Christmas Dragonfly
Disclaimer: I don't own GA
A/N: Well people… Ruka "Won" and did a sudden revelation… harhar…
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Chapter 20: Back in the Snow
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"I love you Imai Hotaru!"
The room stood in shock and silence covered them, like an angel fro heaven passed them. Ruka looked around, his blue eyes starting to fill with warm tears. He found Hotaru, in the state of shock, her eyes filled with tears as well. Ruka couldn't do anything but stare at her, he couldn't move his eyes. He wanted to see her everyday. He felt like they were alone, like they were the only to people in this world.
Everything's finished now…
Everything's done…
He won the fight, he wasn't weak
He told her what was in him at last…
He slowly walked to the end of the platform. His legs shaking, he announced to the whole academy his love to a 3-star, a well known Ice Queen and the sister of the president of the Student Council. He didn't care, there was nothing to care about but winning the fight, it was for Yui, Natsume and the others. It was for her especially. He didn't care whatever or how the news shook people in their minds and hearts. He didn't care; his eyes were already filled with tears suddenly…
"Wait Hotaru!" He ran after her after jumping from the stage. Running after her into the snow…
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A sudden surprise, a revelation of the heart. She could not feel anything but confusion running, banging her head. She never knew what she was going to feel… everything… everything was a blur in her heart… She wondered why but her mind can't process anything anymore… She was too shaken…
"Hotaru!" A male voice called her name. "Hotaru." His warm voice shook her heart; everything about him shapes her heart in different ways. She couldn't comprehend what she was feeling, a concoction of different emotions. She loved him and she knew it; it was the reason why she was running away from him in the first place. She didn't know what to say to him, how she would face him. They were in world poles apart… He lived to be loved by people while she lived only hoping to be loved and now… Now… She shook her head and kept her eyes closed and ran she could feel the cold breeze of Christmas but she passed everything, her eyes were filled with warm tears…
Se loved him…
She'll do anything
But all in her head was
They were poles apart… People would never accept them
He'll be scorned and hated because he loved someone like her
A girl who was cold as ice, a girl who was never actually seen, only as an empty shell
Was it a joke or something?
She couldn't comprehend
Science, mathematics, logic… Her intellect couldn't process it at all…
She was for once… perplexed, deeply baffled
"Hotaru, please, wait!" Ruka yelled out, his hand reaching for her. He wondered why she ran, did he hurt her? His conscience was getting the better of his thoughts, he kept pushing to himself that telling almost everyone in the Academy he loved her wasn't a good idea. His mind kept telling him how idiotic he was, he could've done something better. She must've thought it was a joke, he barely notices her and now he tells the whole world he loves her! He felt so stupid, so useless; she must've thought everything as a lie. He knew Hotaru and how the other girls treated her and because of his stupidity things might get worse!
Is this winning a fight?
Why does it feel like it was better to loose
Than actually vanquishing your opponent
Even so, he ran after her. This was it; he couldn't turn back and just change what he did. It was a situation he left his heart with, he let his heart decide. Even though he thinks he shouldn't have done that… he made his idiotic choice and blurted his heart out. Now, it was his duty… It was now or never
Ruka chased her, Ruka couldn't do anything, and his words wouldn't stop her at all. Even so, he knew that he'd still chase her, even to the end of the world. His love for her… It was strong… How he wished it'll somehow reach her…
Please… let it reach her
Please hear me
Please just once
Please… Listen to me…
"Hotaru, please! Please… Please listen to me! Why are you running away?!" He asked frustrated. He, he just wanted her to feel his love, even if she doesn't have the same feelings
And don't return them back
Hotaru's genius mind went blank, she couldn't think of any reason to answer. She was intellectual; everyone thought she could answer anything. But, now… everything in her head faded away, just like leaves flown away by the wind… She could answer arithmetic in seconds but she couldn't answer a simple question of why. She could explain every law in physics but she can't even understand how she feels…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
She feels so…
Stupid…
STUPID!
