Somewhere Only We Know.
While Emmett hunted I was working in the studio with Edward lingering around the house. Esme was meeting with me so she could see my designs that she was curious about, Alice shopping and Jasper and Carlisle were hunting with Emmett. I just plugged the iPad in with the Mac for my Mac to be updated with my latest designs when I heard the piano start to play a different tune I never hear before. It was a melody that would only be played by the broken hearted. If the song had lyrics they weren't praising someone heavily. I heard someone start to sing and I recognized it as Edward's voice.
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
What was he talking about? A pathway he knew like the back of his hand? How could a river make you feel complete?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
If he was talking out our past relationship, there was nothing simple about it, if that was the simple thing. He wasn't getting old; he had all eternity to live. He stopped singing but he still played. I channeled in on his thoughts and he was singing in his head.
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
I knew what he was singing about, it was the meadow, because as he sang he thought about or trips to the meadow and he thought about me.
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Suddenly the music stopped and the singing in his head stopped. I found myself unable to work now that I knew Edward was still hurting over Emmett and me dating. I know your listening Bella. Edward thought. Don't you remember it? He asked. Don't you remember the meadow? How much fun that summer was? If you remember it come to the meadow tonight at 7, if you're a no show, I'll back off. I will leave and let you and Emmett live your life. He invited I was about to yell an answer when I heard him leave.
There was a knock on the door and I went to answer it. It was Esme. "Hello Dear." She smiled.
"Hello Esme." I smiled and let her in.
"Wow, I love the studio." She said.
"You haven't seen it yet?" I asked.
"Nope." She said shaking her head.
"But it's in your house?" I laughed.
"I never used this room so I had no need to come in here yet while I've been here."
I nodded understanding and she sat down on one of the island stools and I brought over the iPad and I pulled up my design files. She scrolled through my latest designs and saw a few nursery ideas. She saw one that was a baby boy nursery and underneath is said Ethan Alexander Cullen as a caption.
"Oh Bella." She sighed she didn't know how to react.
"I'm not pregnant obviously." I said. "But I designed that when I was human and I was waiting for Emmett to come home from Alaska."
"I'm sorry that must be frustrating, a matter of fact it is frustrating." Esme said. "I struggle with the idea of no children on a daily bases."
"I come to realize I've got great God children to fill my void." I said, "I've got Jackson and he's the cutest kid I've ever seen." I said.
"Do you have a picture?" Esme asked. I nodded and woke the Mac up from its sleep and there was a picture of Emmett, Jackson and I.
"Emmett's a God Father huh?" Esme smiled as she mused over the picture.
"Yeah, he loves Jackson so much." I said.
"I wish he would have told us what he's been up to." Esme said.
"So do I." I said. "You have no idea how much I wanted to go with him to Alaska with him all the times he went to visit."
"I wish he brought you." Esme said. "We could have saved a lot of grief."
"Well, we're all here now and that's all that counts." I suggested.
"Exactly." Esme agreed and continued to look over my designs.
Emmett came home around 5 and Edward still wasn't home. I was contemplating whether to go or not. "Something wrong Doll?" Emmett asked as he brushed a tear away. I was human again, I did that sponge trick on Carlisle and I got an immortal to mortal talent.
I sniffed and laughed as I realized I was crying. "I um, have to go out tonight with Edward." I said.
"You don't have to do anything." Emmett snarled.
"No, I have to give him peace." I said.
"By giving him what he wants?"
"What do you think he wants?" I asked.
"He brought up that damn meadow because he wants to try and get you back, can you not see that?" Emmett shouted angry as he pushed me away.
"He needs closure Emmett!" I screamed now that it was becoming a screaming match. We hadn't fought since I was a new born; it was the only way to get rid of the stress. I was stressed because I felt like I was losing Emmett and Emmett was stressed because of watching after me constantly and feeling like he was losing me. "He will leave if I don't go tonight!" I yelled.
"LET HIM LEAVE, LATER!"
I was appalled by how willing Emmett was to let his brother go. "I can't believe you just said that!" I said. "You think Edward is just some dirt you can blow away and forget about, he is a person just like you and I who have feelings too! He said he would leave us alone if I went, I'm doing this for us!"
"Are you kidding me, he treated you like some dirt too and brushed you off that day he left!"
"And he's had hell to pay for it and I think after years of that incident happening it's time we all let it go damn it!"
