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IAG- Ok…what droning chapters…it's all too serious oh well…thanks for the multiply reviews they make me so happy plz send more Oh yeah and I better explain Kikai responds differently to different forms of precipitation, with water like a lake or something it shuts off her empathetic abilities, rain magnifies the ability…ect ect
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"All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night."
-Evanescence "All That I'm Living For"
Kikai walked slowly as she approached her father's room where he had called her; knocking gently she waited for a response.
"Enter."
Opening the sliding door she stepping in "Father you requested me?"
"Yes, Kikai your…er body guards from Konoha?"
Unnoticeably she stiffened "y-yes?"
"They seemed to need something important from you? They wanted to meet you at the teahouse in this town."
"Ah I see…so I shall go?"
"Yes you may…. and it's not important to go with any of the royal guards…"
"You mean I am too go alone?"
"Yes it that a problem?"
"No! No…I was just- um I'll go now…"
"Kikai?"
"Yes?"
"Make me proud and be a good girl."
After a rushed and puzzling exit she walked down the slightly dirty path "stupid kimono…" she muttered trying to move a little faster in the tight heavy kimono. First she saw Sasuke walking in an opposite direction. "Sasuke!" she called. Turning to her indifferently he raised an eyebrow.
"What?"
"Nothing…. just thought you'd be at the teahouse."
"Why?"
"Oh the others asked for me or something, come on walk with me."
Sighing he walked closer than they shared the same stride "……….."
Siiiiiilllllllllleeeeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnncccccccccccccccceeeeeeeeeeeeeee…
"………………………."
"………………………"
"………………………"
"You know something…" Kikai started directing the question more at the air than at him.
"?"
"We're both stupid and foolish.."
Giving her an ill-tempered look "what?" he demanded.
Ignoring the anger directed at her, she gave him a regretful look "we both went through something terrible…. multiply times even. So as we focus our life on something in particular…when we find something good we often push it away…. we never move on. So in the end we end up alone…"
"Like a play of my obsessions,
Make me understand the lesson,"
Sasuke snorted "if you have problems don't push them on other people."
"At least I can see my own wrongs…and don't create my own little world to live in" Kikai didn't have any bitterness in her tone nor anger just a straightforward regret. Giving him a light pat on the hand and a small smile she continued walking. Finally making it to the teahouse she approached the Konoha shinobi. "So what did you want?"
They all gave her puzzled looks "what do you mean?"
Gave them equally confused look "I mean what did you want from me?"
"Um Kikai…. you're mistaken you're the one that wanted to meet us here?"
Then Kikai felt a raindrop on her face looking up timidly rain started falling from the sky fast. And then she felt it…lies, regret, foreboding doom…and sadness. Eyes widening she whirled around and took off running to the inn.
"Kikai?"
"Kikai!"
Ignoring the calls at her she staggered and blundered along quickly in her now soaked kimono as water streamed down her body. Choking back sobs she burst into the inn not even taking off her shoes and dripping water all over the floors barely hearing the few "princess Kikai?" or "your highness?"
Dashing to her father's room she slammed the door open, then never even really thinking about it the sight of her father's dead and bloody body lying in the middle of the floor registered in her mind. "F-father…….…father………….daddy?"
"Guess I thought I'd have to change the world to make you see me,
To be the one.
I could have run forever"
Legs buckling under her she collapsed to the ground, building up what strength she could she unsteadily crawled to the side of her father's body. Clasping to it she started rocking back and forth, blood smearing her completely.
"Kika-"
"Oh my god…."
"Toumoku Monori!!"
"This wasn't just murder…it was a slaughter…"
She couldn't tell who was talking, she couldn't, wouldn't respond to the hands pulling at her from behind. The urgent talking and the harsh whispers. "Kikai come on," someone gently murmured in her ear, which was also ignored.
Kikai didn't feel anything…. she knew she was sobbing, she knew she was screaming for her father, she was losing all composure…she was clinging to her father's body…but she couldn't control anything…. she felt…. Distant and she thought she felt something deep inside crack…
Eventually someone in a stubborn manner pulled her up no matter how hard she fought him or her, grasping her arms unyielding as she tried to pull away. The person dragged her out of the room and as she calmed down but still distant handed her over to some maids who took her to her room.
"So I'll find myself,
So I won't be lost again."
Later
Kakashi paced the hallway silently and unnoticed as a few guards from Aboshi spared him a glare or a disdainful look. Ignoring them he turned the corner and ran into a tan haired guy getting a better look he saw it was the royal guard…. Haru. Giving Kakashi a at first startled look Haru regained his composure "you are Kakashi Hatake am I correct?"
"Yes, you are Haru of the royal guard?"
