Epilogue

~sometime during 2012~

Rrrring... Rrrring...

"Uhh..?" Yunho sat up and grabbed his phone in a state between barely awake and in a deep sleep. With squinting eyes he looked at the bright screen. Who on earth could be calling at this time of night?

Unknow number, apparently. With a sigh he rubbed his eyes before he answered.

"Hello?"

Silence, the kind of silence only one person could have. Breathing. No words. Yunho closed his eyes again. It couldn't be. It must be a prank, right?

"Who is this?" he asked, even though he already knew the answer. He had been listening to this breath every night for six years "Jaejoongie..?"

"Yunho-yah..." the soft voice in the other end made his eyes teary "I'm sorry to wake you up like this..."

Yunho smiled into the phone "Idiot..." he whispered with a choked voice "You don't need to apologize..."

Jaejoong swallowed the tears that threatned to fall "I miss you..."

"I miss you too Jaejoongie..." Yunho sighed and looked at the clock. 3AM? Three more hours and it was time to get up.

"Joongie, why are you calling at this hour?" the man in the bed swung his legs over the edge, pulling himself up in a sitting position.

"I just... I wanted to hear your voice... It's our anniversary, you know..."

Yunho chuckled, both sad and happy at the same time "I know." he looked out through the window "I know..." he said again. In his ear he could hear Jaejoong cry silently "Jae... Baby, don't cry..."

"I'm sorry... I just... It hurts, Yunho..." the man in the other end of the city was too spacing out through the window "Knowing that we're so close to each other, yet we cannot even meet. Not even in secret. We live in Seoul for gods sake. There should be one place in this city we could meet."

"Jaejoong..." Yunho sighed, biting his bottom lip "I share your feelings, but... It's too risky... We can't, you know what would happen if we got caught..."

"I know Yunho... I just... Just once? Please?" Jaejoong pleaded "It's 3AM in the morning. Nobody would notice me sneaking out for a few hours. Please?"

Fuck. How would he be able to resist that pleading?

"Fine, I'll go. Where do we meet?"

When they had decided a place, Yunho quickly got up on his feet and pulled on whatever clothes he could find. Casual clothing, a cap and hoodie on that. He quietly sneaked out in the hallway and put on his shoes. Just as he was about to unlock the door, Changmin stood behind him.

"Hyung? Where are you going?" the young man looked at Yunho, scared, worried. Yunho jumped high as he was spoken to, turning around with a racing heart "Damn Changmin-ah! Don't scare me like that!"

"Are you leaving too..?" Changmin said quietly, looking down on his feet.

"What? Changmin, no..!" Yunho walked over to him, hesitating and then gave him a long hug "I won't leave. But there's someone I have to meet."

Changmin smiled and pulled out of the random hug "It's the anniversary, isn't it? Hyung, you should go. But be careful. They are everywhere, you know that."

"I know Changmin. I will be careful. And I'll be back in the morning. I swear." Yunho unlocked the door and stepped outside, then silently closing it after him. With nervous steps he walked towards the staircases. He knew that taking the elevator could wake anyone in the building up, and he didn't want that. Especially not the manager, who lived in the same building. He somehow managed to go out unnoticed, hurrying off towards the busstation. He couldn't take the car, and taking a cab would be like asking to get caught. Only when he was safely sitting on the dark bus, he could relax. He was going to see Jaejoong. After almost three years, he was going to see him again.

Jaejoong was too on his way towards their rendezvous point. His heart was beating so hard and fast that he thought that anyone within a thirty meter distance could hear it. That was ridiculous though, since he was pretty much alone in the dark street. He was almost running, and reached the point as he saw the bus arriving. When Yunho stepped off the bus, his heart stopped beating. So did Yunho's. Almost in slow motion, they walked towards each other. One step. Two. Three. And then Jaejoong broke the slow pace, running the few steps that kept them separate, throwing himself in Yunho's arms. Yunho grabbed him and wrapped his arms around the slender waist, hugging his past lover hard. Past lover? Since when was Jaejoong his past lover? Jaejoong was his lover still. It didn't matter that they couldn't meet. They were lovers, bound together by a spiritual bond. And an engagement ring.

