Chapter Twenty One
The Wedding was definitely amazing. The day after I went and got all of the pictures printed out from the cameras. Brian went out and bought a big picture frame and the wedding photo of Dad and Margaret's fit just right. We decided to put it in there room above their fire place.
Right now I was currently home alone sitting in my room bored out of my mind. Brian was over a friends right now having as much fun as possible before he left for college. He was leaving next week and I was sure that I would be an emotional wreck once he was gone. I knew I would be and I was sure everyone else knew that too. Sophie was at a friends house for the night so it was just me. In three days Dad and Margaret would be back from their honeymoon.
I was listening to one of my favorite songs right now Payphone by Maroon 5 when my phone started ringing to it. Yup. I changed my ring tone to Payphone. I was so obsessed with the song.
"Hello?" I asked. I had answered the phone without even looking to see who had called.
"Kim," someone slurred on the other line. I wasn't sure who it was. There was something in the voice but I couldn't pinpoint who it was exactly because they slurred my name.
"Who is this?" I wondered frowning.
"It's...it's...your...boyfriend." The person on the other end slurred. Jared? What the fuck?! Couldn't be him right. I hoped that this was a complete utter joke.
"Jared?" I whispered lightly hoping that he wasn't drunk. Oh great I hope he wasn't driving either. That would just be a disaster.
"Yesh," he slurred. I knew he meant to say 'yes' so I just rolled my eyes.
"Are you drunk?" I growled into the phone. He laughed, "Jared!" I said getting a bit angrier than I already was. Jared just kept laughing on the other line. "JARED CAMERON YOU ANSWER ME!" I yelled and growled into the phone.
"Nope," he said popping the P. Well he sure did sound drunk.
"Well you sound pretty drunk to me," I told him seriously. This was not even close to funny. At least in my opinion it wasn't.
"KIMMY," he said loudly causing me to jump away from the phone slightly.
"Where are you?" if he was driving I didn't want him doing it while he was drunk.
"Port Angeles with the guys," he told me. I sighed. I knew if I got busted Dad would most likely ground me for a century. But this was important.
"Don't move Jared I'm coming to get you." I said and hung up before even thinking to ask where in Port Angeles. Crap. Whatever. I would just have to make due.
I slipped on a fair of flats quickly before grabbing my keys and cell phone leaving the house. I had to go get him. I don't know but I just wanted to be there for him. It was hard to explain exactly how I was feeling right now but I needed to see him, to make sure he was okay. I rushed to Port Angeles and pulled over after a bit. I called Jared and he didn't answer. I sighed and called again.
Thankfully he answered, "Hello?" He slurred even worse than before because it sounded like he-lo. I rolled my eyes. I hoped he wouldn't have anything to drink.
"Where are you?" I asked impatiently. I just wanted to go get him and take him home. I couldn't ignore the part of me that wanted to just take him home with me and make sure he was okay.
"At..te...the...bar," he slurred in the phone and I sighed.
"Alright come outside so I can come and get you," I said hoping I would see him. I knew it was very unlikely but I could only hope that would happen. I parked my car in a parking lot and got out. Jared had hung up on me.
I saw a long line for a club and walked there hopefully he would come out. I had never been here before so I wasn't really sure. I bit my lip. Please come out Jared so I can take you home or take you to my house and I will fucking kill you later.
I stood there looking around and then walked down a little bit. I was about to walk back to my car about ten minutes of nothing but then I saw a figure. I could only hope that it was Jared's and thankfully it was his. I took in a deep sigh of relief.
"Thank god," I mumbled before a drunk Jared appeared.
"Hey...Kim," he said and it was obvious to me that he couldn't really stand that straight.
I wrapped my arms around his waist and supported him all the way to my car not even responding or saying hello. I was too pissed off for that.
I got him into into the front seat before getting in the drivers seat. I needed to just calm down a bit or else I was going to end up punching him in the face and as much as he did deserve it I didn't want to hit him.
"What the fuck were you thinking Jared?" I hissed at him.
"Kim," he slurred and I glared at him. I really didn't want to here what he had to say right now.
"What?!" I ended up growling.
