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Part II — Jacob Black
The airplane took off on the first day of November. Renesemee Cullen and I, Jacob Black, had been on the run from the Volturi since the end of September. We'd made through just about anything in that past month. We drove all the way through California, New Mexico, and to Phoenix, Arizona.
She learned more of her mother's and my past. She shared her first real kiss with yours truly. We were attacked by vampires and then we found good vampires. We went to the park. We spent countless nights in hotel rooms, talking just like we always did.
I fell in love with her over the past month.
And then she left to save me because a vampire threatened to kill me if she stayed or told me anything about what was going. That was two nights ago.
So, you know those parts in movies where the male lead would have all these flashbacks about the female lead that had left him? He would be frowning, picturing himself with her whether they were kissing, hanging out, or when she was just smiling.
Well, Hollywood wasn't too far off the mark on that one.
Except there wasn't any sad, woeful Johnny Cash or John Mayer playing in the background and it wasn't raining outside. I wasn't thinking about killing myself. And I wasn't crying like a little wimp. I didn't believe that Renesemee had fallen out of love with me or I would be lonely for the rest of my life.
Because let's face it.
First off, Wendy's favorite band was Nickelback and 'Rockstar' was playing for the fifth time; she was singing at the top of her lungs which wasn't exactly the prettiest sound in the world — as ironic as that may sound — and Austin was humming along silently. The night was dark but that's because it was night. I definitely didn't want to kill myself; after all, if I would have wanted that, I would have already left to the Volturi on my own. I don't cry; I haven't since my mother died.
Renesemee still loved me. I know she did.
"What exit do I take?" Wendy asked.
Unfortunately, because it had practically been the next freaking apocalypse while we were on the plane, we had landed in Olympia, Washington instead of Seattle. Wendy and Austin rented a car — which, by the way, had no intention of returning any time soon — and we had been driving since ten PM.
It had been nearly two days since I'd lost Renesemee to the Volturi.
And I was doing surprisingly better than I thought I would be. I mean. I was still alive. I was still breathing. My body hadn't been lifted off into space. I was still planted to good ol' mother Earth. And I was facing everything I feared to face. The Cullens. The pack. Myself.
"The next one," I mumbled and she nodded going back to the song.
We rode for awhile longer and my mind was drifting again. I was headed back to the flashbacks, the memories, her smile. It was pretty painful but I could fight through that. I was still recovering from losing her. I mean, it was like I was a Renesemee-holic. Now that my drug, my sun, my everything was gone, I had to fight through every minute without breaking down.
Of course, this addiction wasn't like an alcoholic's. It wasn't like I could just go to the drug store and buy another bottle, or in this case Renesemee. It didn't work like that. I lost her. She left me; there was no going to just replace her.
Because that was impossible.
***
"Michael and Nessie sitting in a tree! K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" Seth yelled loudly. Renesemee blushed even deeper than what a half-vampire was expected to and then tried to reach for him.
I pulled her back, laughing. The other guys were erupting in laughter and I was trying not to join them full force. I guess it was just my imprinting thing but I really hated this Michael kid and I would gladly participate in anything to keep Ness away from him.
Sigh. That's not how a werewolf should act about his Imprint's possible future boyfriend but I couldn't help it. I learned a long time ago to not suppress my feelings. Well, as much as I used to back when I first met Bella with my dad that first time almost ten years ago.
"Hey, shut up, guys!" Leah yelled and smacked her brother on her shoulder. The guys all laughed, Seth the loudest, and then put his hands up in mercy.
"O-okay," he stuttered, trying to hold his laughter inside. His eyes were watering. The rest of the guys sat down; Seth, however stood behind his chair. "I guess that means we're not invited to the wedding."
He took off and everyone cracked up again, even Leah.
"Jake! Let me go!" she screamed and I did as she asked. Seth would have to deal with the crazy half-vampire. I wouldn't be a part of that beating. So, instead, I sat down to eat the rest of my pizza while the guys and Leah snickered under their breath and Seth's cries of despair rang outside.
Oh well.
Sucker had it coming.