"Jaejoongie..." Yunho whispered as they had been hugging for a while "Not here. Come on." he took Jaejoong's hand and walked into the small bed&breakfast. The lady behind the desk smiled towards them "About time, isn't it my dear boys?" she said and handed them the key. She knew them. Not as Jung Yunho and Kim Jaejoong from DBSK. But as two lovers, who had been secretly meeting here before they dared to go "public" for their members. She liked them, and she would never dream about revealing their secret. She was born and raised in another country, and her parents had always told her to accept people for who they are. No matter their skincolor, their sexual preferations or their age. Now she watched the two young men hurry towards their room with a wide smile. She was 85 years old. And she remembered just how it felt being madly in love. She was still, her love had always been bound to her late husband. He would've called her silly, and shook his head with a laughter. But he would always agree with her. Always.

Yunho locked the door behind them as they reached their room. They just stood there, looking at each other, trying to read in what had changed in the past years. Jaejoong smiled as he watched Yunho. He looked tired, and he had gained a little bit of weight. And he looked like the sexy god he had always been "You look good." he said with a soft laughter "As always."

Yunho laughed too and took Jaejoong's hands "So do you. But you've gotten skinny. You need to eat more..." he pulled his beloved into a hug, breathing in the scent of him. He smelled like he always had. Fresh, with a slight hint of the smoke from the cigarettes.

"It's been stressful the past few months..." Jaejoong mumbled, burying his face against Yunho's neck. God how he had missed hugging him, just smelling the scent from his warm skin. Yunho stroke his hands over Jaejoong's back, his head leaning on the other's shoulder.

"Jaejoongie?"

"Hm..?"

"I have to be back at six..."

"Oh..." Jaejoong took a step back and smiled "Well.. We'd better hurry up with whatever we'd like to do then..."

Yunho chuckled and pulled him close again "I guess we should..." he said with a teasing voice. They looked at each other for a few seconds before Jaejoong let out a nervous laughter and Yunho couldn't resist him anymore. He was just way too cute like this. He placed his hand behind Jaejoong's head and pulled him closer, waiting for a few seconds with their lips just centimeters away from each other before he pressed them together. It was as if fireworks had exploded in his head, his heart and stomach. And Jaejoong felt the same. He let his fingers go up to Yunho's head, pushing off the cap and the hoodie as he tangled them into the soft hair. Yunho growled a little and pinned Jaejoong against the wall, quickly deepening the kiss. He pressed their tongues together, enjoying the soft moan he got from Jaejoong's throat. Somewhere in the back of the head he couldn't help but to think that he hadn't had sex since Jaejoong left. And that he was sure that Jaejoong had been with someone else. He couldn't get the thought out of his head, making him move back his head "Jaejoongie..?"

"Wh-what..?" Jaejoong whispered, breathless from the intense kiss. His eyes were misty from the lust, need and want. He wanted Yunho. Now.

"Have you... Been with someone since... Since we..?"

Jaejoong smiled and shook his head "No, idiot. No one can even compare to you. I've been jerking off on my own. What about you?"

Yunho smirked and cupped his hand around Jae's face "Same goes for me..."

"I guess this'll be a quick one then." Jaejoong laughed and attacked Yunho's mouth, his hands easily unzipping the hoodie and then taking off the t-shirt underneath it. Yunho mumbled something as he slipped his hands inside Jaejoong's shirt, his fingers moving on their own. He knew every inch of the other's body, better than he knew his own probably. As Jaejoong started to unbutton his pants, he moved his mouth to the other's ear and breathed into it. He felt how his lover's body trembled, and he smiled widely "Sensitive as ever..." he mumbled, kissing his ear softly. Jaejoong mewled quietly and pulled down Yunho's jeans, rubbing his hand against the hard length in his underwear "Only when you do it..."

Yunho moaned quietly as Jaejoong rubbed his hand on his aching cock "I guess that's a compliment."

Jaejoong smiled and pushed him down in the bed "Maybe it is."

"I'll just take it as a compliment before you change your mind."

"Wise choice." Jaejoong mumbled before he sat down on top of him, slowly starting to work his way down with his mouth. First the neck, then the collarbones. He stopped for a second before he captured one of Yunho's nipples in his mouth, sucking hard on it. The man underneath him moaned and tugged gently on his hair "No teasing Joongie, that's not fair."