"I can't believe you're taking his side, he hurt you, and don't you get it?" Emmett shouted standing in front of me now.
"Imagine the situation reversed and you were in Edward's shoes!" I said lowering my shouts. "Wouldn't you want me to give you closure so you could move on?"
"Yeah but…" Emmett trailed at a loss for words.
"But what!" I yelled, "It's the same thing Emmett, it's not like I am running back to him with open arms!"
"Fine, go but don't say I told you so." Emmett said.
"I will." I said.
"Good riddance." He muttered. I was stunned he just told me to leave and never come back basically. I was disgusted with him.
"You're unbelievable." I muttered and went to the studio slamming the bedroom door behind me.
He didn't come after me until I had grabbed my iPad that normally stays at the studio and my things that I keep in the backroom if I stayed over. I locked up the studio and walked down the stairs and left my keys on the counter and I peered down at my promise ring and slid it off. Tears dripped from my eyes and they wouldn't stop. I left a note saying I would be coming back later to get my studio belongings and I left only looking back once to see the Cullens watch me leave.
I changed back into vampire and ran to Charlie's and I left my things in my room changing back into human just in case Charlie were to see me. I needed someone to hold me and tell me I was going to be okay and I gathered myself. I reapplied makeup and fixed my hair. I looked at the clock and it was only 5:30. I decided to go see my Jackson and Emily and Sam before headed to the meadow to tell Edward I didn't want him or care for him that way.
I walked into the house of the Uley's and I heard Jackson cry from the living room and I walked in and I he was there in his crib and I smiled down at him and he stopped as I picked him up. "Hey there little man." I cooed and he grinned his toothless grin.
"Hey Bella." Sam greeted as he walked in.
"Hey Sam." I greeted. "Is your wifey around?" I asked.
"No she ran to the store." He said.
"Right." I muttered. "Where were you?" I asked. "You know you can't just leave Jackson by himself.
"I was down at the shed." He said, "In hearing distance of the sleeping child." He defended.
"Sorry, it's been a rough day." I said.
"What happen?" He asked.
"Um, it's a long story," I said. "To make things short, Edward wants to meet up with me and Emmett and I got in a fight over it." I balanced Jackson in one arm and held out the hand that used to be home to my promise ring.
"Oh my God everything will get better won't it?" Sam asked.
"I don't know, I sure hope so, I was hoping Em was here so she could tell me what to do!" I said and I looked down to Jackson who was now asleep in my arms.
"Well, I think that you need to go Edward hear him out and then work it out with Emmett." Sam suggested.
"Thanks Sam, that's good advice." I smiled and he grinned happy with himself for giving good advice, Emily was always the one you went to for good advice.
"Oh and you're human?" Sam pointed out.
I smiled, "Yeah new talent thanks to Carlisle."
"You must be God now with all the talents you have now." Sam laughed.
I giggled. "No, I am no God, if I were God I wouldn't be here right now and I would be in Emmett's arms."
"No matter what happens you'll always have the pack and you'll still be Jackson's God Mother, I know how high you hold that title." He chuckled.
"I do don't I?" I smiled. "I love Jackson as if he were my own son he's a good kid."
"Yeah he doesn't cry throughout the night, only if he gets to bed late at night." Sam chuckled as I sat him down back in his crib.
"I better get going, maybe Edward's there early and I can get back to Emmett earlier." I said.
"Doesn't hurt to try." Sam smiled and I gave him a hug goodbye. "See you later and keep us posted."
"I will." I smiled and as I walked past the beach I saw Jacob with a girl. I recognized her as one of my new clients Sophia Manzoni. Jacob leaned his head into Sophia and their lips came together for Jacob's first kiss. I had never kissed Jacob over the two week period we dated and I felt hot hands come up on my shoulders and it was Embry.
"Hey, look at this sight." I smiled and I pointed to Jacob.
"You know the chick?" Embry asked.
"Yeah, she's one of my new clients, Sophia Manzoni, she is very rich, she own the huge house a few miles from here, I am redoing every room in the house to a modern up scale it'll take me about 6 months." I said.
"Damn, 6 months?" Embry gasped.
"There's 20 rooms in the house." I said.
"Wow, Jacob struck gold." Embry laughed and I laughed with him,
"You think they'll come up for air?" I asked.
