Chapter Twenty One: Lorelai Knows Everything
"All those times I attacked you for getting her pregnant..."
"They went in one ear and out the other." Logan said softly
"I was so cruel to you."
"Every one's entitled to their opinion Lorelai. I just couldn't change yours of mine without telling you the truth. Which we didn't want to do."
Lorelai looked at Logan. "Why not?"
"We weren't sure how Luke would take us keeping something this life altering from Jess." Logan answered then turned his gaze back to Rory.
"Excuse me." Lorelai said. Logan didn't acknowledge her or he simply didn't hear her, she wasn't sure which. She turned around and walked out of the room. She turned the corner and collided with Luke.
He looked at her and saw tears in her eyes. "Lore?"
"I was so wrong. I did everything wrong."
"What were you wrong about Lorelai?" Luke asked confused
"Logan. I was wrong about Logan." She said walking back into the waiting room ending all discussions. She looked up and noticed that Christopher was standing in the middle of the room pacing.
"Lore! How is she?"
"She's fine Chris. We're just waiting on her to wake up."
Chris was about to ask if he could see her when Honor and Josh walked in. Lorelai looked at her confused for a moment but recovered when Finn spoke. "Honor hey." Finn said standing up
"Where's my brother?" she asked
Lorelai looked at her. "Come on. I'll take you to him. Chris you can come with me. You can see Rory."
Chris Honor and Lorelai walked out of the room leaving Josh and everyone else behind. Josh turned and faced Finn. "Hey Finn." he said before sitting down and waiting like everyone else.
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Logan heard the door open again and looked up this time. He saw a man that he knew was Rory's father and his sister. "Mr. Hayden." Logan said shaking his hand.
"How's my daughter?"
"No change." Logan said. "I'll let you sit with her." he added
"Thank you." Chris said
Logan nodded and brushed a kiss over Rory's hand before leaving with Honor.
Chris looked at his daughter. "Hey kiddo it's me your dad. I'm here. Everyone's waiting on you to wake up."
Rory's eyes remained shut and Chris sighed.
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Logan was barely out the door before his arms were wrapped around Honor. "I almost lost her Honor. She could have died." he sobbed into her shoulder
Honor rubbed his back and whispered, "Ssh... it's ok... she's not dead... she didn't die... she's going to be fine..."
"The baby... he's gone... I love him so much..."
"I know. I know." she said still rubbing his back
They sat that way for ten minutes before Honor broke the embrace. "Why don't we go and sit down with everyone else. I think Finn's worried about you."
Logan sighed. "Ok." he said
They walked back into the waiting room Logan's eyes immediately locking with Jess. Lorelai noticed and nudged Luke.
"What?" Luke asked
"You need to get him out of here." she whispered
"Who?"
"Jess. You need to get him out of here." she said looking at Logan who was clenching his fists and taking deep breaths. "Now." she added
Luke looked over at Logan and nodded. "Let's go Jess." he said gaining everyone's attention
"Go where?" Jess asked
"I haven't thought that far ahead. Come on." he said grabbing Jess by the shirt and dragging him out of the room.
At Honor's confused look Finn whispered so Logan wouldn't hear. "He was driving the car. Logan blames him. Actually everyone blames him."
Honor nodded and sat down next to Josh. "Logan why don't you sit down."
"That's ok, I'd rather stand." He responded
Emily stood up. "I think we're going to walk down to the cafeteria. Does anyone want anything?"
Finn, Stephanie, Colin, Honor and Josh all shook their heads. "Lorelai?"
"Coffee, strong and black please."
"Ok. Logan?"
"I'm fine."
"Have you ate or drank anything since lunch today son?" Richard asked
"No, but I'm fine." Logan responded
"Get him a coffee. He'll drink it." Lorelai told Richard
Emily and Richard nodded and walked out of the room. The entire room was silent for a full five minutes. "Logan..." Colin said
"What?"
"You ok?"
"I just lost my son Colin."
"Right stupid question." Colin said
Logan heard footsteps and looked up to see his father standing in the doorway. "I'm not sure if there was a more clear way to say that I didn't want any of you here other than I don't want you here. What are you doing here?" Logan said anger pouring from his voice
"Logan..." Mitchum started
"Don't. You never supported me and Rory together. You never supported us having a child and now the baby's gone and you want to be all sympathetic!" Logan yelled. "I need air. Lorelai you'll come and get me if there's any change?"
"Of course." Lorelai said watching Logan walk out.
Honor turned on Mitchum. "Can I talk to you outside?"
"Of course." Mitchum said following her out of the room
"Why are you here?"
"I thought Logan could use some family support."
"I was here." Honor said flatly
"I'm also here to pay Ms. Gilmore's medical bill." Mitchum stated
"The Gilmore would have paid that. They don't need your money."
"Honor I'm trying to fix the relationship between my son and I. I hardly think I need your permission to do so." he said and then turned in the direction Logan had gone .
He found Logan standing by the exit. "Logan?"
"I can't bring myself to walk out of this door. I've been here forever and I'm only left the hospital once and that was to call Finn."
"I'm sorry this happened Logan." Mitchum said
"Forgive me if I don't believe you." he said coldly
"Logan..."
"I believe your words were... Logan this is unacceptable... and Logan you're ruining you life and this family's reputation."
"I'm sorry. You have to understand that I was shocked. You come home and you tell us your seriously dating a girl we never knew about and that you're going to be a father. That's a lot to take in at one time."
"It doesn't matter now. The baby is gone." Logan said softly
"Logan..." he said his voice full of sorrow and concern
"DON'T! Don't talk to me like that! Don't act like all of a sudden you care!"
"I do care Logan. I feel awful for you. Seeing you like this breaks my heart son. No one deserves to lose a child."
"A son. I lost a son." Mitchum didn't say a word. "What Dad, no remark about me losing the next Huntzberger heir after me?" Logan said his voice breaking slightly. When Mitchum remained silent still Logan snapped. "Don't stand there like that... Looking at me like that... Fight with me damn it... Tell me I'm a screw up and that I've disgraced this family..." Logan choked out sobbing
Mitchum simply walked over to Logan and pulled him into his arms. Logan was hesitant at first but then wrapped his arms around his father and started sobbing again. "I lost him Dad. I had him this morning and now he's gone. She's going to be so devastated. I loved him so much and now he's gone. I'll never get to hold him. He'll never take his first breath..."Mitchum simply held his son tight and let him cry, never saying a word.
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Christopher looked back at his daughter while listening to faint arguing in the hallway. He wasn't sure who was arguing and he didn't really care either. "Ok Lorelai Leigh Gilmore the third, this is your father and I am ordering you to wake up." Rory remained silent and Christopher sat there feeling dejected. He heard a faint rapping on the door and opened it coming face to face with Luke. He stepped aside and let Luke in.
"I just wanted to sit with her for a second before I go back out to Lorelai. I hope that's ok." Luke said to Christopher
Chris nodded. "It's fine. I'll go check on Lorelai or something." Chris said walking out of the door.
Luke turned back to Rory and his eyes filled with tears. He sat down in the chair he assumed everyone else had been sitting in and took her hand in his. "Hey Ror. It's me Luke. Everyone is really worried about you. We're all waiting for you to wake up. Everyone's here. Me, your mom, your dad, Logan, Richard and Emily, your friends from Yale, Paris and I think I even saw Logan's dad out there. I remembered you telling me that Logan and his dad don't get along so I found it a little weird that when I passed them Logan was holding onto him for dear life but who knows..." he reached out and brushed a strand of hair from her forehead. "I figured it out Ror. I know what you did. I know that Jess is the baby's father and that Logan agreed to say he was. I know you thought I'd be mad at you for trying to keep Jess out of his life, but I'm not. I understand what you did and why you did it. So you can wake up now Ror. No one's mad at you and no one blames you for anything." He told her softly. "I can't lose another person in a hospital Rory. The doctors keep saying that you should be waking up but your not and I don't understand why. I refuse to let you leave all of us. Please wake up..." Luke pleaded laying his head in this hands trying to stop the tears from falling.
