A/N: So I had forgotten about Fanfiction completely. And then my roommate was reading one and I remembered I had an account. So I figured I would check mine out. And then I found this story. I haven't written in ages and honestly didn't think I would again. But this story needs to be finished. I'm a bit rusty in the writing department, but I'd like to think that I have gotten better as a writer over the last few years. That being said I hope to finish this story before the end of the next few weeks, so updates should be swift. Here goes nothing. I hope you enjoy.

Meyers Characters, not mine.

I was on fire for what seemed like an eternity. The pain never lessened, but after a while I was too exhausted to scream. Eleazar had moved me to my bed but this didn't make me any more comfortable as I writhed in pain. I waited to see the only person who really mattered but she did not show. I didn't have much attention to focus on Bella though. The pain was too intense and I kept asking God why he hadn't just killed me already. I continued to fall deeper and deeper into the pyres of despair as my decision to become one of them seemed more and more irrational with the growing pain. It seemed incredibly ironic to me that such cold creatures had to catch fire first. The only thing that seemed to make sense anymore was something that I hadn't expected. It was Carmen. She kept a watchful eye over me the entire time. Her warm face kept me tethered to reality and the familiar face offered me an odd sense of comfort. When my body would jolt uncontrollably from the pain, she would grasp my hand gently and whisper apologies. It reminded me of my mother watching over me when I was sick as a child.

After an indecipherable amount of time later I felt my heart begin to race faster than it ever had before. It seemed play one continuous note, no longer a beat but a hum. Carmen's eyes lit up and it seemed an odd reaction to me as the pain reached an even higher, impossible level.

"Your transformation is almost complete. The pain will be over soon." Carmen said, stroking my hair back from my forehead. Her words were like water to the fire in my heart. The thought of feeling anything but pain seemed alien to me now, but I was excited for it nonetheless.

I could feel the fire begin to recede from my limbs slowly and I had never been so desperately happy for release from pain before. But it seemed that all the pain that left my limbs was racing to my heart. Even when I thought the pain could never get worse, it intensified. My eyes clamped shut and I let out one last screech before my heart stopped forever.

After a moment I sat up. Getting used to vampire senses was dizzying. The burn in my throat was there, as promised. I had expected it to be something like being thirsty, but it was a bit different, more like an ache than a dry sensation. My sight and hearing were so much more crisp, and with so much more room in my brain I was thinking a million miles a second.

I turned to see Carmen smiling at me and, without thinking I stood to hug her. It was as if I was teleporting, I moved with such speed. She patted my back awkwardly and after half a second I realized I was acting strangely and stepped away.

"Sorry" I said automatically but then gasped. My voice…it was so different and yet still the same. It was smoother some how.

"No worries." She said laughing at my odd behavior.

Within moments the rest of the coven was in the room. Kate had one eyebrow cocked up in mild interest. Tanya was smiling devilishly at me, and it made me uncomfortably as it had before. But I was not particularly interested in their reactions. Eleazar, while he had a smile on his lips, looked as if he were about to be sick.

"Eleazar?" I wondered what was wrong.

"I'm sorry, it's just…it's just that I've never felt such a potent power emanating from another vampire before. It's positively screaming at me, and it's a bit off-putting.

My face dropped and I felt both fear and excitement building in my stomach. If my powers were as strong as he claimed, I would have no trouble knocking out anyone, vampire or human, in my way. This idea terrified me as I imagined the Volturi coming to test my power. But it also sent a thrill through my spine at the thought of stopping them in their tracks. I looked up from my thoughts and saw that Eleazar still looked ill.

"I'm sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable. Do you want me to leave…?" I trailed off. I didn't want to make him feel ill at ease in his own home but I wasn't really sure where to go either.

"No, No, Ill just go to the other room. If you'll excuse me." He nodded quickly before leaving.

I felt guilty but that guilt was soon swept away when Tanya began walking toward me.

"We have some work to do" she said with a devilish grin and I felt my eyes widen at her words.

"Uhhh…." I couldn't seem to muster a real response as I got caught up in the sound of her voice. It was pure seduction.

"I am going to be the one showing you just what it means to be a vampire. Come find me when you're ready." She turned and left the room, and I froze in place. I was terrified of this woman, and yet also completely entranced by her. I turned to Carmen, and she began to laugh. It was only then that I realized my reaction to Tanya was probably comical to her.

"Don't worry about Tanya. She is more bark than bite. Just stand your ground and she wont be a bother at all." Carmen said through her laughter.

"Couldn't you or Eleazar train me?" I asked helplessly. Tanya was a very strange creature, to say the least. I had never seen someone so beautiful, or so terrifying, in my entire life. I wasn't sure I could handle spending extended amounts of time with her without completely turning into an idiot.

"I'm not the most qualified person for the job, and Eleazar isn't quite up to training you with his adverse reaction to you. Honestly Tanya will be a great teacher. She is the leader of our coven and one of the strongest vampires I have ever encountered. Trust me." She smiled warmly before also exiting the room and leaving me to myself.

I sat down on the floor and closed my eyes. I needed a moment to think. I was a vampire. I had to let that sink in, first and foremost. It all seemed a bit surreal, even after the days of excruciating pain. I was immortal, strong, and very dangerous. Now that I had a chance to take a survey of things though, I wasn't exactly thrilled with what was in front of me. I wasn't regretting the choice. There was not another option I could live with. But I didn't know how to feel about my new reality. Bella crept into my thoughts and I almost pushed her from my mind but I stopped myself. My last moments with her had been painful and dissatisfying. Why had she chosen to go back to Edward? There was obviously something more there that I had not anticipated. Something that even I could not destroy. I hoped that in time I would come to accept this although I was not sure how I would. The facts were evident though. I couldn't be around her now even though I desperately missed her. Edward seemed to handle spending time with her but I was a blood-thirsty newborn. It would be quite some time before I could see Bella in person again. And I knew that I wouldn't be able to even entertain the thought until after I had been confronted by the Volturi. It was a certainty that they would come looking for me. The problem was how long they would wait. I wondered if Jane still cared enough about me to try and hide my existence from them. I would have to talk to Eleazar about getting more information on how best to proceed from here. I didn't want to put his family in danger because of my situation, so I would leave if I had to. I hoped he wouldn't tell me to go though. I didn't want to spend the rest of forever on my own, and this coven seemed so nice. Well at least Carmen and Eleazar were okay. Tanya was still an issue. I was shocked to hear that she was the leader of this coven. I had assumed Eleazar was the spearhead, but it seemed I had guessed wrong. It seemed I still had a lot to learn about Tanya. I wasn't sure how I would handle training with her, but it seemed my only option at the moment. I wanted to learn about how this new body of mine worked. But more importantly I wanted to see how my powers would work. Would they be even more potent than before? If Tanya was the key to finding out, then I was willing to work with her. There was no use sitting any longer and leaving myself to my own devices. I had work to do. I stood and walked swiftly from the room, finding her sitting in the front room by the fireplace.

What did you guys think? How much of a role do you think Tanya should play in future chapters? Thanks for reading!