her closer to me.
"Just so you know this is my first time with a woman, but not in general. It was one time with some guy I met when my family was on vacation. Odd, I don't remember his name or where we met. It was over pretty much when it started. Britt, I could never feel about a guy the way I feel about you, you gotta know that! You have absolutely nothing to worry about, my dear," she said and smiled.
"You too. You have nothing to fear. You are my one and only," I said and kissed her forehead.
I held up my ring and admired it.
"Ok, another topic, what do you say when people start asking about this," I asked. She held my hand and we both looked at my ring.
"If it's your parents who are asking, we tell them the truth. Something like what I said to you before in front of my parents. Our close friends, the truth…everyone one, I honestly don't care what they think," she said.
"Me too. All that matters to me is that the prettiest girl in the universe gave me a promise ring," I said and hugged Quinn.
"I love you beyond words, Brittany Susan Pierce!"
"I love you, Quinn Lucy Fabray!"
In the next few minutes, I covered us up again and we fell asleep in each other's arms. We didn't wake up until the alarm sounded.