"Don't...don't...be...mad," Jared said and I couldn't help but scoff.
"How can I not be mad Jared?! I mean really! Who were you here with?!" I asked well more like snapped at him.
"The boys...from...Lacrosse. We...we...took...a..cab and I...I...told them I was leaving early," he said sitting back in my chair. I just nodded and continued my way home.
"Where are you parents?" I wondered. So far it seemed like he was telling the truth.
"They went out on a thing and won't be back for two days. Somewhere in New York City. I didn't want to go," Jared said. He wasn't slurring anymore so I guess that was a start.
I just nodded to myself, "Everyone's gone. Do you want to come to my house?" I asked. A part of me hoped he said yes and a part of me hoped we didn't get caught but nothing was going to happen so it didn't really matter that much to me. I just didn't want him getting hurt. I wanted to be there and be able to make sure that he was alright.
"Sure," he said slurring a bit. Oh great, here we go again. I got home and just wanted to get him in the house as soon as possible.
I helped him inside and helped him upstairs to my room. "I'll be right back," I told Jared before running over to Brian's room and getting a T-shirt and pair of shorts for Jared to change into. I don't think Brian would really notice.
"Come on," I helped him up and into my bathroom. "You can change into these for the night." I didn't even wait for a response I just left him too it. He came out about five minutes later and I helped him into my room. I took his other cloths and put them in a bag before sitting it on the floor.
I helped him into my bed, "I'll be right back," I told him going downstairs and locking up. I grabbed a bottle of water for him. Going back upstairs I sighed. I hoped he would be okay.
I handed Jared the bottle of water and he took it taking a sip. "Thanks Kimmy," he said and I nodded.
I got in next to him and he put his head into my lap.
"Why did you do it Jared?" I wondered.
He sighed slightly, "I don't know," he slurred a bit not really like before. I could only hope that he would fall asleep soon. "For fun."
I sighed heavily before rubbing my temples. I just didn't understand. I mean I had just spoke with him this Morning over texting and...I just don't understand.
"How are you feeling?" I wondered.
"I have a headache but I'm still pretty drunk," he smiled up at me. I smiled back slightly. I couldn't help wonder if he would remember any of this tomorrow. I knew he was still drunk even though he was getting a little better, well not really. I didn't know how to explain it.
He seemed to be telling the truth right now. We were talking for awhile and he was slurring a lot still but that was okay. He yawned a few times but something came to my mind. Since it seemed he was being honest I had something to ask him. Maybe since he was drunk he would be honest. I wasn't sure.
"Jared," I said in barley a whisper but loud enough so he could hear me.
"Yeah," he slurred lightly. He was tired.
"Why...," I found myself a bit scared to actually ask the question. Wasn't even that. I was scared of the answer he would give me. "Why didn't you go to prom with me?"
"Because your Kim." Because I'm Kim. I thought he would say something worse but all in all it still hurt.
"Would I embarrass you?" I wondered.
"Yes," he breathed before his voice fading. I knew he was going to be out like a light soon. Sleep was taking him over. But before he was completely asked I wanted to ask one last question.
"Do you love me?" I wondered. I looked at his face to see his eyelids closed and to see him breathing steady. He was already asleep. I sighed and turned off my light. This had been one hell of a day but there was always the Morning to come.
The next Morning when I woke up it was to the Sun. This summer La Push had experienced some nice weather I would admit. I lay there and smiled thinking about it. Summer was almost over and that meant two things. One I would be returning to school soon and two Brian would be off to College soon. I knew that it would come but it was coming faster than I would like it too.
I was just laying there thinking until I felt someone shift. I looked down at Jared and ran one of my hands through his head. I sighed lightly. No doubt that he would be waking up pretty soon. I couldn't help but wonder if he would remember anything that happened last night. I would and I had a feeling that it would affect our future as a couple.
Jared woke up a couple of minutes later yawning and stretching. I put on a fake smile and Jared looked up at me. He looked shocked with a mixture of confusion. "What am I doing here?" He asked quickly and carefully.
"Well you decided to get drunk last night..." I trailed off not looking at him exactly. He sat up.