Jaejoong smiled and nodded. Just this once. He followed the line in the middle of his body down over his stomach, to his crotch. Gently he let his lips touch the head of Yunho's cock, smiling as his lover twitched underneath him "Sensitive as ever..." he teased and looked up at Yunho, who stuck out his tongue at him "Shut up and suck it." he said impatiently, running his right hand through Jaejoong's hair. The older man laughed softly and opened his mouth, playfully breathing over the throbbing cock. Yunho let out a soft sound, both pleased and annoyed. Jaejoong surely knew how to tease. And he had almost forgotten how soft those lips were, and how fucking desperate they could make him. Like now, for example. He wanted Jaejoong to stop teasing and just get to it, but at the same time... It felt so fucking good, when he just gently ghosted his tongue over his rock hard cock. Jaejoong glanced at Yunho, his heart skipping a beat as he saw the look on his face. The burning desire in his eyes made his body cry for his touch. Without a word he got up from the bed and stripped completely naked before he got down over Yunho again, one leg on each side of his body "I want you..." he whispered, immediately feeling the other's fingers against his tight ass. He shivered, softly nipping on Yunho's bottom lip with approving mewls. Yes, he wanted it. Like, now.

Yunho chuckled at Jaejoong's sudden impatience, stretching up and caught the beautiful mouth with his own as he pressed two fingers inside the other's ass. He reveled on his lover's moans, slowly pushing his fingers in and out of Jaejoong's ass. Jaejoong moaned into Yunho's mouth, his ass clenching around the intruding fingers "Y-yunnie, please..." he broke free from the kiss, looking at him with begging eyes as he arched his back lightly "F-fuck me.. I.. I've been wanting it for so long... Don't make me wait any longer..."

Yunho slowly pulled out his fingers, flipping them over so he was on top. Jaejoong willingly wrapped his legs around the other's waist, smiling in anticipation. When Yunho pressed the head of his cock against his ass, he bucked his hips with a whimper "Why are you so slow~..?" he pouted, and Yunho chuckled at his cute face expression "I just don't want to hurt you, that's all.."

Jaejoong pulled him down into a kiss, making a desperate thrust upwards, forcing Yunho's cock inside with a loud moan. Yunho took hold of his hips, not wanting to rush it, but his need took over. While giving Jaejoong a deep kiss, he pushed further into his tight ass gasping for air as he was almost all the way inside "F...fu..fuck Jaejoongie.. Relax, you're going to kill me..." his fingers digged into his lover's hips, but Jaejoong didn't relax. Not at all. Instead he grinded his hips against him, moaning impatiently "D-don't stop now..!" he begged, wetting his lips with the pink tongue "You don't.. Need to be careful with me.." he breathed out, looking at his lover with hungry eyes. Yunho smiled and placed his hands on each side of Jaejoong's head instead "You sure?"

"Very sure."

He started to thrust, at first slow with low moans escaping him. Jaejoong's tight ass kept him in a firm grip, making it almost impossible to move. But it felt fucking good. Really fucking good. Jaejoong wrapped his arms around Yunho's neck, answering the thrusts with his own hips, soft moans emitting from him "F-faster baby..." he whispered, sucking playfully on Yunho's bottom lip, then letting out a cry in pleasure as the other suddenly made a hard thrust, hitting that special spot deep inside "Fuck!" he whimpered as Yunho pulled almost all the way out, only to violently force himself inside again. Jaejoong arched his back high with a scream in pleasure, that never seemed to end as Yunho started to pound his ass hard. Their bodies slammed together, the bed hitting the wall in the same pace as they moved. Yunho moaned Jaejoong's name in each breath, fucking his tight ass hard and fast, just how he knew Jaejoong wanted it.

