Dean never even had seen it coming the perfect night with the perfect guy. Dean stood in line as the cold ocean air danced across his skin and he shivered even though he wore a smile ear to ear. This must have been the sixth time the two men had stood in line to ride the old wooden roller coaster. Roman hated the ride but tolerated it because he could tell Dean loved it. The fact that the auburn haired man squealed with delight every time they got on it was a dead giveaway that it was his favorite ride there even before he said so. The Samoan would have rather been standing in line for the pirate ship once again but he would do anything for Dean and this proved it.
"We can leave after we ride this one more time. I promise we can, I mean it this time." Dean smiled from ear to ear as he shivered while he waited in line. The smile on the face of the younger man showcased his dimples and both of them were proudly on display. The larger man couldn't help but smile at the sight. Dean looked like an excited ten year old at Christmas.
"Ok, I wanted to take you to dinner but I don't think you can eat anymore." Roman laughed while he watched Dean shove a huge wad of cotton candy into his mouth. The raven haired man wasn't sure how he didn't puke yet. This was his second bag of cotton candy on top of the three candy apples, a bag of popcorn and two funnel cakes he had eaten.
"I could eat." Dean shrugged as he turned to offer a bite of cotton candy to the grey eyed man who declined by simply shaking his head from side to side. "Maybe we can grab a burger and fries before we leave." Dean pointed to a stand that was over a ways from them.
"No I wanted something better than that." Roman tried to reason because he had a dinner at a semi decent restaurant planned for him and the other man. "We should go somewhere else" Roman wasn't going to give up to easily on the rest of his plans for the night.
"Fine we can go somewhere else." The younger man didn't even argue he didn't feel like it and he felt like he kind of owed the other man. He was nice enough to take him to the old amusement park Dean went to as a child. Which impressed the blue eyed man since he only made mention of the place once earlier today on their way here. "I hope we get the front car this time" Dean said as he stared at the ride making its way around the old wooden track once again.
"Yeah" Roman said as he rolled his eyes he really hated this damn ride but he rode it all night so far without protest. He couldn't deny Dean he was so happy and it was his favorite ride after all. Besides Roman was never the type of guy to say no when it made anyone that he liked happy.
The Samoan chased the blonde around the pool while they both splashed each other with water. They actually were having a lot of fun tonight and he hadn't seen Chris smile in awhile he was always so stressed out lately. They both laughed and the Raven haired man nearly lost his breath as the smaller guy grabbed him and kissed him passionately. Once the kiss was broken Roman spoke breathlessly "It's nice to see you happy." He meant it too he hated seeing the other man stressed out about business all the time.
"Yeah I feel pretty good right now." Chris smiled he eyed the other man his eyes grew dark. "I have a way you can make me feel even better though." His smile grew bigger and Roman couldn't help but think maybe Chris wanted to just fool around. Suddenly two men walked into the room walking straight over to the pool and standing right in front of the two men. Both of Jericho's henchmen smirked evilly at Roman and it sent chills down his spine. "If you really want to see me happy then you will let me watch both of these guys get balls deep in you." Roman was shocked as he looked back and forth between all three men. He couldn't believe what he heard but he soon found out he should have. That night was the beginning of it all and he found himself wishing he would have walked out then and never looked back.
When the Samoan pulled up to the restaurant he parked and stared straight ahead of him once he turned the car off. Dean reached over and placed his hand on his arm. "Are you okay?" He asked quietly Roman shook his head yes and forced a smile on to his face. The long haired man wasn't sure why he kept thinking about Chris lately. The sour memories of the relationship he had with the blonde always were with him but he managed to avoid them for the most part. Maybe the fact that he wanted to get more serious with Dean brought everything to light for him. He wanted to leave the bad memories in the past but regardless of what he did he couldn't help but escape them. "We can go back to the hotel and get room service if you want." The younger man offered because he wasn't so sure Roman wanted to be here.
"No let's go in here." The larger man smiled weakly trying to convince the other man it was okay. Dean agreed even though he would have felt better if it was just him and the other man. He opened his door and stepped out of the car almost in perfect unison with the other man and his instincts took over when he grabbed the other man's larger hand when they walked to the front door of the building.
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Seth was panicking and his hand shook while he held his phone in his hand he hit his contacts making the list appear he pressed Dean's name and listened to the phone ring several times before it went to voice mail. He was relived but he still wished that his friend would have picked up. He knew that the two of them were not on the best of terms right now but Chris was fucking crazy. He called back but this time he was directed to voice mail immediately.
"Answer your fucking phone Dean" he screamed into the phone once he heard the beep. Maybe he would have more luck with a text he thought clutching his phone in his hand he decided to send his friend a text.
Please fucking call me man…. It's important.
