"Jane, Jane you need to breathe okay" Maura said crouched in front of the brunette her hands on the detectives knees. Jane's eyes were clenched tightly shut and her teeth were gritted together as a result of the cramping.

"Look at me" Maura said softly and Jane opened her eyes at the sound of Maura's seemingly calm voice, two wide pools of gold and green stared back at her.

"Okay, good" Maura said giving her a small smile "Now breathe in, breathe out" she demonstrated taking a deep breath then letting it out slowly hoping that Jane would follow her lead. She was trying everything to sooth the detectives pain but she couldn't do much in the confines of Jane's apartment.

"You need to be at the hospital" Maura said again but Jane just shook her head, even in the pain she was in she was still stubborn as ever and refusing to go to the hospital.

"Jane please" Maura begged her "Please at least let me call an ambulance"

"They will take me" Jane said pausing to suck in a breath in between cramps "to the hospital"

"Where you need to be right now, I can't do anything for you here" Maura said cupping Jane's face with both her hands so the detective couldn't look anywhere else.

"You're an MD" Jane whispered her breath was ragged and her dark eyes were filled with pain.

"Yes" Maura nodded then paused before glancing over her shoulder and grabbing her keys "And as a Doctor of Medicine you have to listen to me and we're going to the hospital…now"

Jane let out a low groan as Maura helped her up and as she pulled on her jacket Jane doubled over in agony as another cramp washed over her.

"Maura" she growled and Maura was by her side again at lightening speed holding her up and helping her towards the door.

"I-I'm covered in blood" Jane mumbled "Take my car"

Maura lifted an eyebrow at the detective and just shook her head helping her down the stairs.

"I'm not really too bothered about my upholstery right now Jane" she said opening the car door for the detective and throwing a towel down before getting her in the car and jogging round to the drivers seat.

"Just keeping breathing, okay, big breaths" she instructed glancing nervously over at Jane as she started the car. It was more than just a deep concern Maura had for the detective right now, she knew physically Jane was going to be okay but mentally she had no idea what the outcome of this trauma was going to be. Jane had shown no signs of shedding any tears, she was distressed yes, and quite obviously suffering but Maura was seeing no signs of utter devastation in amongst the pain that was in those dark brown eyes.

Maybe it just hasn't hit her yet, or maybe she's trying to conceal how truly heartbroken she is?

These thoughts circled the back of Maura's head as she drove quickly but carefully to the hospital, she was grateful it was the middle of the night and so there were barely any cars on the road to get in their way. She would glance over at Jane every 10 seconds to make sure she was still okay, but each time she looked Jane was still in the same position, her hand gripped on the door leaning back in the seat her eyes shut and her bottom lip clenched between her teeth.

Miscarriages were different for every woman, some felt barely anything at all and others felt cramping a kind of pain that was similar to contractions, they would come in waves about 5-7 minutes apart and when they hit it was strong enough to make you double over in pain, taking the air right out of you.

Maura wanted to keep talking knowing that the sound of her voice was comforting the detective but she wasn't sure she knew what to say, as she looked at Jane all the words in her entire large Oxford dictionary of vocabulary disappeared. There was a thousand and ten science things she could tell Jane but it wouldn't exactly be pleasant to here, so instead she remained quiet, her hands gripped tightly on the wheel and she focused her eyes on the road.

When they finally pulled in to the emergency bay at the hospital Jane's groans had turned to whimpers and her eyelashes were wet with tears.

"You're okay" Maura told her softly helping her out of the car, slipping an arm around her still tiny waist and locking the car behind them making there way to the doors.

"Focus on your breathing" she reminded Jane again, knowing that it was one of the only helpful things that could possibly try and distract Jane from the pain. Grabbing a wheelchair as soon as they got through the doors she sat Jane down and wheeled her at speed over to the desk.

"She needs to be seen to immediately" Maura said practically slamming her hands down on the desk "She's having a miscarriage" as the words came from her mouth she realised how truly horrific the situation was. The young intern behind the desk suddenly looked flustered leaping up he began to look around frantically and Maura just rolled her eyes.

"I'm an MD, just tell me where to go I'll take her" she said waving her badge at him and she heard Jane whimpering behind her.

"ER" the intern said "Down and to the left"

He opened his mouth to express his apologies but Maura was already gone pushing Jane down the corridor.

The intense cramping Jane was feeling was agonising enough to make it hard for her to breath, her breath sounded huffy and ragged as she drew in deep lungfuls of air as Maura had been telling her. The pain was almost starting to be too much for her to bear, her abdomen ached with every breath she took it felt like someone had a tight clutching grasp on her womb that she couldn't shake.

