Benny's blood was boiling as he made it into his apartment. How could Jason want to give up on everything he had worked his entire life for, give up on his team, and especially give up on him. He really needed a shower and to shave but sleep seemed more inviting than dealing with the anger he had at the moment. He laid down and sleep overtook him. After a little bit of sleep he got his shower, shaved, put on a polo and jeans, nicer than the sweats and t-shirt he had been wearing for most of a week, and headed back to the hospital. He could feel it in his gut something was wrong. He knew he had been really harsh on Jason and quitting was a bit rash. But he had to get through to Jason somehow. The atmosphere of the ICU floor was strange, a different smell hit Benny's nose as he came close to Jason's room. He had often heard that death had it's own smell. There was a lot of patients in the ICU, one of them must have passed. What he couldn't prepare for was when he entered Jason's room. The team was standing around holding each other. He looked over at Jason who had been awake when he left, no was lying unnaturally still. He looked at the heart monitor and prayed someone was playing a dirty trick on him.
"What is going on?" Benny panicked.
"Benny, Jason's gone. Shortly after you left he had a massive heart attack." Chunk said placing his hands on Benny's shoulders.
"He's gone?" benny whispered.
"Yeah and it's all your fault. If you hadn't of gotten him so upset he would still be alive." Marissa yelled out at Benny as she hit his chest.
"I didn't mean to make him that upset." Benny could feel the tears threatening to fall from his eyes.
"Before his last breath he was asking for you. Said he forgave you." Dani sniffled.
"If you guys knew he was having a massive heart attack, why didn't you call me? I could have been here! I could have said goodbye!" Benny cried as he looked at Jason's lifeless body and his unnaturally pale skin.
"You're not a part of the team. We are a family. We don't walk out or quit when things don't go our way." Cable said. "Dr. Bull wanted you here…but we don't. You were the only person he wanted to see but you turned your back on him."
"I didn't mean anything I said. Please I am so sorry. I would never try to hurt him." Benny said as he broke down. He made his way over to Jason's bed and picked up his limp hand.
"I am so sorry Jason. Sorry for not being here for you in your final moments, sorry that I was the one that caused this much pain for you. I wish I could hear your voice just once more." Benny cried.
"Benny we are trying to grieve our boss and friend here and we can't do that with you in the room. You are not welcome here." Marissa spat.
"Please Marissa I'm sorry." Benny wailed.
Chunk ushered Benny out of the room as he cried hysterically.
"Please I thought we were a team." Benny pleaded.
"We were…but you tore that apart." Chunk said as he shut the door to Jason's ICU room.
Benny stood outside stunned and shocked. What had he done? All he knew to do was cry, for the team and friendship he had lost. It was in that moment that he finally understood what Jason meant about being alone.