"I don't know let's see." Embry smiled and put his fingers in his mouth and whistled to them. I looked away and so did Embry we started cracking up when they stopped.
"Alright I've got to go." I smiled. "I've got to meet Edward." I said.
"Edward, what do you want with that douche bag?" Embry asked.
"He wants to talk to me and at someone does because Emmett and I aren't on speaking terms, he told me I was stupid for going to talk to Edward and he told me good riddance." I said.
"I knew the Cullens weren't any good to you." He muttered.
"No, we will get through it I just have to talk to Edward and see what he wants." I said.
"Well let me know if you need anything." he said and I nodded.
"See you later." I smiled and I turned vampire once I hit the forest edge. I kind of forgot the trail to the meadow but I had time to get lost and figure out where it was. I walked along the forest paths leading to hunting grounds and lakes. I chose one that I didn't recognize and I walked it until I smelled the flowers and Edward's scent all over the trees. I looked out and saw the grass was green and the air smelled like spring. I changed into a human and Edward walked out of the other side of the meadow trees and smiled to me.
"I'm glad you came." Edward said as he sat down on the ground.
"Hey." Was my brilliant answer; this better be good.
"Come sit." Edward said patting the spot next to him. I sat about a good foot away from him and he smiled.
"Why did I have to come here again?" I asked as the sun started to set.
"Because you remember the meadow." Edward sighed, "We sat here for hours at a time and just talked and hung out."
"Yeah…" I said awkwardly as Edward was getting caught up in the past. Soon it just got creepy and I had to put it to a stop. "Alright Edward, that was the past, I want to talk to you." I said.
"Go ahead." Edward allowed.
"I want you to know that I am in love with Emmett, we were practically engaged." I said.
"Were?" Edward asked.
"He told me good riddance because I was coming here." I swallowed.
"He brushed you off just like that!" Edward snarled.
"You did too." I said.
"But that was different I did it for your safety." He said and got up. "I'm gunna kill him."
"Let's not kill him." I said.
"No, no one tells you good riddance!" Edward said and ran off before I could change back into a vampire. I changed and I followed his scent and I chased after him. I heard yelling and screaming in the house as I approached the yard.
"YOU KILLED HER, AND I PICKED UP THE PIECES!" I heard Emmett scream.
"YOU TOLD YOUR NEAR FIANCEE GOOD RIDDANCE! ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS TALK TO HER NOT TRY AND TAKE HER FROM YOU!" Edward screamed.
I got into the house and ran to where I smelled the action. Edward had Emmett in a death hold and was about to snap his neck and kill him.
"STOP!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and forced Edward's hands to become paralyzed.
Tears flooded my eyes as I changed into a human, I liked being human more than immortal. "If you kill him I will never ever forgive you!" I sobbed. "I've lost the love of my life once, and when I find my true soul mate, you try and kill him?"
"Bella…" Edward sighed still not able to move.
"You have something wrong with you." I cried I couldn't see anything with the amount of tears coming to the edge of my eyes. Esme took me in her arms and tried to console me but I wiggled out of her grasp. "There is something loose in your head and belong in a mental institution."
"I can explain…" Edward said releasing Emmett as the hands started to work again because of me not being immortal to make it last.
"I don't want an explanation, I don't want you to talk to me, I don't want you to love me in anyway, I want you to loathe me, I want you to disappear, Emmett was right, I shouldn't have gone to the meadow, and you said if I didn't go you would leave us alone and leave."
"I understand." Edward said and started to walk out. He hesitated as he passed me and left. Esme followed him out and it was just Emmett and I in the room.
"Emmett." I sobbed again and he scooped me up in his arms. He let a dry sob come and the near death experience was burning in the back of my mind.
"Doll, I am so sorry, I didn't mean it." Emmett said sniffling back another sob.
"I know," I said as I took in his scent. "I love you."
"Doll, I love you more than anything in the world." Emmett said and pulled out my promise ring from his pocket. He held my hand up and put it on my hand. "I believe these are yours too." He smiled and dangled the keys in the air. I nodded and took them and put them in my own pocket. "Let's never fight again."
"Promise?" I tested.
"I promise." Emmett swore, "Well at least not until we're married, when we are stuck to each other and there is no way to get rid of one another."
"I can't wait to be stuck with you forever."
"We soon will be, and that's a promise I will bet my life on." Emmett smiled and kissed my lips softly.