***
I remember telling Bella that I would have been a much healthier route for her love life. I remember when I told her that Edward was like a drug, an addiction that she could never get rid of. I told her if I was really her personal sun, then that was better than the shots of Edward-heroin she took daily.
Okay, not the last sentence but you get the point.
And now I knew exactly what she felt like. I knew what it felt like to be so addicted to a person that you couldn't think of yourself with anyone besides that specific person. I knew what it felt like to go a day or so without that person and try not to think of them at all and yet try to think of everything so you didn't forget them. The smell of their skin or hair, their laugh, their smile …
I could relate to her now on so many levels.
***
I didn't know what was worse. The fact that now everyone, even the old people — Charlie and his soon-to-be bride, Sue — now had everything they wanted.
I had imprinted on a beautiful girl, who was mad at me. And I was attending yet another wedding where everyone would be paired off except for said girl and me. Well, us and Leah. But, she never had anyone to bring so it didn't really count.
Screwing up a month ago was the worst thing I could have done. Now she would hardly look at me let alone talk to me and there was nothing I could do about it. Maybe today I could make it up to her.
"Jake, come on, my mom's going to kill us!" Seth yelled obvious fear in his voice.
I sighed and slipped the black jacket on over my button up shirt. Leah, Seth, and I had just finished running patrols and now we were late for his mother's wedding. We were already dead but I hurried along anyway. Seth looked like he was going to piss himself.
Tie in place we barely managed to skid to a halt.
Leah was adjusting the dress she had dreaded wearing from day one. She had been complaining about it all of patrol. Seth was messing with his unruly hair that would never manage to be anything but unruly. I was staring. At her.
Renesemee was there and she was shuffling her feet on the ground. Her soft brown hair was curled at the bottom and hung over her shoulders. She was wearing the same dress as Leah but on her it looked much more natural. And I couldn't stop gawking.
"Renesemee, get with Jacob!" Sue's voice cut in like a bullet.
She quickly got to my side. I looped my arm with hers and she looked straight ahead, embarrassment, reluctance and nervousness written all over her face. This stupid little thing we had … that little insignificant kiss we had two months ago was nothing.
How could I apologize to her?
"You look beautiful," I said. There, the nervousness and reluctance and embarrassment went away in a snap. Her cheeks flushed a little but I could live with that.
As long as she was still here, still mine, I could live with anything.
***
"Wow, Forks is tiny," Wendy mused lightly. Austin turned off the radio.
"Yeah, it's like a freaking spec on the map," I agreed. "Let me out here, I need to stretch. Run. You know, werewolf thing. I'll lead you there. Just follow my scent." Wendy's nose scrunched in confusion but then she shrugged. Austin unlocked my car door as she pulled to a stop.
Only in Forks could you stop in the middle of the road and not cause a road hazard.
I slipped out and immediately started running. I headed off to the woods and felt the heat, the rip through my veins. I struggled out of my jeans and only managed to do that until the werewolf took over fully and I was holding the jeans in my mouth.
Running, I smelled the familiar scent of Forks. The trees were wetter here than they were in California; Californian trees were tangy with all of the warmth but here in Forks everything was a little moldy because of the rain. Everything was green too.
It smelled, felt like home.
And that's when everything hit me. Voices. Words rang through my head like someone had cranked up the internal radio. Commands, shouts, laughs, complaints, cries. I felt it all. I couldn't breathe either. They hadn't noticed me yet.
I had been away from the others so long … I should have known that this would happen. When I left shortly after the newborn battle, I was gone for so long that when I came back, it took some major readjusting when everyone was shouting.
This time it was worse.
Jake? It was Leah. Everyone else, Seth, Quil, and Paul and a couple others I didn't really recognize all stopped their shouting and listened.
I tried not to think of anything.
Then I could feel Leah rolling her eyes. You know that we can read everything you're going to do. You can't not think of something, Jake. After all, you just thought about not thinking about something. Everyone else was dumbfounded. Leah, on the other hand, seemed to know that I had been there since entering Washington.