"Yeah…" Haru relaxed "actually I'm captain of the guard."
"Hm I see…"
"Care to join me for a moment?"
"Sure…"
After a few moments of an awkward silence Haru broke it first "I hate when things like this happen."
"They've happened before?"
"That's classified business."
"Sorry…."
Giving a quick look around Haru leaned closer to Kakashi "but between you and me, the Monori clan has murdered many times."
Trying not to sound to interested Kakashi feigned indifference "that so?"
"Yes" Haru gave another look around "first 20 years ago Lady Yuzuki died, then eight years later Lady Keimei was killed also in a accident…."
Flashback
Shooting up he pulled up his mask and kneeled down next to her "Kikai?"
Abruptly she clung to his jacket and looked at him with hysterical eyes…"where's Keimei? What did you do with her?!? Did you kill her too I want to see Keimei!!"
End Of Flashback
"How awful" Kakashi said no fake emotion in his voice.
Haru nodded in agreement "then there was a huge scandal with Lady Kikai a few years ago."
Yutori Kakashi instantly connected.
Haru gave another small nod to himself "I was looking over Toumoku Monori's room…. it's horrible there was blood everywhere…on the walls…I can't believe something like that would happen. His body is already being shipped back to Aboshi I assume Lady Kikai will be leaving soon as well. It's an awful strain on Lady Kikai, I'm a year younger so I've always been watching her…"
"After all I've seen.
Piecing every thought together"
"I'm amazed it took her this long to break, her heart has always been slightly torn, but I guess that's what happens when you lose your mother at four then later lose your t-"
"Captain Haru!" a royal guard yelled sprinting over.
Haru stood up from the where they were sitting "what is it?"
The guard took a few quick breaths of air "L-Lady Kikai isn't in her room, she's gone!"
Haru looked frightened "has anyone seen her?"
"No sir!"
Kakashi turned and left the building quickly she's wouldn't be very close to the building he thought as he was soon soaked by the rain.
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Staring up as rain splashed all over her face, it was like she was transparent she didn't feel like she could feel the rain. Nor could she fell the chill pulsing through her body, she could suddenly feel, hear emotions everywhere. Very strong ones as well there was worry, duty, surprise. None of them mattered and then she felt…fear and love…. then she knew he was coming and her fingers twitched a bit.
"I can feel the night beginning.
Separate me from the living."
"Kikai!"
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Finally spotting her, he called out her name as he approached her. Kikai was staring up directly at the dark sky as rain fell in gallons. "Kikai" he repeated softer, walking closer he hesitantly put a hand on her shoulder. She was completely soaked to the skin but not even shivering there was still blood all over her kimono she hadn't changed out of the one she found her father in.
"Why…." She choked out "why…does the rain hate me so much!"
"Kikai…"
"NO! Don't just 'Kikai' me! I'm loosing everyone I loved! I made a stupid mistake and I lost my father! The only family I have left!" she wobbled a bit "the…only family…" legs giving up again she collapsed against Kakashi. Slowly they both sank to the wet ground. "He sent me away on purpose," she sobbed into his shirt "just like my mother. I never told you about my mother" she whimpered.
"Lady Yuzuki?"
Jumping a little she nodded "Haru?"
"Yeah…."
"I was four…it was raining, she died because of our blood, she was the full blooded Monori…the Monori clan in a female heir. When you reach the full extent of your power…. unless unbelievably talented brain can't handle the strain and implodes" she spoke fast and in a hysterical tone. "My mother told me that if I never got all my talent I wouldn't die…then she went mad and her head imploded in front of me…"
"Find the words to make me better.
If I only knew how to pull myself apart."
"And there was Keimei…"
"Was she your sister?"
Kikai gave a small cry again "no my twin…...you know I use to be shy and quiet?"
Kakashi gave a sober chuckle.
There was a muffled sniff "yeah. Keimei was the stronger of us………when we were older she started training her talents on her own…. eventually I found out. Then someone told the council and we were forced into the Tri."
"The what?"
"In a private courtyard in the royal garden there is a 12 foot deep pool shaped as a triangle. When women of the court break the law they are forced into it with weights tied to their legs" now bitterness in her voice "Keimei drowned in it…."
Finally she started shaking, crying.
"I wasn't suppose to do this, I'm not suppose to be breaking down like this. I'm supposed to show no emotion…. I-I have smile I can't be weak never…they told me to live...That the least I could do is not cry…they want me to-"
"Shhh" Kakashi stated placing one of his hands over her eyes "it's okay…you don't have to smile now…you can cry all you want….I won't let anyone hurt you.."
"Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me."
IAG- I have so much more to fit into this chapter but I was like wtf? I have 7 pages already….ok this is so dramatic and serious it's getting annoying oh well plz review