Lexa's perspective

I spent a good few hours of the day working through my frustration in a productive manner. How exactly you may ask? By practicing my combative movements first of all on my lonesome and then against anyone willing to face me.

At first it was challenging finding an opponent as I had a tendency to intimidate the less experienced but as the more seasoned fighters began to show up for their own reasons I was no longer short of opponents.

It was in those moments fighting with a dulled blade that I could be completely focussed and shut everything else out. Concentrating on nothing but blocking & evading strikes as well as forcing my opposition back with attacks of my own.

Not aware of how much time had passed, I was soon drenched in perspiration, largely due to the humidity. I became aware of my fatigue not long after knocking a brazen youngster to his feet, my sword pointed at his throat.

It was now, when no other opponents stepped forward that all the other thoughts came rushing back in. Where did I go from here in regards to the murder? Another pressing question was where was Clarke?

Of course I was not her keeper and she was free to do as she pleased but I often found her watching me when I practiced as such. She told me there was an inherent deadly beauty that was enthralling when she watched me fight.

She told me that my movements were graceful as if I was partaking in a kind of dance as I flourished my blade whilst keeping on my toes. We'd had more than one private session where I attempted to teach her to become more proficient in the use of weapons other than firearms.

It would take her quite awhile to master the blade especially if our sessions kept ending up the way they did. She'd ask me if she was doing it right and I'd step in and stand behind her as I guided her arm to swing in the right way.

The first few times I was naïve to her flirtatious trickery. She do it to get my body pressed up against hers and she'd turn her head to bring her lips closer to mine. The air would always light up with sexual tension and my hand would slide up into her hair and I'd guide her lips to mine.

I knew that I really should not give into temptation so easily but I never felt more alive than I when I was with her. Even just thinking about those moments in which we were very much fully clothed caused me to clamp my legs together as I was awash with a feeling of desire which emanated from between my legs.

If I allowed myself to continue down this train of thought, I'd become slick with desire down there and it would be improper of me to show anything less than the decorum expected of me in such a public setting.

I strode out leaving the warriors to lick their metaphoric wounds as I went back to my home and found that the bodyguards who were supposed to be tailing my Clarke discreetly were still standing plum in front of our home.

I took this to mean that Clarke was still inside and I walked in without a second thought.

"Clarke! I have returned now and I apologise for my earlier conduct. But I assure you my love that I am more than willing to make it up to you by pleasuring you for hours on end if that is what it will take."

I slowly begun to remove my weapons yet I still heard no response. I left my attire on as I walked from room to room of our home yet I found no trace of her. I stomped outside to see the bodyguards still standing outside looking bored if anything.

"Where has Clarke gone?" I demanded.

One of them turned to look at me before answering,

"Your consort came outside and after a disagreement with the leader of the Sky people, she walked off in that direction," he pointed the way to me, "and that was the last we saw of her."

I was glad he was truthful with me but enraged by his dereliction of duty,

"So why is it that you chose not to follow her? You do remember your orders do you not?"

He at least had the decency to look nervous under my stern glare as the gravity of the consequences he and his compatriot were likely to face begun to sink in,

"We were able to see her the whole time and figured she would be back soon enough. She hasn't spent much time apart from you so that is where we thought she went."

I grabbed him by the throat and pushed him up against the solid side of my home,

"Did you see her alongside me as I entered? If you had an eye on her the whole time, then where is she now?"

He begun to stutter out an answer but I silenced him with a look. Apparently such a task was too difficult for these two,

"How long ago was it that you last saw her?" I continued my interrogation.

"A few hours at the most. She exited your home not long after you did Commander."

I stood there for a few moments trying to think about what she might do, or where she might have gone. She wasn't at our home having thoroughly ruled that out nor was she at the arena where I just was. Even if she had gone to the marketplace I doubt she would have spent too long there.

I had very little doubt however that her whereabouts might have something to do with trying to solve the murder. Seeing how she reacted to the situation even thawed me out; seeing the pain on her face was not something I wanted to see again.

Knowing her as I did, I knew that she'd want to help out in anyway that she could. Add to that the fact that since I took her in as my lover and partner her duties were few and far between so her idleness may have caused her to go looking for information to help solve this. I just hoped that she didn't do anything rash.

I turned my stern gaze back onto the two bodyguards,

"You are dismissed from duty and I'll see to your punishment later."

However the chattier bodyguard had one last thing to say,

"I hated this assignment. Other warriors got to go out on hunts and actually use their skills. What did I do to deserve babysitting your lapse in judgement?"

It was that last question that pushed me over the edge. I swung with a fist and after connecting with his temple it sent him to the ground. I lashed out two more times with precision and accuracy to leave him conscious and bloody.

"Consider your life now your own. You are released from my service. But mark my words, if anything has happened to her, you'll be breathing no longer."

I went off and spent the next couple of hours searching what felt like all of Ton DC but still found no sign of her. It was then that I begun to feel worried.

I remembered her saying that she felt that the murder took place somewhere else due to the lack of blood and Nyko had agreed with her. She went on to further conclude that the child must have been murdered elsewhere and placed for us to find.

Could she have decided to venture outside of Ton DC on her own?

My fear for her increased when horror scenarios begun to play in my head. Scenarios of her out in the wilderness alone, no bodyguards to protect her and a killer on the loose. Maybe she'd even been captured already; maybe I was already too late.

I spent a few moments taking in a few deep breaths. It was clear to me why I avoiding falling in love before because of what it could do to a person and how it could be used against you. Despite this though, I didn't regret everything I'd done and had with Clarke.

Yes love has the capacity to put you in compromising situations and it can drive you crazy just via your thoughts alone, but by the creators every moment was worth it and it was worth fighting until your dying breath for.

I approached some of the boundary guards I'd stationed at the major exit points of Ton DC and questioned each and every one of them just to see if she came by that way. Eventually one set of guards vaguely remembered someone passing through and it just had to be her.

I quickly made my way back to our home and gathered some supplies for what I hoped was a brief trip that turned out to be nothing concerning. As I stepped outside once more I was met by her mother,

"Have you seen my daughter? I have to speak to her and probably apologise again."

I couldn't help but notice how sad her mother looked as she said this to me. It dimmed my anger towards her slightly but I could still not forget what she had done. Perhaps there was a way to use this to my advantage,

"I'm off to go and find her now if you'd like to accompany me."

I filled her in on what has been happening lately and where I suspect Clarke might be. She was not happy but unsurprised at Clarke's headstrong nature even if it meant putting herself in danger.

"If it means helping to get my daughter back safe and sound then I'll join you."

Despite the twisted way in which she did it, I knew that she'd do anything to bring Clarke back and even though I didn't trust her again we had one thing in common and that was Clarke and keeping her safe.

"Raven arrived not that long ago. It's surprising how much faster the trip is with horses. She went to find that warrior of yours, Starletta. How about we take a few more people with us just to be sure?"

I nodded as that sounded like a reasonable strategy. Even though this was likely to be one of the more fragile alliances I've formed in recent times, working with Clarke's mom was a means to an end and this was not the first time I had to work alongside someone I flat out didn't like.

The two of us set off to find Starletta and Raven as we both wanted someone who we could trust close by as we were about to set off into the unknown.

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