Without You, I Have Nothing
Nate's Point of View
Shane started saying that all of this was his fault.
"Shane, how can you think that? Mitchie's stubborn and she wouldn't have accepted a ride no matter what you did," I said after a few minutes of it.
"No, you don't understand, all of this is my fault. Her memory loss and everything," he sobbed.
"How can you think that? Mitchie forgetting everything is that drunk drivers fault," I said, not believing that Shane thought any of this was his fault.
"No, no, no," he insisted. "It's all my fault. If I had never…" he trailed off, sobbing.
Shane's Point of View
Nate was wrong, everything was my fault; every bit of pain that Mitchie had ever felt since I met her was my fault. Every breaking of her heart, every thing, was my fault. How can I be expected to live with myself? Suddenly I realized I couldn't.
Nate's Point of View
Shane's sobs stopped suddenly, making all of us look up. Before anyone could ask what was wrong, he grabbed his coat and ran, muttering something about going to the apartment.
"I have a bad feeling," I said right after Shane left. Meghan gave me a confused look.
"About Mitchie or Shane?" she asked.
"Shane," I said as I got up and left. I followed Shane to the apartment. When I got there, Shane was standing patiently in full view of the front door holding a knife right above the vein in his neck.
"Give me one good reason why I shouldn't," he said calmly. I just gaped at him. He raised one eyebrow, challenging me to come up with a reason.
"Damn it, Shane. You think that you'd stop doing this. Don't you dare kill yourself or I will," I yelled and grabbed my pocketknife out of my pocket. I held it in the same position that Shane was holding his.
"What about Meghan?" he asked calmly, calling my bluff.
"What about Mitchie?" I asked, not as calmly, hoping I would call a bluff.
"Mitchie's in a coma," he whispered. "She's in a coma because of me," he said a little louder.
"What if she wakes up?" I asked, knowing that would hit a nerve.
"What if she doesn't?"
"If she dies then I won't stop you," I said, meaning every word. "But you have to wait until she's actually dead and I can't guarantee that I won't follow." Shane winced at the word, dead but he nodded and put his knife down. A small bead of blood rolled down his neck from where the knife had been pushed into his neck too hard. I put my knife down only after his was out of his hand.
"What happened between you and Mitchie," I said, breaking the silence.
"I was trying to push her away so she wouldn't get hurt when I… so I told her that I didn't love her," he said, fighting back tears.
"You, WHAT?!" I yelled. I would have continued yelling but he looked ashamed at what he had done.
"How could she have believed me so quickly?" he said to no one in particular. "After all the times I told her I loved her, how could she believe me?"
"I don't know, Shane," I whispered. "But we should get back to the hospital." Shane nodded and we drove back to the hospital.
The next two weeks flew by. Mitchie didn't make enough progress for the doctors to keep her on machines.
"NO," Shane yelled. He was currently screaming at the doctors, trying to get them to keep Mitchie alive while the four of us watched, tears flowing down our faces.
Shane's Point of View
"Sir, we need those machines for other patients. She hasn't made enough progress to keep her on the machines," the doctors said. "We'll give you each a couple minutes to say goodbye."
Everyone looked at me first but I shook my head, unable to move. They all went one by one and each of them walked out with red eyes and a wet face. I went last.
Mitchie looked so peaceful in a coma. If it weren't for the machines, I would have thought that she was asleep. But she wasn't asleep. I fought to keep my sobs quiet so the others wouldn't worry. I got a sudden urge to sing.
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Even though the words were coming out have strangled and my sobs broke the words in the middle of the sentences, I kept going.
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you.
I turned around and headed for the door, tears still flowing down my face. For a second, I thought that I heard something stirring.
"Don't stop," I heard a voice behind me say.
Seriously people, only 2 people have given me ideas for the soundtrack so far. GIVE ME SOME SONGS!!!!! Thank you shewhoshallwrite for suggesting Heartless by Kayne West for Shane and Lindsey and appearantly shewhoshallwrite thinks Shane can be heartless. and Love Lockdown for Shane and Mitchie when they kept their relationship a secret. Review and GIVE ME SONGS!!!!!