He hoped that Dean would see it and call him so he could tell him all about the psycho blonde but the auburn haired man never paid any attention to the calls or the text as he walked into the restaurant he was way too worried about Roman and why he seemed to be preoccupied with whatever was going on in his head.
The restaurant was packed so it must have been pretty good. The two men were lucky enough to get a table on the patio. It was nice out there and the view was worth sitting outside for even though it was a little chilly. They were right there by the ocean and even though it was dark out you could still see the water as the moonlight reflected across it. The older man just sat there staring at the menu while dark blue eyes that were full of worry stared at him. The raven haired man wasn't even aware Dean was staring at him though. In fact he wasn't aware of anything even though he looked straight ahead at the menu he couldn't have even told anyone one single thing that was on it. He was startled when the younger man moved his chair a little closer and set his hand on his knee.
"Are you ok?" He asked softly and Roman simply nodded his mouth was dry and he didn't think he could force the words out. "I don't think you're okay pretty boy you seem like you're preoccupied with something. Are you sure you don't want to leave?"
"No I'm okay." Roman tried to convince the smaller man with another fake smile that he forced onto his face.
"No you're not okay, why are you lying to me?" Dean was getting a little upset with the other man he didn't know why he wouldn't just be truthful with him. He seemed okay until they took the drive over here. Maybe he was having second thoughts about them and about being here on the Cape with him. "Can we just leave?" Dean asked when he withdrew his hand from the raven haired mans knee. "I would really like to go."
"No come on Dean let's just stay and eat." Roman tried to convince the younger man. He was now feeling like shit that he was allowing Chris to still consume so much space in his head. He didn't love the man and he didn't want him back but he did want his life back he did want to be normal again. He wanted the memories to stop he wanted the feeling of worthlessness that Chris left him with to disappear. Just then he head Dean's chair scrape against the floor and he looked up at him while he stood up.
"You can eat if you want I'm going to go down to the water and take a walk on the beach. You can find me when you're done." Dean then walked away before Roman even had the chance to stop him. Roman slammed his fist on the table causing a few of the patrons in the restaurant to look at him. He didn't care he threw a few bills on the table for the waitress even though they never did eat he felt bad about just getting up and leaving. He walked through the place as fast as he could but he didn't see Dean anywhere. He swung the door open fast stepping out into the parking lot he didn't see Dean anywhere.
"Dean" He yelled out the other man's name hoping for a response but he didn't get one. He panicked slightly when he made his way around the building where he finally spotted Dean who was slumped against the building with his hands holding his head. He made his way over to the other man and stood in front of him "Dean" he said quietly when he looked down at him.
"Can we just go home?" The younger man asked he really didn't want to be here anymore.
Is that what you really want?" Roman asked with a sigh as he continued to look down at the other man.
"Yeah I don't want to be here if you don't." Dean looked up at him his eyes were sparkling his face was wet and The Samoan's heart broke. He wanted this to be a good night and he ruined it all. Dean stood "if you didn't want to be with me and you lost interest you should have just told me. I don't know what I did but I knew it would happen I knew I would fuck it up somehow." Roman reached out and grabbed his arm but the other man pulled away from him.
"Don't fucking walk away, I fucked it up not you." He caught up to the younger man and grabbed him by the arm once again trying to pull him in closer even though the shaggy haired man protested and struggled to get away. Roman wrapped his arms around Dean trying to still him "Look at me now Dean" he demanded. Reluctantly sad blue eyes met his grey eyes "you didn't do anything this is my entire fault. I let Chris fuck it up. I let the past take up too much space in my head and I'm sorry." He pressed his lips gently against Dean's for a second before pulling away. "I'm sorry you should be in my head not him." Roman held the smaller man even more tightly "please don't be mad at me. I will make it all up to you."
"You don't have to make it up to me just promise me that you won't act like nothing is wrong when there is something wrong." The younger man leaned forward seeking out the other mans lips gently kissing him this time he laid several soft quick kisses against his lips before speaking. "Are you sure it wasn't something I did?"
"Of course I'm sure Dean don't blame yourself." Roman rubbed his strong hand up and down Dean's back trying to comfort him. "Let's go back to the hotel we can stop and grab some food somewhere and just lay on the couch together and watch some movies."
"Okay that sounds good." Dean agreed when he flashed a smile at the bigger man. "Maybe we can stop and pick up some snack s too."
"Yeah we can do that." Roman laughed while he wrapped a arm around Dean pulling him close "I wonder how you don't weigh three hundred pounds."
"I have a healthy appetite." Dean scoffed as he tried to look offended he gave up though and laughed instead. "I guess I'm just lucky I never gain weight. Actually its lucky for you to cause I am sure you don't want to end up with a fatty."