"Y-yunho! Fuck! I'm gonna come, fuck me harder!" Jaejoong cried out when Yunho's hand found its way down to Jaejoong's aching cock, starting to jerk him off in the same pace as the thrusts. The man pounding his tight ass cried out in pleasure as Jaejoong's ass tightened even more around his aching cock, almost pushing him over the edge. But he managed to hold back, looking at Jaejoong. He saw his lover's eyes go misty, watching his beautiful face as Jaejoong came into his hand while screaming out his name loudly. The other's ass tightened violently around Yunho's throbbing cock, sucking him even deeper inside and made him come with a scream in pleasure as he shot out a load into him. As the orgasm faded, he could feel how Jaejoong's body was rocking in small spasms in the aftermath of the intense pleasure. Yunho wrapped his arms around him, giving his neck and collarbone soft kisses. They didn't say anything for a while, just slowly exploring each other's mouths, necks and jawlines. When Yunho pulled out of Jaejoong, the man underneath him let out a protesting sound. He didn't want this moment to end, not just yet.

"Jaejoong... I have to get back..." Yunho whispered in his ear, looking at the clock. It was 5.30 already. Jaejoong hugged him hard, nuzzling his neck softly "Already?"

"Yeah... I don't want to, but I can't stay either..." he gave his beloved a long kiss "Another time. I promise." he smiled and stroke Jaejoong's face. Jaejoong answered the kiss before he looked at him with sad eyes "When will that be then..?"

Yunho looked puzzled, going through his schedule in his head "Well... I could get away on friday... Our schedule don't start until 11 on saturday.. Does that work for you?"

Jaejoong gave him a soft kiss "Yeah. I'll make sure to get away too. Do we meet here on friday too?"

"Yeah. I think it would be best if we come separately though..." Yunho got up from the bed on slightly shaky legs and put on his clothes again "Alright?"

The man on the bed nodded and stretched out in the bed, showing his completely naked glory, making Yunho almost change his mind about leaving. But he managed to hold back, thinking that they'd meet in three days again, and that they could spend a whole night together at that time.

"Are you staying, Jaejoong?"

Jaejoong nodded "Another hour... Then I have to get back to the dorm..."

Yunho sighed and nodded "How are they? Junsu and Yoochun? I've been following you all on Twitter but.. I mean... You're all doing well.. I guess.."

"We miss you... Both of you... How's Changmin doing?" Jaejoong asked, sitting up now with a concerned look on his face.

"He's scared. Everytime I'm going somewhere, he asks me if I'm going to leave too. And everytime I have to tell him that I'll come back." Yunho sat down and gave Jaejoong's lips a gentle peck "I have to leave now, my love. I'll see you on friday night. I love you Jaejoong."

Jaejoong nodded and hugged him for a long while before he let go "I love you too Yunho. I'll be waiting for you here on friday. Be safe."

Yunho smiled and gave him another kiss before he got up from the bed "Remember to eat Joongie. I like you more with some meat on that ass."

Jaejoong snorted and threw a pillow at him "Very funny Yunho. But I'll eat. I'll eat until I get fat, and have to roll my way everywhere."

"That would be a sight for the eye..." Yunho laughed and threw the pillow back at him "Bye, silly." he added before he left, walking down the corridor with light steps, all the way back to the apartment. His heart felt like cotton, fluffy and light. He entered the apartment with a wide smile, that made Changmin want to hit him. Just like the old times. Somehow, he didn't mind. When Yunho was happy, so was he. If this meant that Yunho would stop crying on his own, locked up in his room, then he was going to be happy. Yunho was his world now, his family. Without him, Changmin would too go down. He wanted to meet Jaejoong too. And Junsu, and Yoochun. In due time, he thought. In due time, we'll meet again. We will always find our way back to each other. Because we are Dong Bang Shin Ki. We're only Dong Bang Shin Ki, when we're the five of us. I won't give up, Changmin thought as he ate his fifth egg that morning. I will stand up and fight, because I love DBSK with everything I have. I will not give up.

End of the epilogue

Authors notes;

Okay guys, this is really it. This is the end of ends. At least for this fanfic. I promise I will continue writing, so I hope you'll continue to follow me! Stalk me okay? I like stalkers. Stalk me on tumblr; .com ! I'll start updating that one with my fics as well, and also add more of my own "artwork". Or fanart. Or fanphotoshopping. Idk it's late. Anyways. I hope you really enjoyed this epilogue, don't forget to comment on what you think about it! Love you guys!

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