Chapter Twenty-One – Fear

Fear. Pure, undiluted fear rippled through my mind and body.

This was more terrifying than the Volturi.

More frightening than My Everything being hurt.

Scarier than Twilight Moms.

Kyla found my razors.

'Seth! How could you! I thought you were getting better!' she yells. My fear increases and I curl into the couch.

My Elemental goes off at me, ranting and raving about my 'emo' tendencies! I'm terrified. This perfect being is scary when she's mad.

After what seemed like an age, my Everything sighs and calms down.

She walks out of the room. I look down.

My arms look like a zebra, with the scars so frequent they look like stripes. I feel faintly ashamed that I caused Kyla to go off.

Kyla walks back in, carrying a large bag.

'I've been through the entire house. Any knives, razors or anything that can be used for self-harm are in this bag. You're not getting them back until you're over your emo,' she tells me.

I nod numbly, stand and kiss her gently on the cheek.

She looks away and sits on the cough, shoving the bag between the cushions and her body.

Hanging my head, I turn and move to the kitchen.

I sit at the kitchen table, dwelling in my guilt.

I need to make Kyla feel happy again. My body physically needed to make my imprint feel better.

I dig into my pocket. Empty.

Fear rips through my head. I dash to my bedroom. I rummage through my drawers, check all over.

Finally, I find the small box beneath my pillow. I pick it up and cradle it to my chest.

I know how to make my Everything smile.

I swallow the fear rising in my chest.

I move to the kitchen and peek into the lounge.

Kyla is still sitting on the couch, this time reading a book. She seems lost in her world, but I know she's waiting for me to come talk to her.

I open the box and examine the contents.

The glittering ring winked back at me.

Thankyou Jasper! I thought.

He, Bella and Alice gave me this under the provision that Alice gets to organise the wedding.

I watch my everything read. She is still unhappy, I can tell.

I look once more at the ring before closing the box.

I slowly place the box in my pocket, before walking to her perfect form.

I kneel in front of my Everything. I pull at the box. I swallow my fear.

I am on one knee, box in front of me. I look at Kyla, she hasn't looked up from her book. She doesn't look at me.

'Kyla…' I begin, unsure.

My Elemental interrupts me without even looking up.

'No.'

A.N. ~ ...

Lena: She said NO?

WHAT?

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Just Until next time

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Jerri xoxo

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