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Chapter 21:

Leaning against the sink, Arthur couldn't help his mind from wondering. He was thinking about that, that thing he was hiding from Ben. That thing that as a doctor he knew was the main cause, trigger of what he was going through. It wasn't his grandfather, his grandfather was good to him. It was someone closer to him.

He'd mentioned it before with the pressure, but he'd never said what happened. It wasn't physical, no way, it was words and all through his childhood it was present. He guessed it's what made him who he was today.

Flashback

10 year old Arthur sat in his room, holding his hands over his ears, blocking out the noise. His parents were arguing, again. He hated it. If he went downstairs, they would just take their anger out on him. Telling to go and redo his homework, tidy his room when he'd already tidied it a million times and when his dad would get so mad he'd blame Arthur, when none of it was his fault.

Arthur sat there in his room, praying that after this his parents woukd break-up and he'd never have to see them again. His mum was a control freak and stressed a lot, while his father was laid back and only cared about his son doing the family name proud. However for a 10 year old, this family life was too much.

Arthur decided to be brave and go downstairs to check on his mum; that's just the kind of caring person he was. He stood up and could hear his dad shouting, it was like the shouting he did when Arthur got a bad score in a test. His dad was always pushing for Arthur to be the best, always. But he had to be brave, after all, all 10 year olds where brave. He walked over to his bedroom door and opening it, the noise of his parents hit him and it took all his might to not walk back into room and shut the door.

He carefully walked down the stairs, being careful not to alert his parents. As he reached the bottom of the stairs, he couldn't work out which room his parents were in despite their shouting being so loud that the neighbours would hear. He slowly walked into the living room, his breath catching in his throat and a thin layer of sweat had just lined his forehead.

His parents weren't in the living room, which meant they were in the kitchen. As he walked over to the kitchen door, he was about to push it open when the conversation took a turn.

"It's not just you that's stressing me out!" His mum shouted to his father. "Well what is then?" His dad asked, his patience wearing thin. "Arthur, Arthur is stressing me out!"

Arthur frowned, he knew that he stressed his dad out but not his mum. How? It more like the other way round, her constant worrying would stress out Arthur. He had to change, had to start doing things right, not making any mistakes and pleasing them. The bottom line, he had to change and he would start then.

"When do you think we should start looking?" Fletch asked. They'd been waiting for nearly ten minutes and Arthur hadn't shown up. "Right you go and check the toilets, I'm going to look around here and then if we can't find him, we'll go and inform Serena." Fletch nodded at Ben's instructions and walked off in the direction of the toilets.

Arthur was still leaning against the sink, but somehow he'd managed to calm him body down. His breathing was shaky but his body wasn't trembling; this was good. He heard the door open and tried to calm his panic. "Arthur, you in here?" Arthur could tell straight away that it was Fletch and that meant he needed to calm down. He took a few deep breaths and then got himself ready to talk.

"Yep" he replied, still taking the deep breaths. "Everything alright?" Fletch asked as he came into the toilets. By looking at Arthur he could tell something had happened, but he didn't know what. "You sure?" Fletch asked. "Yeah" Arthur replied, trying to sound confident. Fletch could tell from the breathlessness in Arthur s voice that he'd had some sort of attack, but if he's been able to control it then that means that Ben is right to be thinking about discharge.

"We've been looking for you, didn't know whether you'd done a runner" Fletch said smiling and Arthur to his surprise smiled back. "I think Ben wants to talk to you if you're ready" Fletch said. Arthur looked at himself in the mirror and thought. He knew he had to tell Ben what he'd just remembered, it might be his only chance of getting discharged. It going to be hard and Arthur was debating in his head, he was sure that Ben had clocked that he was holding something back.

Taking a deep breath Arthur took his hands away from the sink and stood up straight. He straightened out his t-shirt and his ruffled. He'd only just realised that he'd been wearing to same clothes for around six weeks, he'd must have smelt really bad. Turning to face Fletch, who he noticed looked worries but then relieved at the same time, he smiled and nodded. "Yeah, let's go" he said and followed Fletch out.

"Raf, you haven't seen Arthur have you?" Ben asked as he approached Raf after he'd finished with a patient. "Erm no sorry i haven't, has something happened?" Raf asked starting to get concerned about Arthur. "I don't know, he said he was going to the toilet about 10 minutes ago but he hasn't came back" Ben explained and Raf nodded.

Like Fletch, he too could remember the last time Arthur went missing; it didn't end well. He was hoping that it was nothing but as always with Arthur there was always something going on in the back of his head. "Fletch has to look for him now" Ben and Raf smiled when he seen who was behind them. "And it looks like he found him."

Ben turned around to come face to face with Arthur and Fletch. He was relieved more than anything. Arthur was looking around but Ben could tell that there was something different about him. He seemed more confident. "You alright?" Ben asked and was surprised when Arthur looked at him. "I'm ready" Arthur replied.

So there's the thing Arthur had been hiding. I hope it's not too disappointing but it fits in with Arthur's story and I know we don't know much about Arthur's background but I hope we find out soon.

Thank you for reading, please review I would love to know what you think :)

Also I loved the most recent episode of Holby, Arthur's back on Keller :) but i think I might miss him on AAU.

See you next chapter, for the last chapter :)