She didn't understand why this was happening. Why? Why her? Her emotions ran wild in her head and pulsed through her body along with the pain of the contractions. She felt the spilt of her heart as it broke for the baby she would no longer be having, she was devastated the feeling of perpetual sadness and heartache settling in her chest. She body ached with loss and grief, she didn't know how one person could express all those emotions, or even deal with them and still be alive.

A groan rumbled from her throat as she was lifted onto a bed in the ER and a curtain was rapidly drawn around her, she was grateful Maura was still there holding her hand tightly and refusing to be kicked out. The M.E had practically shoved her badge in the doctors face ready to hiss and growl if he tried to make her step out. She was fiercely protective of Jane in this moment of weakness and grief and she refused to be told what she should be doing.

The doctor and his assistant took them into a private room to run a pelvic exam as well as an ultrasound before briskly making their way towards the doors mumbling quietly between one another. Maura hadn't been able to keep still, as a doctor she wanted to help desperately but she had no idea what to do, Jane needed her right beside her holding her hand and so that is where she needed to be the most. She informed the doctor of the cramping Jane had suffered as well as mentioning the heavy blood flow she had woken up surrounded by and the large thick blood clots. Jane heard everything Maura but the words weren't processing properly through her head, it was just noise. Words, endless words. Maura's words. The doctors words. The sounds of the hospital began blurring together and all Jane could focus on was the pain. Endless pain.

Maura paced around Jane's bed as they waited for the doctor to return with results, it wasn't looking good and they both knew that but somehow there was still a ray of hope that they were desperately clinging to. The medical examiner fidgeted anxiously with her fingers as she paced, while Jane lay still as a corpse on the bed the only thing moving were her eyes as she followed Maura around the bed watching her frantically glance up every time she heard someone approaching them.

The two of them hadn't said a word to each other since the doctor had left, there were no words, there was nothing. Jane wanted to pull Maura into her arms and hold her tightly so she wouldn't lose another thing that she loved. The baby had been entirely unexpected and it had almost completely torn Maura and Jane apart but they had put aside all their complications in the recent weeks and begun to accept there was nothing they could do about it. Maura had been almost excited thinking about the prosper of a little Jane running around her house with wild curls and dark eyes. And now it was gone. All of the daydreams, all of the hours spent thinking about how their lives were going to change. Gone. Gone before it had even begun.

The curtain suddenly opened and the doctor came through holding a clipboard, his face showed as much emotion as a piece of granite. Maura almost jumped with fright. She had been avidly waiting for his return, not knowing what was possibly taking him so long, but his return had taken her by surprise as she hadn't really wanted him to come back. She didn't want to know.

"Jane" he said and Jane moved her eyes off of Maura to him, the expression on her face was knowing.

"I'm so sorry" he said and looked down at his clipboard "There was nothing we could do"

Jane just nodded. Maura's hand was clamped over her mouth holding back an angry outburst, she saw death everyday but this was different. This was a life taken before it had even started, that baby, Jane's baby hadn't even got to meet it's mother. See her dark loving eyes looking at it, it never got to see the blue sky or the stars at night. It wasn't fair. It was never fair.

"Do you have any questions?" The doctor said knowing he had to go by procedure and not let emotional trauma of a patient affect him.

Jane shook her head slowly unable to form words. The doctor looked at Maura instead knowing Jane was in shock.

"Get me if you need anything" he told her and Maura nodded.

"Thank you" she forced the words from her mouth.

"I'm really very sorry for your loss" he said before slipping back through the curtain, back into the world of the hospital where there were hundreds of other patients and families in pain, dealing with loss and grief. But on some level in this same building people were welcoming new life into the world, celebrating, being ecstatically happy and coming together as a new family.

As soon as the doctor left Jane looked down at the bed a loud sob escaping the tense and rigid frame of her body. Suddenly letting her emotions loose, no longer restraining them in the confines of her head.

Maura turned to her immediately tears filling her hazel eyes she slid onto the hospital bed and wrapped herself around the brunette tightly in a consoling hug, letting her know she was there and she wasn't going anywhere.

"I'm so sorry" she whispered her forehead resting on the side of Jane's head as the fearlessly strong detective wept.

Hello loves! I'm back, I hope you're all well. This was a bit of a short chapter as I'm still jet lag and very much sleep deprived, I have several assignments due over the next few days but I wanted to get another chapter up I know I left you with a cliffhanger, so here it is.

Let me know your thoughts.

Easter is creeping up fast which means I'll be on break for 2 weeks and hopefully be able to keep the updates coming daily for you. Until then I'll try for another chapter this week but with I really do need to get this uni work done after all the previous procrastinating!

Thank you for all your support. Much love xx