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Author's Note- My house smells like coffee. This is weird because I don't make coffee, I buy it at Starbucks. Coffee smells good, though.

First of three chapters to be posted. Ugh. I hate my internet. Enjoy.

Two years, one month ago

November 19th, 2009

Dear Riku,

Sometimes I like to pretend that I'm still a little kid, that we never left, that I didn't have nightmares. I think Kairi likes to pretend too, I think that's why she kept all of her china dolls.

For one of her birthdays, we pooled our money and went to the toy shop to buy her one, remember? She used to collect them, she must have had ten or fifteen of them, all lined up on a shelf. When we gave it to her she cried. She was so happy, it was the first birthday we were old enough to get each other presents. It had blonde ringlets, and big blue glass eyes that closed when you'd lay it down. Now that I think about it, the thing was really creepy. It's eyes were just... blank, I remember thinking that they were really shiny, and that no one's eyes should be that shiny and empty.

Your eyes were shiny. Not quite as glassy as that doll's, but still glossy and a little gem-like. I don't think any stone had the exact shade of teal as your eyes, it would have been beautiful if there had been one that matched. But your eyes were never really blank around me.

When we first found each other, and Destiny Islands again, you kept your eyes blank.. You were very careful about not letting anything show through, not letting anyone know what you were actually feeling. After a while, I started to break down those walls you put up, some time while you were away. I got you to start talking again, got you to be a little more normal, though we weren't very normal after we came back.

We were too different. Kairi understands, to a certain extent, but she never understood that as much as you did.

I miss you.

Your friend,

Sora

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