"Love isn't logical…" A thought popped into her head. She suddenly felt weak and her feet ran slower every minute, her eyes were wide open. Her feet started to get heavy and eventually she…
She stopped running
And her eyes were wide open and filled with warm tears… She couldn't explain love… How could she have been so…
So…
Stupid
"Hotaru, please look at me, please listen…" Ruka uttered softly. Hearing his voice made her heart jump, jump with happiness. She bit her lower lip, she was happy yet, why are tears falling from her eyes? Are these tears of joy? She wanted him to say her name every time. She wanted to see him every second of her empty life. He was the only one who filled the big hole in her heart. She placed her hand over her chest and felt a tint of crimson ran against her cheeks…
She will listen to him
Because she loves him too much
"Hotaru…" Ruka neared her step by step. He wanted to touch her badly, to embrace her and calm her down. He wanted to mutter everything in his heart softly against her ears. He wanted to make her smile and make her happy. He wanted her to see what she meant to him, how she gave meaning to his life.
Everyone saw his life like it was a star
"Hotaru please listen…" He said and opened his arms as he slowly, step by step walked to her. He can feel the tears run from his blue eyes. He'd do anything for this girl, he'd kill, die, steal… Anything for his blackmailer… "Before, when we were young I never… noticed you."
Everyone loved him, but…
It was true, he never actually saw her. Sure, he sees her everyday but in his heart, she was just a shadow passing by his life. "I saw Mikan, I didn't see you. And I thought I won't even dare."
He couldn't find someone to love himself
Yes, it was true. Ruka disliked her, for him he was his blackmailer. She could never bring him things that brought him joy. He felt and thought she was just an empty shell, he thought of her nothing but a classmate. Mikan was the only girl in his head and heart at that time. He found no other joy and meaning in his life but Mikan
Then he found a girl
"Mikan's smile took me away quickly." He muttered. Hotaru could only bite her lower lip, she… she couldn't muster the strength to turn around and see his face
"But things changed Hotaru…" He murmured as more tears ran from his eyes. "When we got caught in the snow… You showed me who you really were."
A girl with a warm smile and fell in love
She showed him her soft side; she showed him her majestic smile. She told him to never give up when he almost did, she taught him to love without getting hurt. She told him that there was nothing he couldn't face, that with her laughs and smiles everything will be all right. She taught him there was someone more special than Mikan, that falling in love never required any competition with Natsume. That there was someone for everyone. She taught him how to love, how to love someone so deep that you'll do anything for it.
But, things didn't work out
"I never noticed you, but you've helped me so much. When you and I got trapped, you told me things I never thought I'd hear from you." He bit his lower lip as more tears ran from his eyes; he wanted to tell her everything he could ever tell. Every single word that will escape his lips was for her… "You taught me that I could love again."
