Title: Selling My Body, Selling My Heart

Chapter 21: Perfection Lies Ahead

So here we are... Me, Jimmy, Hazel, Paige, and Sean were all in the car and driving off somewhere to get married. Where? I don't know. I know we're getting eloped, but when it comes to details, I'd rather not know. Despite Jimmy being the love of my life and rich, I was scared to a bloody death. In just a couple of minutes, James Tyler Brooks is going to be my husband. Admittingly, the word husband just rolled of my tongue, despite the high sense of fear I'm experiencing.

"So you guys are really going to get eloped?" Sean poked his head to the front of the car and looked to the left at Jimmy. "For real?"

Jimmy looked over at me and smiled. "Yes." He said, almost mimicking me of answering his proposal half and hour ago.

"Mrs. Jimmy Brooks." Hazel sung in the back of the car.

"Mrs. Ellie Brooks." Paige followed, singing in the same tune as Hazel.

"I love you, Elanor Brooks." Jimmy said, grabbing my hand and kissing it softly.

Maybe being a wife isn't as horrible as it sounds the first time in your head. Yeah, I can imagine waking up to Jimmy everyday. I mean, I don't exactly see us living in a big pink brick house with little children running in our backyard and a little house dog named Scruffy, but I can see us. It won't be perfect, but it never really is. At the final moment of deciding I was going to marry Jimmy, we drove into the driveway of a lumber house near a beach.

"Yeah, this is it, right here." Sean said, confirming the location after a quick peek at the sheet at hand.

Jimmy looked over at me. I was looking in his face for the smallest hint of fear but I couldn't find any. He smiled and laid his palm out for me. I placed my palm on his and forced a smile on my face. Afterwards, I stepped out and walked toward the door. Before I can answer, an old couple opened the door and smiled.

Sean, Hazel, and Paige followed behind the both of us and sat in one of the rows of chairs that were lined up. I already decided to marry Jimmy, but a part of me was still scared. Suddenly, I see Paige sitting down with tender eyes looking at mines. For a moment I could swear she called me over but her mouth didn't move. I walked over to her in a moment's notice and sat next to her.

"Paige..." I spoke as if I was ready to ask a question.

"You're scared, aren't you hun?" Paige placed her hands on my knees. "Don't worry about the fear. Weddings are hard enough already, much less, eloping." She spoke as if she had already been married. "If you love him and you know he loves you back, then you're gonna survive."

I let out a deep sigh and gave Paige a soft hug. Looking in her face, I can tell she was forcing a disfigured face so she wouldn't admit she liked me. I cleared my throat and walked off. I could practically hear the corners of her mouth curl up.

Before I could breath in enough oxygen, Jimmy signed the papers and now we were standing before a colored glass and the elder man holding a bible in front his hands. Jimmy stood in front of me with a smile on his face. I looked over to the seat and Hazel, Sean, and Paige were all smiling greatly as they looked across the room at us.

"Jimmy... I'm... not so sure anymore."

Jimmy looked over at the elder man for a second and nodded. "Ellie... if you don't want to, you don't have to."

"It's not that. I do, I really do. It's just... I always pictured everything so... perfect. I know this sounds weird coming from me, but I always wanted the perfect white wedding." I could feel my heart pounding against my breast. During sentences, I could swear the ground made a shake and the room heard the sounds of my thrusting organ.

"Then let's wait... Let's have the perfect wedding." Jimmy said, grabbing my hands and looking down on me.

"But that's just it. It won't ever be perfect. Life isn't perfect. I'm not perfect-"

"I'm not perfect either Ellie. I try so hard to be the perfect guy but it always turns out the opposite at moments. We all got flaws. Even in marriage. I'm willing to take the risk of a young marriage because I love you, and I'm willing to turn around, because I love you."

"I love you too Jimmy." I wiped away a numb tear that caressed my cheek. I looked around the room and realized that everyone that meant something to me was here. The 4 people in my life who cares are sitting here. Maybe you don't always need the jumping dolphins and white rice to make a wedding perfect. All you need is someone who loves you and everyone else. Whether it be the guy who broke your heart and left you without a dime, the girl who helped you during the time your alcoholic mother caused you to cut yourself, or the girl who just broke up with the guy who can be your husband in just 2 easy words. I looked up at Jimmy and smiled.

"So what's it going to be, Nash...?" He asked me in that moment.

As the car drove off the driveway, I waved back at the elder couple and watched them shrink into tiny ants.

"I'm sorry, Ellie." He said to me as he kept his eyes on the road.

"No, Jimmy. The wedding was just as perfect, even without the white doves and roses."

"Not that. I'm sorry I'm not perfect anymore." He looked at the back of the seat where the 3 of them were all sleeping on each other.

"I'm not either, Jimmy. We take life as it comes and now, regardless of the wedding or not, we're gonna take life everyday as it comes. I'm not perfect either but when I'm with you... I'm... happy." I lied, he was still as perfect as he ever was. In that moment, I noticed that he never said I wasn't perfect.

"For some reason, I still feel guilty about the wedding. I just wish it was more of what you dreamed of. Even if it was perfect or not, it's like I ruined a part of your past that you always imagined."

"Regardless of Brooks being on the end of my name or not, the only thing I imagine is you being with me from now own. You're the peanut butter, and I'm the Jellie." I reached over and gave Jimmy what could've been the most passionate kiss we ever shared, even if his hands were on the wheel. "Even if my name wasn't Ellie Brooks today, It would've been that name someday."

And now we both drove to the future of our lives. I got the best man of my life with me, my best friends in my life with me, and sooner or later, the best ex-boyfriend of my life with me. After everything we been through today, I can just imagine what walking into the school is going to be like. I sold my body and soul to almost every guy who graced the halls of Degrassi. But I only sold my heart to Jimmy, and this time, he's not giving it back.

THE END

A/N: Where to start? I left it in a questionable form on purpose. I thought it would be a better ending if people always wondered if they got married or not. Heck, in my mind, I'm still wondering. And did anyone notice that little "Jellie" thrown in there? Anyway, it was really fun making this story and I'm glad I got to finish it. I want to thank MaibeJosie for reviewing(because all you other readers didn't!!!hmph), and if you guys liked the Elan/Sellie interaction in this, then it was inspired from MaibeJosie's very own work called "Numb", so if you liked it, please go read her work, it's awesome. Once again, thank you all for reading and reviewing and I guess this is the final good-bye.