A/N:
Hey guys,
I have been a nice person and given you 2 chapters in one day. But I can also be evil...
As you guys may have noticed both Nico and Elisabeth's POVS were left on cliffhangers. Iszy and Olivia's will now be left on cliffhangers.
And I will not be updating until I get some reviews so mahahahahaha! Enjoy the anticipation.
Olivia
Everything was simpler when we were children. Every fight had a resolution. Our biggest worry was being on Santa's bad list. Every problem we had could be solved by a few soothing words by mum. Not any-more though. Its ironic really how we would lie awake at night as kids wishing to grow up. Now, we have discovered life Is shit. We wish nothing more than to be that age again, where how many presents we got under the tree was our biggest concern.
Everything harder now. Life is harder. I pick up the half empty bottle of whisky and take a reasonable gulp of its contents. Hissing at the vile strength of the substance in my mouth I grit my teeth.
He is out there somewhere. I have no doubt in my mind he is. But 'out there' isn't working for me any more. I need more than that. I need to know him. To be so wrapped up in his arms you don't know where I start and he ends. I want to be wanted. And I don't know how much longer I can be unwanted for.
Me and Iszy have been friends since we were 13 year old. We have been part of the band since we were 17 years old. I love that girl as much as I love Elisabeth. It wouldn't be human though if I wasn't jealous. I mean I am not bitter or anything. No, Its just Iszy finding her soulfinder has magnified my need for mine by a billion.
It hurts you know. Everyday I wake up alone. Its horrible having your heart torn in two. No, not horrible, that's a weak word for it. Torture that's what it is. Yes that's what it is, It hurts.
When things hurt you take a pill to kill the pain. So lets give it a try. I empty the pills into my hand. 1,2,3,4,5 all washed down with a good old swig of whisky. After a while the room turns cloudy and the pain starts to dull. Not enough though.
6,7,8 more pills are emptied into my mouth. I hope this works I feel myself think as my thoughts lead somewhere else. Somewhere where I was happy. Soon the room starts to sway and I feel out of my own body if you know what I mean. I still know what my problems are, but I cant feel the pain no more.
No, now there is a different pain. A burning sensation in my heart. No, no! This was supposed to stop the heartbreak not make it worse.
soulfinder.
soulfinder.
soulfinder.
soulfinder.
The words ring through my head. Taunting me to no end on what I haven't got. I'm a glass under the tap. I'm filling up quickly, soon im going to overflow.
Soulfinder.
And that was all it took. That one word. I cant take any more of this. No! My head directs me to the pills. I poor the contents into my hands. I can feel them shaking. Its my time to go now. I throw my head back and shove the pills into my mouth. Forcing them down with whiskey before I can change my mind.
I lay down on the floor next to my bed. The last thing that rings through my mind is 'I probably should have wrote a suicide letter'
Death lolls me into a peaceful, yet permanent sleep.
Iszy
Perfection. My day was simple perfection. Me and Alex decided to have a 'no interruptions' Day. This meant leaving our phones, money and any means of contact to the human world at home. We walked the a field about 15 minutes down the road to have a quite picnic and get to know each other.
The first part of the day didn't go exactly to planned. Mainly because Alex has no sense of direction whatsoever. This basic meant that the quite stroll to the field, was actually a brisk and hurried walk down a loud main road with several crossing and turnings to go down.
But that didn't matter now, because I was exactly where I wanted to be. In Alex's arms. Well legs really. I had my head resting on Alex's legs as he stroked my hair. It was perfect and there was no place I'd rather be. Hey - that was quite catchy. I pulled my song lyrics book out of my bag - the only possesion I had been allowed to bring other than the picnic and began to write.
...
were a thousand miles from comfort
We have travelled land and sea,
but as long as you are with me,
there's no place I'd rather be.
/
I would wait forever
exalted in the scene,
as long as I am with you
my heart continues to beat.
I feel Alex looking at the lyrics over my shoulder. I look at him for approval and he grins.
"My baby's so talented!"
I grin ad carry on...
with every step we take
Kyoto to the bay
strolling so casually
/
were different and the same
get you another name
switch up the battery
/
if you gave me a chance
I would take it
its a shot in the dark
but ill make it
/
know with all of your heart
you cant shake me.
when I am with you
there's no place id rather be.
I look at Alex, enjoying my moment in the spotlight. Alex isn't smiling no more though.
"What's the matter?" I asked, shallow beauty queen act gone.
"Nothing" He says shrugging my had of him and walking away.
Jumping up I follow after him, shouting after him all the way across from our secluded little spot on the field. I cant understand what the matter. Had I done something wrong? Oh god, I wasn't loosing him was I? Alex started walking over the the crossing on the road.
I just stood there and watched him gormlessly. Then suddenly my heart caught up with what my head had just concluded. I cut across the road and ran towards the pavement, keen to cut Alex off. What happened next was not something I was prepared for.
I heard the horn before I noticed anything else. Turning on point I found myself in a game of chicken against the car. It was giant, a monster towering over me, ready for the kill. The dusk that had set into the sky illuminated its headlights, turning me into a rabbit in headlights. I froze in front of the vehicle.
I heard the screech of the tires and the shocked screams of innocent bystanders. The impact was the worst thing though. The car hit me straight on, flipping my body up the window screen. I heard a smash and what felt like a hundred shards of glass stabbing into my legs. I screamed in pain I couldn't help it.
Then all too soon I was rolling over the car and onto the floor. But I didn't stop there I kept rolling. The concrete took no mercy on me, pushing every shard of glass into my legs. Paralysing pain stopped me from moving myself out of the lane I had rolled into ...
The lane that had yet another car coming down the road blissfully unaware of my limp and broken body lying on the floor...
THUD!