(A/N): Hey Guys! So, this is the Twenty-first chapter! Also, have you guys noticed that all the dramatic questions/ answers are coming out in the elevator? I think it's because then Lily can make a quick get away to her room and I don't have to worry about the ending. I really like Seeder as sort of the mother figure in Lily's life, with Chaff acting at the father figure. Now, Haymitch cause Lily Lillian because he likes to annoy her. Now, Alexa Wagner is actually a friend of mine, and I do have a creepy drunk uncle, well, I had one, now he's in a nursing home with alcoholic dementia, and he thinks my name if 'Fred'. Not that I'm complaining, cos it's like I'm Fred Weasley, but I haven't seen him in like, five years because of it.

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Lily

After Johanna and Finnick had calmed down, the other tributes started filing in, and I started ignoring them. I glanced over at the weapons rack opposite me with a look of longing before setting off towards the pommel horse. Pulling myself up, I used the pommels to do a handstand, holding it there for as long as I could, checking out my opponents while the blood rushed to my head. I had almost no hope of winning these games, I wasn't going to delude myself into thinking I could win. When the pressure in my arms got to be too much, I pushed myself off the pommels and landed safely on my feet. I walked towards the rope climbing station and looked up the rope, remembering four years back when Krispen and I had raced our way up them. A quiet, sad little chuckle bubble from between my lips before I could stop it as I thought of how Krispen had been unable to climb even three feet off the bottom without falling to the ground again. Sighing, I moved off to the side of the room and sat with my back against the wall. I looked around the room, tears welling behind my eyes as I watched those who were my friends transform into my greatest enemies. I looked to Katniss and Peeta. Would I be the one to kill them? I would make it quick, if I had to, I decided. No need for them to suffer more than they needed to. I let my head fall back until it too rested against the wall, breathing deeply before exhaling loudly as I stared at the ceiling. I never wanted to kill again. I never wanted to be in these stupid Games again, I never wanted to do any of this again, but here I was, doing exactly what I dreaded. It's either them, or me, and I had already decided who wouldn't be making it out alive.

After training that day I made my way to the elevator as the mentors started filing in to get us. I watched calmly as Katniss and Peeta stood with Haymitch Abernathy, a usually drunk man who was friends with Chaff. They started making their way over to Chaff and I and I focused on Seeder and Salem as they weaved through the crowd ahead of us, trying to reach us.

"'ello 'aymitch." Chaff grinned, the words muddled with his deep voice.

"Chaff." Haymitch nodded, smiling back at him grimly before he caught sight of me. "Well, well, Lilian Faye. I never thought I'd see you back here for the world!" I ignored him, staring straight ahead as Seeder and Salem got closer and closer.

"Why did you volunteer?" I tried my hardest not to wince at the question, keeping my eyes averted.

"Trust me Haymitch, if she would tell us, don't you think I would've told you?" I blinked calmly, hiding my fury at the fact that Chaff would so easily reveal my secrets to Haymitch.

"Well why won't she tell you?" Haymitch asked indignantly, making me force down a smile.

"Well how the bloody 'ell would I know?" Just as the two were about to start an argument over it, Seeder and Salem arrived.

"Okay kids, time to go." I smiled at Seeder politely as she started leading Chaff and I away from Haymitch and Salem turned his head around to wink at me with a lazy grin on his face.

"So, what was that about?" Salem asked, one eyebrow raised as he stared back at me, not at all afraid that he would bump into something while he wasn't looking.

"Nothing much really, just Haymitch and his usually drunken ramblings." Chaff and Seeder both looked back at me scornfully, making me restrain a smile while Salem didn't even bother.

"Of course, why didn't I think of that in the first place?" A quiet giggle passed through my lips, and I felt better than I had in a long while. By the time we made it to the elevator, we had to share the space with Haymitch, Katniss and Peeta, not that I was complaining. Well, about Katniss and Peeta anyway. Haymitch, to me, was like that crazy, drunken uncle who always made rude jokes before nudging you so hard in the side that you fell off your chair. Well, I wouldn't know, because everyone except my adopted family was dead. He just seemed like the uncle of one of my best friends outside my family, Alexa Wagner. We had known her for years, nearly our whole lives really, and she was like a sister to us. She got along great with Finnick, Johanna and Annie too. She had been there for us in times when no one else had, and when we didn't have enough money for food, she lent us whatever extra her family had. She had a large family, but was an only child, even though she had plenty of cousins who acted like they were her siblings. Her mother had died when she was very young, in the same pandemic Daine's parents had, and for that they were very close friends. She had tanned skin like Sasha, but long, dirty blond hair that was as straight as a ruler, framing her heart-shaped face perfectly. Her eyes were hazel and she always wore thick leather pants and a loose plaid shirt. She worked with us in the orchards and had been friends with Rue, Thresh and Krispen all at the same time. All three were dead, killed in the Hunger Games. I had helped mentor Rue and Thresh last year, but I don't think Katniss knew that, having been friends with her.

"So?" Haymitch asked Seeder grumpily. "Do you know what would possess Lillian to return to the arena?" I stared straight ahead, in a military like stance while everyone waited for Seeder to answer.

"Yes." Seeder said reluctantly, causing Salem, Chaff and Haymitch to turn around and face her while I stood there staring smugly at the door.

"Well?" Salem asked impatiently, deciding that more than a few seconds was too long to wait for Seeder to tell them about my life.

"I…I can't tell you." Haymitch, Chaff and Salem groaned and were about to turn around before Seeder finished her sentence. "Just know that she has a very good reason for coming back here. I mean, she's lost more friends here than all of us, Krispen, Thresh, Rue." Katniss' head snapped up at the mention of Rue and I could feel her staring at me.

"Of course, you're from District Twelve! How did you know Rue?" I swallowed lightly before turning to look her in the eye with a blank, and albeit cruel expression if used when talking about my dead friends.

"We worked in the orchard together…and, well… I did train her." At that moment, the doors slid open for the District Eleven floor and I rushed down the hallway and into my room before slipping out of my clothes and turning the shower onto boiling hot.

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