"I would love every pound of you." Roman said when he opened the car door for Dean which just smiled even wider now at the mention of the word love. He knew Roman didn't love him but he hoped one day he would. The younger man turned around before getting into the car and grabbed Roman by the arms pulling him in for a kiss. This time he made sure he lips slowly making sure to savor every moment he didn't care who looked he didn't care who seen them. He was with a man that he was sure anyone would be happy to be with and he didn't care who knew it. Not here where he didn't know anyone and if the people back home found out then so be it they would all just have to accept it or they could just stay out of his business.
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"I wish I knew you five years ago" Roman said while he looked down at the other man who was stretched out across the bed with his head resting on the bigger man's thigh. "My life would have been so different." He explained as his fingers worked their way through shaggy soft waves of hair.
"Are you still thinking about that asshole?" Dean questioned when Roman sighed immediately he knew the answer was yes. "I'll never do what he did to you." Dean tried to assure the other man.
"I know you won't." Roman said while he stared straight ahead at the TV. Him and Dean went and grabbed some subs from a local place down the street before coming back to the room and once they ate he ended up confessing to the other man just what had him all fucked up before. He saw the look of horror on the other man's face as he started to describe just how horrible Chris was to him. Dean never did say much but Roman could tell he was disgusted by everything he endured from the blonde.
"I mean it I'll never do what he did." Dean sat up and grabbed Roman's face in his hand forcing sad grey eyes to look at him. "Never" he meant it too most people always though Dean was a bad guy because he sold drugs but that wasn't true. Chris wasn't a bad guy because he sold drugs either he was a bad guy because he was just an asshole.
"I'm sorry that I come with all of this baggage Peaches." Roman looked away as he said it but Dean sat up and pulled the other man in for a hug as he straddled him sitting in his lap.
"I come with baggage too pretty boy" maybe they were meant to find one another Dean mussed to himself maybe they could begin to heal each other. Just ten Dean smiled "maybe we can carry each other's baggage or we can unpack for one another or something." He wasn't very good at the romance stuff or saying the right thing at the right time but he was going to try whenever he could.
"I like that "Roman smiled while he wrapped his arms around the smaller man pulling him closer on his lap. Dean leaned forward and pressed his forehead against Roman's looking deep into his eyes.
"You know I really thought you lost interest in me earlier." His voice was nearly a whisper while he spoke. "I thought I did something and this was all over before it even really began." He blushed slightly and he closed his eyes before he finished talking. "It really scared me for some reason and I hate being so needy but I am when it comes to you."
"Peaches you have nothing to worry about, I doubt I'll ever lose interest in you." The Samoan placed his lips quickly against Dean's as he pulled back he smiled. "The only thing you have managed to do is make me more interested in you every day. I really like you a lot more than I probably should."
"You could never like me enough." Dean smiled before leaning forward and laying a gentle kiss on the tip of Roman's nose. "I like you a lot too" he said pulling away still smiling brightly.
"I really like those dimples too." Roman announced in a whisper while running his index finger over one of them tracing his way down the auburn haired man's cheek to his chin. "In fact I like your whole face."
"Yeah what else do you like?" Dean asked as he laughed shyly.
"This." The long haired man said suddenly grabbing two hands full of Dean's luscious ass. The Samoan fell back on the bed and pulled Dean along with him never taking his hands off of Dean's bottom end. "Really I guess I just like everything." He smiled before Dean leaned forward and pressed his lips against his before he opened his mouth slightly ready to receive the larger man's tongue in fact he was silently begging for it and could help but moan out as his request was granted. He loved the way the older man tasted and he couldn't get enough of his slow passionate kisses. Both of their hands roamed freely across one another's body greedily exploring ever inch of one another. Roman broke the kiss while a soft moan escaped his lips but Dean immediately reclaimed his soft lips continuing the kiss.
"You're not going anywhere." Dean panted out breathlessly before pressing his lips back against the other mans before deepening the kiss once again. Roman didn't object in the slightest and kissed him back with just as much enthusiasm. The two men kissed for several moments until the younger man reluctantly broke the kiss he loved kissing the older man and he couldn't recall ever kissing anyone that was better than Roman. "I mean it pretty boy don't ever leave me" Dean said almost sadly.
"I'm not going anywhere baby boy, you're stuck with me." Roman promised while he pulled Dean closer placing his head on his broad chest. He placed a kiss to the top of the other man's head "you're all mine and I'm never letting go." He said while he wrapped his strong arms around the smaller man squeezing tightly making it impossible for Dean to even move "I think we were made for each other baby." The move was long since forgotten and was nothing more than back ground noise at this point. The two men laid there quietly just listening to each other breath simply content to be close to one another until they fell asleep.
I hope you all enjoyed the return of AST I am working hard to get this story back on track and didn't want to depress anyone with the return by getting to in depth with this chapter. I wanted to make it a little fluffy this time and if you enjoyed it at all thank my friend Alex who kept pushing for this story to come off of hiatus. Spoiler….. Chris makes his glorious return in the next chapter and messing it all up just like he did in NOC lol