Hello Guys! Here's another chapter... number twenty... I still have a lot of storyline left to this one... a lot of things that need to be resolved before it can end, and some of it is going to be difficult to develop so I hope you can hang in there with me:) i'll do my best to keep it interesting:P so anyways, here you go! Enjoy!
Michelley P.
Chapter 20: Afraid
I folded my arms, unfolded them, and folded them again. I ran my fingers through my hair and tried to steady my breathing. I've never been one to act on impulse, but here I was, standing on Chris Keller's front steps. It had been only five seconds since I knocked on his door and I was already infuriated from being in such proximity to anything that belonged to him. I watched as he peeked out the window and winked at me. Rolling my eyes, I shifted my weight to the other foot and waited for him to open the door.
"I was wondering when you'd finally come around." He smirked.
"What the hell did you say to Nathan?" I spat at him. He had that annoying grin on his face that made me want to punch him. He folded his arms on his chest the same way I had, so I unfolded mine and he laughed.
"Nathan?" he laughed again, "I haven't even seen him, how is he doing anyways?" He smiled. I just raised one eyebrow at him and shook my head in annoyance.
"Nice try..." I said lowly, "I know you said something to him, I'm not stupid."
"You had a chance to get freaky with the Keller and didn't, that calls for pretty stupid if you asked me." He grinned his self-righteous grin.
"You're a disgusting pig." I snapped. God, I hated him so much.
His shoulders slumped and he stepped out on the step towards me. His stupid grin faded and he looked at me with seriousness, "Hales, I was just kidding. I'm sorry... what's going on with you and Nathan?"
"Oh! Like I'd tell you!" I chuckled. "I know you must have said or did something to him... and I swear to God when I find out what it was..." Before I could finish, his hand clenched my arm tightly. I stared at it, memories of one dreadful night underneath his grasp came crashing back. His touch was as forceful as it was that night when his hands roamed my body. "Get your dirty hands off of me!" I ripped my arm from him and walked down the driveway. Glancing back at him, I noticed that he looked somewhat defeated, as if he really did regret everything he had ever said or done.
"Haley!" He called after me, but I kept walking away, "I didn't even see Nathan yet! I swear!" And then I heard his house door close in the distance as I strode away.
When I got home I sat on my front steps. My parents were inside, and I noticed my father peak out every now and then to make sure I was okay. I actually thought it was insane, but I smiled in at him let him know I was. It was as though suddenly, they'd become the parents they should have been all along. Checking in on school, talking to us about friends and work... it was crazy, but I really liked it. I saw Nathan at the end of my drive. The sun was really bright but I was still chilly out and I could see his breath as he walked. I smiled. He looked great, as usual. His dark hair was tousled as if he just got out of bed, and his hands were shoved in his pockets. I began to stand, thinking that he had come to see me, work this out. But he didn't even see me standing there. He turned and went over near the garage where David and Lucas were tinkering with David's motorbike. They nodded at him and greeted him, but I couldn't hear what they were saying because David's music was too loud. But then, Nathan and Lucas walked away from David to talk, at the back of the garage. Nosey? Yes! I walked around the house to the back, sitting on the corner of the house near the wall where they couldn't see me.
"You really pissed Haley off didn't you?" I heard Lucas laughed. My dad's van was park next to me, and I could see their reflections in the side of it. I could have swore at one point Nathan made eye contact with me in the reflection, but he went on talking to Lucas.
"Yeah... but we all know whose fault it really is." Nathan snapped.
"Nate! God! Please don't tell me you broke up with Haley because of some lame things I said when I was drunk!" I heard Lucas moan. I caught my breath in my throat. Lucas had made me accuse Chris of being the reason Nathan had been such a jerk. But it was just a way to cover himself up.
"Haley and I are not broken up." Nathan said quickly, which made me smile. "Not yet anyways." My smile faded. I felt like jumping up and attacking Lucas for ruining everything, but what could he have said to have such an impact.
"Nathan!" Lucas practically yelled, "Please don't throw all of this away because of some lame-ass thing I let slip."
"Lame-ass thing?" Nathan choked, "Lucas! You're my best friend and you're in love with my girlfriend. Who happens to be YOUR BEST FRIEND!" I gasped. Bevin had been right all along. I heard footsteps next to me and looked up to see Chase. He gave me a confused look but I lifted my finger to my mouth to keep him quiet. He nodded and sat next to me on the ground.
"What do you want me to say? That I didn't mean any of it? God! What are you worried about? There's not one guy around that will stand a chance with her while you're around. You've had her called since you first came here!" Lucas yelled back. "And you're being a prick to her just because I said that? It makes no sense! There had to be other reasons!"
I watched as Nathan's reflection shifted nervously. "What?" Lucas said quieter.
"I think I'm leaving again." Nathan said simply. My heart pounded. He was leaving again. As in, leaving me here, going out there, gone.
"Wow..." Lucas breathed. Chase was at my side, staring at me with confusion and pity. "When?"
"Just before Christmas." Nathan whispered.
"WHY?"
"My mom's... sick. And Jeff needs more workers so." Nathan explained.
"Shit... Haley's going to be a mess." At first I agreed with Lucas. I would be a mess. But in a way I thought this was pathetic. I didn't want Nathan to leave but it was sad that everyone automatically assumed I'd fall apart when he left. As if I couldn't stand on my own two feet.
"I hope not." Nathan lifted his hands to his face and sighed.
"Haley didn't even mention it." Lucas added.
"She doesn't know." Nathan simply stated. Sorry Nathan, yes I do! I looked over at Chase with my lip quivering. He just bit his lip and stared at me, then I fell into his chest and tried my best to keep my sobbing as low as possible. In the reflection I saw Nathan walk away, and I saw Lucas just standing there for a second. I could have swore I saw him smile. Jerk. Chase rubbed my back as I cried. But it didn't last long, because I didn't cry for long. I took a deep breath and thought about it. What was I crying about? I 've done this before! And as much as I loved Nathan, I didn't need him to dictate who I was. I could live without him couldn't I? Wether I could or I couldn't didn't matter, because no matter what Nathan was leaving so I'd have to learn to live without him again.
Chase smiled at me and rubbed my back again, "You're going to be fine Hales." I nodded at him and looked away, terrified.
You say its nothing personal Everything keeps telling me to run away I hate it how I let it control me from so far away Everything keeps telling me to run away Goodbye forever
As you break out and you lay out youre whole arsenal
I fell hard for you
I count scars from you
You play with my life
And I pay with my life
Now you own me
Everything keeps telling me to run run run
I never listen
Now you own me, now you own me
I cant wait for the day
You wont be able to say
That you made me pay
With these words that you use
And the things that you say
You whisper in my ear
You bring me to tears
Now you own me
Everything keeps telling me to run run run
I never listen
Now you own me
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Michelley P.