I will be starting the sequel probably right after this one, so hopefully no break at this point.
And about the changes, no, I don't change anything major, but I do hange some little things and add a bit. I don't think there will be anything major if you don't feel like re-reading this.
My name is Gamzee and wow it's a long time I thought about it that way.
I just fist pumped the air, so happy. Tav drew a picture of me and him. Holding hands. There might be chances for me after all.
The evening goes by rather quickly as I enjoy myself, almost dancing around the apartment. I feel like I just got my second chance. Of course I already got my second chance, but now I have hope.
I try to calm down by thinking of what I want to do tomorrow. I have work, so that's what I'll start with. I can't get Karkat, since it's Saturday and he'll probably sleep late. Maybe I could go to the library afterwards to check if Sollux is there. And then I would most definitely come home to spend time with Tav. If he is home, that is.
My thoughts start wondering and I almost fall asleep on the sofa. I snap back to reality after hearing Tav's voice next to me.
"Uhh, are you going to, like, sleep on the sofa again?" he asks and I turn my head to see him better.
"Nah, I think I prefer the bed", I answer lazily, getting up and walking to my room. I pull off my shirt and pants and slip under the covers, even though it's not too late. I just can't stand being awake with these thoughts in my head.
So I fall asleep after a bit of trying and wake up early in the morning, not really sure what time it is. Besides, I'm feeling weird. And it's an oddly familiar feeling.
I quietly get out of bed and walk to the bathroom, examining my face. I look like I haven't slept in ages, or eaten for that matter. Holy shit, what has happened?
I stare at myself for a while, but when I blink the image is gone and I'm back to normal. I try to get my thoughts back in track. I'm just tired, that's it. I'm tired and imagining things.
I search the closet for my pills and take a few out. I swallow them dry and stare at my reflection until I'm sure it's not going to jump at me if I turn around. Then I leave the room and go to the kitchen. The clock there tells I it's 1 a.m. I groan quietly and sit down by the table, crossing my arms and resting my head on them. I definitely need more sleep.
I don't notice myself falling asleep by the table and are woken up by my nightmare, sweating and panting. It was awful, I can't believe I dreamt about something like that. Oh god, no. Please no. That dream was horrible.
I check the time and it's about three a.m. I watch the time tick away, unable to fall asleep again. The image of Tavros's decapitated head keeps popping up in my mind. I shiver at the thought of killing my lovely little bro.
Quietly I go back to my room and walk over to Tavros's bed. He's sleeping there, beautiful as ever and I smile. I sit down in his chair and rest my head on my hands once again, staring at him. There I fall asleep and see no bad dreams, but instead I'm woken by Tavros slightly nudging my shoulder.
"Hey Gamzee, how'd you, uhh, get there?" he asks from his wheelchair. He's shorter than me when he is in his wheelchair, even if I'm not even sitting straight. That makes me kind of sad.
"I sat down here and fell asleep", I say a bit groggily. Tav looks at me eyes wide and for a second the image of his bloody head replaces his real one. I jerk back and fall of the chair, hitting my head on the edge of the table on my way.
"Ow, god damnit!" I shout rubbing my head and sitting up.
"G-gamzee! A-are you all right? W-what happened?" I hear Tav stuttering and look up at him. He's taller than me for once.
"Urgh, I don't know. I just got scared by... Something. I don't know", I say closing my eyes as I rub my head. There will probably be a bump there soon. God that hurt.
"R-really?" he asks worry clear in his eyes and it pains me to see him looking at me like that. So caring and loving. Wait what? He's not looking at me lovingly. What am I thinking?
"I'm fine, just need something", I say heaving myself up from the floor with the help of my attacker, the table.
"I'll make you some tea", Tavros offers and wheels himself out of the room. Yes, tea to calm my nerves. Sounds fantastic.
I fetch some medicine for the aching in my head and grab a few pills for my anger problems while I'm at it. I seriously am starting to think those images and dreams have something to do with my issues. Why else would I have such a violent dream? So I down the medicines with some water and stagger slightly as I walk to the kitchen.
"I don't think you look too well", Tavros says as he puts my tea on the table. I sip it lightly to taste how hot it is. Too hot to drink yet.
"It hurts a bit, but other than that I'm fine", I say, smiling a bit, which doesn't turn out too well.
"Maybe you should, uhh, leave the make-up off today, and, uhh, restrain from too much work", he suggests. He must have noticed I would definitely not skip work today.
"Hmm, probably a good motherfucking idea", I reply and sip the tea again. It's still hot and burns my throat as I swallow, but I can't stand it just being there like it doesn't give a shit about the world.
I follow Tav with my eyes as he goes around the kitchen rather expertly, getting things for me to eat like cereal and bread. He must be trying to fill me to the point of bursting or something, since usually I wouldn't eat this much.
On the other hand, my head is still hurting and I don't feel like resisting, so I go with it. I eat what Tav makes me and it's actually pretty good. He even gets me some fresh clothes to wear.
"You know I could have motherfucking got up and got those myself", I say a bit flustered that Tav is doing so much for me now.
"Oh, uhh, yes, I know. I just wanted to help", he says smiling and I smile back. I take the clothes and pull them on. After that I find my keys and phone and ruffle Tav's Mohawk as a good bye.
"See you after work!" I say grinning and he waves me off.
He's been so sweet today. I can't help but wonder what he's up to. Maybe something really nice that we'll both like.