"Crap! I'm sorry Kim. I don't really remember much but what happened last night?!" He asked looking kind of nervous.
"You called me and I went to go get you. Don't worry," I sighed. "No one saw me," no one that actually knew us like his friends or anything. I doubt his friends really knew me anyways.
"Oh, okay. Did I say anything that I should apologize for or something?" He wondered.
I gave him a fake smile, "Nope."
"Oh, okay. So um...I guess I should get out of here before your Dad or brother comes in here," he said to me nervously.
"No one is here but us too. Margaret and Dad are still on their honeymoon remember. And Brian was at a friends last night same as Sophie. I don't have to get her until around two o' clock."
"Oh, okay." He said sounding unsure of himself. I just lay there.
"I can take you home if you want," I told him. In a way I knew that was what he had wanted.
"Uh, okay. Thanks." He said and I nodded getting up. "Yeah I just have to change," I grabbed some cloths from my closet before going to the bathroom and taking a fifteen minute shower. I needed to think for a bit. Once I was done I changed into a cheetah print shirt, black leggings and matching boots to go. I let my hair out and let it flow down my shoulders.
"Ready?" I asked Jared and he nodded. "Um, yeah." He was looking around my room studying it. For a moment it seemed to me like he wanted to remember it or something. Like he was saving a image of it in his head.
We left in peace, "Can you drop me off right there," Jared asked pointing to a block. His house was just down the road. I pulled over and looked at him.
"I just want to get some fresh air but thanks. I will talk to you later," he said in a hurry kissing me cheek before getting out of my car and walking down the road to his house. I sighed and then drove to Forks. I went to a bagel shop and sat down enjoying a bagel with cream cheese and hot chocolate. It burned my lips when I first went to drink it but after letting it cool a bit it was fine.
I stayed out the whole day until it was time to pick up Sophie. We went out for Ice Cream then and then went home. Brian was already there. We watched some TV and Movies together in the living room before we all departed to do whatever.
I was in my room for awhile just sitting with my back against the wall, feet to my chest and my arms wrapped around chest rocking slightly. It was all that I could seem to do without crying. I wasn't sure what to do about this whole Jared thing. I wanted to be with him and I did love him very much. In a way I knew he loved me but in some way I doubted it. Or maybe I was just fooling myself all together.
There was a slight knock on the door, "Come in," I said wiping my face a bit and then looking at my hands. I had a smudge of make up on my palms but I wasn't worried about that. I looked to see Brian. He shut the door and then sat down next to me.
"So I have been wanting to talk to you before I leave," he told me and I nodded.
"Shoot." I put on the best smile I could. Thinking about him leaving along with everything else that I was dealing with was kind of stressful.
"Well I think it's pretty obvious that my whole leaving for college thing is upsetting you. Dad even said something about it to me before he and Margaret went on their honeymoon." I nodded.
"I'm going to miss you. I have been used to be you being there ever since I was a baby. It won't be the same. I know I have Sophie but still it...I will just be sad." I frowned.
"I know. But I also know that you will be okay. And I will call you all the times and I will text you all the time. And I will visit you whenever I can."
"Do you promise that?" I wondered.
"Yes." He whispered. "Now tell me what's on your mind. Let me guess, Jared?"
I smiled a bit and then started crying. "I just don't know Brian. I just don't know what to do anymore. I think he loves me in a way but at the same time I think that I am fooling myself," I told Brian honestly.
"It's okay Kimmy. Either way he doesn't deserve you. He is an ass-whole."
I chuckled a bit. "I love that ass-whole Brian," I started.
"You have to do what's best for you Kim. I don't want to see you like this anymore." Brian told me honestly.
"I don't want to feel like this," I told him honestly.
"But," Brian continued for me.
"But, I just don't know. I know that your right though and I have to do what's best for me." I said honestly and I did mean it. "Yeah, you do."
Brian talked to me for a couple more minutes and by the end I knew what I had to do. I think that I have known for awhile but the whole thing from last night really reenforced my decision. And I was going to stick to my gut and do what I had to do.
Dun dun duhhh, what's Kim going to do? Lol. Well thanks for the reviews and until next update!(: