Her parents had come to the centre a few days ago- they asked for us to attend her funeral.
It was planned just how she wanted it.
It was an open casket funeral…She was wearing her green coat and her blue hat… Just how she wanted it.
Equius stood over her, speaking quietly as the tears dripped off of his cheeks.
"Hey Nep…I never thought I'd have to do this…I guess I could start with saying I miss you. And I always will… OR how you're always going to be my moirall…and that I love you…but…mostly I think I'll say I'm sorry I couldn't save you. And that I'm sorry I wasn't there to help…I'm sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me…I guess…this is goodbye Nepeta… I hope you have fun in cat heaven…just like you wanted…remember? …I do…" He couldn't stand there anymore. He broke down sobbing. Me and Gamzee helped him away as Terezi stepped up to her casket, glasses resting on top of her head now.
"I'm sorry Nepeta. I don't know what I'm supposed to say…I don't want to be doing this. I haven't smiled since you left and Equius is a mess and please come back… we need you here… I should've tried to get out. I should've tried to save you… I'm so sorry…"
She ran out of the room crying, her hand covering her sobs.
Gamzee quickly stepped up to the casket, holding tight onto my hand. He did that a lot now…
"I tried so hard…I really did…" He couldn't speak… He was always afraid now. Soft spoken and scared about every little thing. Like he would destroy everything…
I spoke up, feeling the tears rising.
"I knew this would happen. It's going to happen to all of us but I really hoped you wouldn't be the first. You're just…the innocent one…and I wish I could take your place. A soft spoken sweetheart that just wanted to protect her friends even if she knew she couldn't and we failed you… we failed to do the same for you. I failed you… and…no. I'm not sorry… I'm disappointed. I'm disappointed in myself for not trying to help. I know you'll be fine. You're going to a much better place than here- at least that's what we can hope. Send us a postcard, will you? Let us know you're okay. I'm gonna miss you NepNep…But I know you'll be just fine…"
The room was filled with tears, some more than others. Terezi had come back inside and joined Equius in a silent sob in their seats. Me and Gamzee sat too.
I stared blankly at the casket sitting in front of us. I couldn't cry anymore.
We'll be fine.
Just fine.