Rory's eyes fluttered open and she turned her head to see who was sitting next to her. "Luke?" she whispered
Luke's head shot up and his eyes connected with hers. "You're awake." Luke said reaching over and hitting the nurse's call button.
"Where am I?" she asked
"The hospital. You and Jess were..."
"In a car accident. I remember." she interrupted
The door opened and a doctor walked in. "I see Ms. Gilmore has decided to rejoin us. How are you feeling Rory?"
"A little woozy actually?" she said softly
"Any pain?"
"A little."
"Any particular areas?"
"No... it's kind of one of those hurt all over pains." she explained
The doctor smiled. "Well that's to be expected. I'm going to examine you now." he said then turned to Luke and added, "Would you mind stepping outside."
"No not at all. I'll just go tell everyone she's awake." Luke said walking out the door.
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Luke walked back into the waiting room. He looked at Lorelai and smiled. "You know a smile is inappropriate at times like these."
"She's awake." Luke said
Lorelai jumped up out of her seat and hugged him. "She's awake?"
"Yeah. The doctor's in there with her now. He's going to come and get us when he's done examining her." Luke said happily
"I'll go get Logan." Finn said walking out of the room
Finn walked over to where Mitchum and Logan were standing surprised at seeing Logan wrapped into a hug with Mitchum. Finn cleared his throat and Logan pulled away to look at the distraction. When he saw Finn's face he said, "What?"
"She's awake mate." Finn said happily
Logan smiled and wiped tears of joy from his face. Then he took off in the direction of Rory's room. He approached the door as the doctor was opening it.
"Are you Logan?" the doctor asked him
"Yes."
"She's asking for you."
"She's ok right?"
"She's fine. She'll need to stay here overnight, but she should be able to leave tomorrow afternoon or evening."
"Thank you." Logan said before pushing in the door and walking into Rory's room.
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The doctor walked in and saw everyone who had previously been so sad hugging and smiling happily. "Good to see you all so lively." he said smiling
"How is my granddaughter?" Emily asked
"She's fine. I want to keep her overnight but I see no reason as to why she can't be released sometime tomorrow."
"Can I see her?" Lorelai asked
"One at a time. I don't want to tire her out. She lost a lot of blood. Logan is in with her now. She was asking for him."
Lorelai looked dejected. "Thank you doctor." When the doctor walked out she looked back at Luke. "I can't believe she asked for him before me."
Luke rubbed her back. "It doesn't matter who she asked for first. The point is she's awake."
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Logan looked at her and smiled. His eyes filled once again with happy tears as he walked over to her bed and kissed her on the lips. He pulled back and sat down next to her on the bed. "I thought I had lost you."
"Not going anywhere Huntzberger."
"I love you so much Rory."
"I love you too Logan." she told him. She then noticed his eyes cast downwards and sighed. "You don't have to tell me."
"What?" Logan asked
"About the baby. I already know."
"How? Did the doctor..."
"No. He didn't tell me. But I can feel it. I feel empty. I can't feel him anymore."
Tears filled his eyes. "I'm so sorry Rory... the doctors they told me that they couldn't save both of you..."
"And you told them to focus on me?" Rory asked
"Yeah. I couldn't lose you. I know it was selfish but I just kept thinking. If I tell them to save her than at least she can have more children some day, but if they didn't save you..."
"Logan you made the right decision. It's the same thing that I would have done." and then as an afterthought she added, "Is Jess OK?"
"Jess is fine. He has a broken arm that's it. Stupid bastard." Logan muttered
Rory nodded. "Well Jess has always been lucky when it comes to crashing cars with me in it. He never gets hurt. The last time he did it he broke my arm."
Logan made a mental note to ask what had happened with Jess later and smiled at her. "I have something to tell you that you might not like."
"What's that?"
"Lorelai knows everything."
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