Probably, Maybe
A/N: Welcome to Kyoko/Ren Ship week 2017-if anybody wanted to remember, I never actually finished the prompts from last year. I was missing 'truth' so it's only really dreadfully ironic that our first topic is 'lie' this year.
So I covered both topics (kinda) and I hope you guys like it!
At first, it was really easy to lie about my feelings for Tsuruga-san.
Kinship and respect feel so much alike to love to the hardened heart. So I lied to myself to protect my own broken heart and I lied to everybody else to maintain this same front.
It was easy, still, when I accepted Tsuruga-san as a teacher as well as a friend. Nobody blinks an eye when adamant affection is translated and displayed as a close friendship (in hindsight-some people blinked their eyes but goodness knows I was focused on a hundred million other things).
And then Cain and Setsu happened.
It became nearly impossible to hide my feelings. President Lory had me figured out and yet by the skin of my teeth, Tsuruga-san never put the same pieces together (but maybe that's because he had his own demons to deal with).
So I just kept lying.
(To make it easier for Tsuruga-san.)
(Probably.)
I used this love to cultivate myself. Establish my very own Mogami Kyoko that nobody could take away from me. But whenever Tsuruga-san comes around-everything falls to hell. My cheeks go red and I stutter and I use every power of my being to try and act as we used to when we were on set together. And sometimes I think he's getting a hint of my feelings-but he just keeps smiling and never leaves me.
Sometimes I think he's going to say something to be about it. But he'll stop himself and shake his head and maybe change the topic. He smiles, of course.
And I get hopeful that maybe he's lying about something, too.
(At the back of my mind, I know better than to hope.)
But one day I'll stop with all my silly lies.
And I'll tell the truth.
(Probably.)
~FIN~