And she loved someone else
Hotaru's eyes widened… she… she never knew how much… she meant for him… She wanted to jump into his arms and say everything he said to him. What he feels for her is the same how she viewed him when he entered her life…
Then, he found a cold, lonesome girl
"You taught me things I never thought I'll need…" He voiced with small sobs. "Because of you, I see things differently. I don't fall down because of Mikan anymore… You told me there was someone better for me…" His voice quivered, yes, he did love Mikan but… Natsume took her faster than he could. He was weak back then, and Hotaru tried to change that but, she taught him that he could do it. But it all ended in him falling in love with her…
He never thought he'll fall in love with her
Hotaru's lips couldn't mutter a word as more tears fell from her eyes, she couldn't believe what she was hearing. She never intended to show or teach him these things. For her, it was him who gave the light into her dull light. Mikan and the others were just some temporary cover for her deep sorrow, she's been alone and everyone around the school sees her nothing but an empty shell. She knew that she never worth anything big for anyone here. That's why she tries her best and studies hard. She knows that the Academy was the only one that could see her importance, living in a delusion; she knew they saw the importance of her Alice, not her. But, she kept it like that… That was her only way…
He knew he wouldn't…
"But you came; you gave light to my life…" Hotaru's thin lips formed a small smile, her tears never stopped falling. "You came to my life," she muttered to herself. "I've always thought love made people weak and that no one was there to fill this big hole in me. Then, you saw me, you caught me when I was falling, you gave me my wings… I could've fallen into deep sorrow, I relied in the Academy because I thought they were the only one who nurtured me… But I knew it was only because of my Alice…"
But things changed between them
"Huh?" Hotaru felt strong, warm arms around her petite waist. Her plum eyes widened, she couldn't muster a word. She felt like she was standing in front of Heaven's gate. She felt crying some more, as more tears found their way out of her happy plum eyes. Is this a dream? If it is… She doesn't want to wake up, she'll stay like this for all eternity… She felt weak in his touch, his warm body wrapped around her weak form…
He found it hard to let go of her
"I love you…" A masculine voice ran in her ears making her heart jump for joy. "I love you Hotaru and I'll repeat it over and over again… Because what I' feeling is true…" Ruka felt so free…
He fell in love in a minute
"Ruka…" Her small voice muttered as she turned around, she felt she was going to melt in his touch by his words. "I… I love… I… I love you… too…" She voiced weakly but it was loud enough for him to hear. She closed her eyes, never wanting him to let go. She could stay like that forever, she was glad someone loved her back. She now doesn't need to rely on the Academy to see her importance, no, because… Ruka told her different. He showed her whoever she was never bothered him, she was someone… someone for him…
But again… He thought she never loved him back
Ruka's lips formed a smirk and asked, "Really now?" Hotaru looked at his handsome face, she blushed when their faces were inches apart. But, Ruka had other things in his mind. "If you do," he dared, "Show me."
She was cold
Hotaru's eyes widened, but then, she smiled at the thought. She never lets go of a dare, whatever it is. She won't give up, and she knew… She was going to like it… "You know me, I don't back out." She answered with a sly grin. Ruka's smirk grew. Hotaru only raised her eye brow and pressed her gentle lips against his…
But, he was dead wrong
"So this is a kiss?" They both asked themselves before loosing their senses in the kiss.
Because she loved him too
The kiss was like Heaven. Ruka could feel her soft lips against his, a wonderful taste of Heaven dropped itself upon his mouth. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pressed deeper. He was intoxicated, it felt so good. Her lips were warm; it felt like sweet cherries melting on his lips. He heard her moan lightly, "Ruka…" She murmured between her breaths. Ruka liked it, her moans turned his mind endlessly, and he felt so warm…
And it was his happy ending
Hotaru broke the kiss and brushed her light hand against Ruka's pale features with a warm smile across her face.
People always thought that he had the perfect life
"I love you." She whispered. Ruka smiled and took the silver necklace from his pocket and wrapped it around Hotaru's neck. Hotaru touched it's pendant with a small smile painted on her lips. This was the HAPPIEST DAY of her life… yes… it is
Everyone envied him
"This means I love you too," he whispered and kissed her once more. She gave in happily and wrapped her arms around his neck. She liked the taste of his lips; they tasted like chocolate, melting slowly against her tongue. She felt so happy with tears of joy running from her eyes.
But deep inside he; was lonely
Suddenly, a light object found its way on Hotaru's shoulder. They broke the kiss and widened in what they saw…
But when he found her
A beautiful colored dragonfly…
He found all the reason
In Christmas…
Why he should smile
Ruka and Hotaru looked at each other, both sailing deep into each others eyes. They smiled at each other, a smile filled with love…
Why he should laugh and breathe
"We are meant for each other," Hotaru chuckled.
A reason why he was to live in this world
"Yes… We are…" He replied calmly and took the dragonfly in his hands. Hotaru looked at it with a smile on her features…
It was all because of her…
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A/N: Harhar…the story's not finished yet… there's still something else..
-Mitsukai Kansei