Hell it didn't surprise me if she was tracking me.
I wasn't tracking you. Shut up. Where's —
JAKE!
JAKE!
JAKE!
Three cries before Leah yelled at them. I knelt to the ground and whined; the sound hurt my head so much. Think of it as having a migraine and then a truck slamming into your head. Leah told the guys to phase out and, since she was second-in-command, they followed reluctantly.
The voices stopped and I looked up, seeing the Cullen house through the trees. I suddenly felt sick, shaking on my paws. How did I become such a coward?
You were never a coward, and you're not one now either, Jake oh mighty one, Leah's voice said from about … forty yards east of where I was standing. She was in the woods, staring at the house, as I was. I could feel her shift her weight from one paw to the other. Then, Where's Renesemee?
Gone. Gone. The night she disappeared came back and I tried to block it out. I didn't want them knowing that I had been unable to watch her, like I was assigned. But images flew. The dream about her and the vampire came back with full force along with everything she had said.
I love you … more than anything in the world. I hope you realize that, Renesemee had said.
What?
Her voice was frightened like she had known this had happened and yet she wished with all of her might that it was false. Suddenly, I saw vampires in her mind. Vampires dressed in black; three of them came to the Cullen house right after the wedding.
They were saying something as Leah watched faraway. I could barely hear what they were whispering but it was enough. It was enough to know that they were from the Volturi. Three newbie's who had a change of heart in the past ten years and joined the Volturi.
Three vampires who were still here after this whole time that Renesemee and I had been away. Three vampires sitting in the Cullen house right now …
Jake, calm, Leah ordered and shook my big head.
Then I ran. I transformed back and pulled my jeans up. Usually, it might be uncomfortable trying to run around without underwear, but I was fine. No, not fine … angry. Pissed off. Willing to kill any damn vampire who got in my way. How dare they the damn Volturi.
I would kill them.
The house was getting closer and closer.
Then, the door burst open and a small pixie-like vampire, shot out. Alice was the worst I'd ever seen her. She wasn't wearing designer clothing and her hair was perfect like it always was. Instead, she was wearing sweats and a pull over hoodie, her hair was flat and clinging against her face as she ran.
The look on her face was terrifying. It was a cross between horror, despair, sadness, anger, and anything else that could be negative. "You," she said, shoving her finger in my direction.
Behind her the other vampires were starting to pull out. Carlisle, Esme, Bella, Edward, Rosalie, Emmett, Jasper, and the three vampires I was going to kill.
"You," her voice was quaking. I stopped and her eyes locked with mine. Everything that her voice revealed was intensified by her voice. "You … you …" She paused and I grabbed her arms, unsure what to do. I couldn't speak. Couldn't breathe.
"I can see her future!" she yelled, ripping her arms away from me. "I … I could feel her. I know what's going to happen, dog. I – I … I can see her future!" And then Jasper was behind her and I felt calm, despite that I should be twitching, running, angry. Pain.
Pain.
The vampires all huddled around Alice and I sank to the ground. Bella was at my side in a moment, trying to help me. I looked away. "Renesemee," she cried but no tears fell down. "… They took her, didn't they? They … they took my baby … d-didn't they?"
I was shaking. I needed to run; feel the heat. This was a bad idea. I needed to get away from here. I needed to escape. I shouldn't have come back. I should have gone straight to the Volturi. I shouldn't have lost their damn daughter!
"It's not your fault," Edward said quietly.
I shook my head. "I beg to differ," the emotionless voice was back and I couldn't understand myself. Though it didn't sound like me speaking, my throat was raw from trying to. "Sh-she went back to the Volturi, Edward. She … she left me."
Bella was rubbing my back. Alice was picked up she was standing over us, silent. Dead silent. "It's not your fault," Bella echoed Edward. "They told us what happened. She went to protect you. That doesn't make it your fault."
Alice finally spoke, "I can see her future. I can see her future. The blackness that was her future meant she was with you, dog. And now … now I can see her finally, after seven years of wanting I've finally received but … but I don't want it.
"I can see her future. And it isn't good."
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