Sorry it's taken so long I was caught up with exams and was having painful writers block so sorry if this isn't the best but I figured you were all due for a new chapter(:
Natalia and Ryan lay in bed just snuggling. It was something that they had not done in a while.
"Talia," Ryan said stroking her soft hair, "do you want to try to have another baby?"
"You really want a baby don't you?" Natalia smiled.
"It's safe to say that," he replied, returning the smile.
"So when do you want to get started," she said running her hand up his chest, changing the mood completely.
Natalia wrapped her leg around the back of Ryan's thighs and pulled herself to him so that they were pressed together tightly.
"Oh, uh… anytime is good," Ryan said nervously as he very quickly became turned on.
"I was hoping you would say that," Natalia replied silkily then rolled them both 90 degrees so that Ryan was on his back before she quickly devoured his lips.
Much time later, Natalia and Ryan lay on their backs next to each other panting heavily.
"That was amazing!" Natalia said happily. "Why haven't we done that more often?"
"Well, it might have something to with the fact that we keep getting almost killed," Ryan said cheekily.
"I knew there was a good explanation for us not doing this every day," Natalia said, returning the cheek.
Natalia and Ryan continued having sex nearly every day except when they were so worn out from work that they had just gone to bed. They had sex for four important reasons; one: they loved each other, two: It was fun, three: It felt good, and four: they wanted so badly to have a baby.
But when Natalia got her period two weeks later she was heartbroken. Ryan had found her crying on their bed.
"Talia, what's wrong?" he asked and sat down on the bed next to her.
"I'm not pregnant," she replied with a sniffle.
Ryan sighed heavily. He was also very upset by the news.
"It's only been two weeks," he said. "We'll just have to give it time and keep trying."
This answer did not satisfy Natalia.
"Nick can rape me, and the very first time he gets me pregnant… But when I want to get pregnant… I can't," she sobbed.
"Talia, we are going to keep trying and we are going to have a baby," Ryan said, "but you can't give up after only two weeks."
"I know… It's just that I really want to have a baby," she said. "And now I've found a man that I love who actually wants kids."
"I love you Talia, and we're not going to give up until you're pregnant," Ryan said with a smile. "Now I am going to go make us dinner." Ryan kissed Natalia lightly on the lips and headed down to the kitchen.
Nearly a month later of almost daily sex, it was two days before Natalia's period was scheduled to start, and she had bought a home pregnancy test. She was pacing nervously and waiting for the results when Ryan came in.
"Did you take it?" he asked, referring to the pregnancy test.
"No… that's why I'm waiting in the bathroom!" she said sarcastically, and clearly angry.
Ryan was taken aback. Natalia never snapped at him, but she seemed to realize what she'd said.
"I'm sorry Ryan… It's just this stupid test…"
Natalia checked her watch and saw that it was time. She took a deep breath and looked at the stick.
"Not pregnant" was what the test read.
Natalia quickly and angrily threw the test into the trash as tears welled up in her eyes. Ryan quickly hugged her and gave her support.
"I just want a baby," she cried.
"I know Talia… I know," he said softly and rubbed her back.
Ryan could see Natalia slipping back into depression. She, once again, had nearly stopped eating. She only had showers when she had to go to the lab, and instead of sleeping too much, she was hardly sleeping at all. Ryan would wake up because Natalia was tossing and turning and trying to get to sleep. And on top of that, plans of a wedding seemed almost nonexistent because of it all.
Calleigh had seen Natalia's behavior, and one day she decided to invite her to lunch. She would not take "no" for an answer either.
"Hey Nat," Calleigh said happily in her southern voice with a smile on her face, "do you want to get some lunch?"
"No thanks Cal," she replied and went back to her work.
Calleigh groaned and walked right over to Natalia. She snatched up the papers Natalia had.
"Hey!" she cried. "Give me those back! I have to get file them!"
"They can wait until after lunch," Calleigh said.
Natalia sighed angrily, "but I have to get my purse, an-"
"No you don't, because I'm buying," Calleigh said, half tempted to kick the stool from underneath Natalia so that she was forced to stand.
Natalia sighed out of annoyance but complied with the request and she stood up before removing her lab coat and following Calleigh to the car.
At lunch, Natalia picked idly at her salad. She just wasn't in the mood to eat and she could feel Calleigh's eyes observing her from across the table.
"What's going on?" Calleigh asked, putting down her fork; finally sick of watching Natalia play with and stare at her food. Natalia had changed so much in the past few months and would never let anyone talk to her.
She continued to ignore Calleigh which caused her to grab Natalia's fork from her hand.
"Answer me Natalia."
"Ryan and I, we're trying to have a baby," she replied dully, acting as if though it was nothing when it meant almost the world to her.
"That's great," Calleigh smiled happily.
"No, to be honest, it's not," was the saddened reply from Natalia's mouth.
Calleigh gave a look of inquiry.
"I can't seem to get pregnant. For a while, we tried every day… But still absolutely nothing," Natalia said looking distantly at her uneaten salad.
Calleigh looked at her sadly, finally coming to an understanding of why Natalia was depressed. "I'm sorry," she said not quite know what to say. "Have you considered adoption?"
"Adoption? Adoption?" Natalia said with frustration and anger. "I want to have a child with Ryan," she said sternly. "When I was pregnant all I could do was wish that it was Ryan's and not Nick's.
Natalia pulled her money from her purse and tossed it onto the table. "I'm going to go wait in the Hummer. Take as long as you want."
So how was it?